it was a pretty average day for the investigation. if you consider Touta Matsuda becoming overly excited reading gossip instead of investigating, Aizawa and Mogi continuously telling him to shut up and I, Ryuzaki , having a secret Lust for Light Yagami then yes, It was an average day.

by then I was almost 99% certain that Light Yagami; son of deputy director Soichiro Yagami was infact kira. And about 100% certain that I was also in love with Kira. The thought of Light being God of this world did not bother me but did arouse my attention, making him my main suspect.

Many thoughts crossed my mind that day, more often then they should but it was obviously because I had eaten more sweets than I normally planned. Being " in love" with Light Yagami and suspecting him of being a mass murder set my mind a drift ignoring my diet of all sweets.

The first thought was, what if Light Yagami was kira?.

Would I not kill him because I was infatuated with him?.

Would I have him kill the Japanese task force and attempt to rule this world with him?, probably that.

Sigh.

Why didn't I tell Watari to make the chains shorter?. I wanted to be closer to Light. I did not know if it was because I loved him or suspected him.

both.

I suppose.

My eye's drifted to Lights fingers slowly but sternly taping the letters on the key bored. The fact that he could type without looking down at the letters displayed on the buttons didn't surprise me. To me , his inteligents was amusing.

I felt that he was far inferior than I but hearing people say we where exactly the same satisfied me.

" Is every thing ok, Ryuzaki?" Light asked still tapping and scanning his computer screen.

"Yes, everything if fine."

I slowly turned my attention away from Light Yagami and focusing it on my laptop. I slowly bite my thumbnail, angrily , thinking of why Light wasn't aware of my feelings and sick thoughts. Probably because I didn't act like an insane obsessed fangirl. Misa.

"NO WAY! , ANOTHER KIRA SPOKE PERSON HAS JUST BEEN KILLED"

Matsuda yelled excitedly. I didn't quit get this man, why was he so interested in all of this Kira news, let me fix that, why did he enjoy it so much?. He treated this investigation as if it where a game. I did enjoy his loud stupid personality. It brought liveliness and removed stress from the investigation. that I enjoyed.

He began jumping up and down on the couch causing Aizawa's laptop to nearly topple over to the floor.

" SIT DOWN!" Aizawa yelled. He was outraged, as usual. There Aizawa goes again, correcting Matsuda's stupid mistakes and telling him to settle down with the excitement. Matsuda obeyed and sat back down calmly but jumped back onto his knees turning the opposite direction. I already knew what was going to happen, Matsuda was going to ask a question Light would Answer and I would sit down, knees in palm, quietly.

"heh kind of random question but how old where you when you guys lost your virginity?." He asked scratching the back of his head shutting his wide brown eyes.

my assumption was correct. that question push me over the edge, why would he ask that?.

idiot.

Maybe the others weren't bothered because they where no longer a virgin, unlike I. although, I would not blame my self. Watari never aloud me to be with anyone non the less, have friends.

"fifteen, I was a really stupid kid" Light said nonchalantly laughing at his own idiotic mistake. I wasn't surprised, Light Yagami was quit handsome. I didn't expect much from Matsuda.

"same here. sigh. what a mistake. what about you L"

Hmm. ok not what I was expecting but as they say, don't judge a strawberry by it's flavor. My heart beat began to raise, I couldn't let them know I was a virgin but I was always truthful and couldn't lie, they wouldn't believe me. If I did lie Light would figure it out that It had been a lie, it would be just like Light Yagami, never afraid to speak of his thoughts.

" well, Matsuda , I was always an orphane and never had permission to leave whammy's house without super vision therefore, I never had the chance. later on I became an FBI detective, the worlds best , no time now ether. It would be nice." I mumbled lastly. I bite my thumbnail thinking of Light, what it would be like to have my first time with . . . Light Yagami. Imposible. The chances of that happening where 1% at least it had been something but not enough.

"Ryuzaki, I- uh need to use the restroom"

Odd, Light commented that after he heard what I said but again, it was only natural to use the restroom.

To be continued. . .