So I enjoy mushy stories. I realize it has probably been done. But I was rereading the VD books and listening to Evanescence at the same time, so here it is. Let me know what you think please!

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone.

I was in the park, again. I just needed to get out and breathe, to get away, from him. I walked along the frozen path and cursed myself for breaking my promise, to him, to myself.

'I'll stay on one condition… no falling in love'

'Not a chance of that, Salvatore.'

But even as I said it, I could almost feel it, a warning; I ignored it. I didn't want to think about the possibility of falling in love with that incredibly beautiful, incredibly dangerous man. I went and did it anyway. I let him into my life and eventually my heart, and what is worse, I think he knows.



These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I've held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me.

Running away doesn't help me; he can find me, anywhere. I saved him once, I gave him my blood, and now he is a part of me. I know so much about him. All those nights that we spent in front of the fire talking, the long walks through this very park. I can see him now, his dark hair, always tousled, always making me long to run my fingers through it. And his eyes, those dark mysterious eyes that captivate me, even now.


You used to captivate me,
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.

"What's wrong?" I shivered in the cold and shook my head,

"Nothing, Damon. I am just cold." He wrapped an arm around me and walked me toward our… my apartment. I just savored the feeling of him standing next to me, very rarely does he ever just hold me like this. It is almost like he knows what I am thinking, but my shields are very firmly in place.


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
and I've held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.

I don't know what to do anymore. He's going to leave soon. I don't think he knows yet, but he will, I can tell. I keep trying to explain to myself that it will be better if he leaves. I can get on with my life… my mortal life, alone. But the thought of him leaving threatens to bring tears to my eyes. I am struggling to keep the shields firmly up in my mind. I can feel him waiting for the moment I slip and let him in. But I can't let him in, not this time. He can't… won't make this better.



I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
I've been alone all along.

I woke up this morning alone. It was the first time in a while, for a moment I thought that he was gone, but then I heard his voice from the living room. He was on the phone, with Stefan I guess, his brother. Stefan thinks that Damon is just going to hurt me, but he doesn't know his brother. Elena does, Stefan's wife. I think that Elena understands, she doesn't say anything.

I lay in bed realizing that I am alone, regardless of how long he stays, I am alone. I will grow old and die, and no one will be waiting for me on the other side. No matter how much I love him, he is beyond my reach. Damon, a fallen angel waiting for the end of time, more alone than I will ever be… my immortal.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me