"The Day that I Truly Died."
( )=Sasuke's thoughts
It was yesterday and from the alarm ringing off I knew it was past noon. For days I was unable to wake myself up before this time. I guess that the reason I stayed up late was because I was having the most beautiful dream. It was not one of lively Sakura trees, green grass and a pond filled with water so blue that it could only be formed by a person with an artistic hand. I use to dream only of water of gliding and being one with the water. I would be floating in the blue seas of a creek that would gently sway me left and right. Then I would imagine a repeat of that particular day. I would recall one scene with a boy and me laughing about something children laugh about. I would remember a woman kissing my cheek and saying "I love you". After hearing those words you immediately think that you and that person will always be together. Sadly, I do not dream of this anymore. I dream of blackness. It was nothing but darkness with no other color penetrating my senses. When I close my eyes in the sunlight I see no colors; blue, green, red. I wish that I could see red the most. The ruby color symbolizes passion, anger, shyness, and life because it is the color that runs through your veins and gives you life. God I feel so alone. After my family's demise I did not trust anyone anymore. I pushed away the people who cared about me thinking that I do not deserve their kindness. I dreamed of either black or me standing by their grave crying.
I wish someone would take my life. I yearn to be with my family so much but I know that I must live to avenge them. This is the reason I am going to Orochimaru Naruto. I have to do this one deed even though it will taint what is left of my soul. I know you Naruto, you would say "Sasuke-teme don't shut us in the dark. You're my friend and I will not have you throwing your life away just to bring upon more unhappiness."
The raven hair boy watches the unmoving form of the blonde child. Sasuke lowered himself to the ground and stared into the closed eyes of his bubbly friend.
"Oh Naruto if only you had let me leave the way I wanted. Our confrontation later that day would have spared you any more hurt."
The boy gets up and turns away as tears streak down his face whether it be from the rain or his soul crying out forgive me.
He walks through the dark forest reminiscing about the good old days. He recalls the fallen blonde boy being punched in the head by a pink hair girl for saying something about Sasuke being a bastard. He laughs when he is reminded of Itachi doting on him. After he sprained his ankle his brother gave him a piggyback ride or, watching Itachi throw shurikens at the bull's-eye. He remembers a time he truly felt like a boy. It's funny because he told Naruto while fighting on the roof of the hospital that "he was done playing with these children". He might have been a twelve year old boy to the village, but he held no innocence that a boy of that age would have. After his parents demise he was no longer the son but a man with a forgotten history. It is forgotten because he has no one to reminisce with about memories of the past. He could not tell Itachi that he felt sad or alone because Itachi was the one who destroyed everything that held meaning to him. The black mark on Sasuke's neck spread over his face. He could no longer trust anyone enough to share secrets or fond memories.
(But you did find someone.)
Sasuke stopped walking and looked toward the bright yellow light poking out from white clouds. The saffron light and blue sky was a reminder of something he missed.
"I guess that he will always be with me in spirit. He always had a certain appeal that made people feel good about him or herself."
He wiped the rainwater from his forehead.
"It is gone."
The silver emblem represented childhood and home. It was everywhere throughout his travels whether it be blowing in the wind or falling from a branch. The leaf mark on his forehead was a silent commitment he made to the village and its people. He might have detached himself from the Leaf Village family but he can never completely detach himself his roots. The mention of his surname forces him to realize that he brought dishonor to his clan for abandoning what he sworn to protect. His family has to forgive him for joining Orochimaru because he needs to avenge them somehow. Everyone in the Leaf Village believes that he is turning back on his friends and family. The people of the village pressured him into thinking that it is his destiny to avenge the Uchiha Clan but, the village never dreamed that he would go to Orochimaru, the father of all pedophiles. I mean it is one thing to be a traitor but to blindly walk to someone with his history and ask him to be your mentor that is just bad decision making. The Ninja Academy should have preached to the children about what happens to a person that gets derange from power.
(Where the Hell is Orochimaru? Isn't he supposed to appear now?)
Then he heard the voice. He looked at the sky and around the forest area but no one was there.
"This feels like some cheesy movie. So what do I do now raise my hands up to the sky and then the snake man will appear in the shadows and then have me walk through a tree which is really a tunnel."
Sasuke jumped at the sound of a twig breaking.
(Here we go.) His hand dove toward his pouch filled with kunais. Sasuke jumped high into the tree looking from left to right to see if anyone was in view.
"Meow."
Sasuke rolls his eyes and leans back against the tree with his legs cross.
"If Orochimaru wants me then he will seek me. Besides I thought that he really would have come out of the shadows and, do some hand signs and then bing boom pa there he is riding on a snake."
"Sasuke." The voice whispered.
"I will guide you to my lair just feel my power in you."
Sasuke's narrow eyebrows creased the lines on his face.
The sapphire eye boy grumbles "Feel my power in you".
"How dare you mock me, you insolent…" Sasuke rolls his eyes and crosses his arms over his chest.
"I'll just go somewhere else." The snake man lowers his eyes to the ground and holds out his arms. His eyes widen as if he was a child wanting to be picked up.
"Wait! I'm just kizzing.
Sasuke visibly shivered at the pronunciation of the word "kidding".
"Whatever, which… what did you say?
"Kizzing"
As Orochimaru said the word his long tongue came out and lapped at his own lips. Sasuke squinted his eyes.
"Kidding." Sasuke held his head up high when saying the word.
"Kizzing." The ghostly colored man waves his arms above his head making an s-shape. Then he crosses his hands and shakes his head from side to side as the black pupil shrinks into a slit. As Orochimaru does this Sasuke takes a couple of steps back and listens to his inner child.
(He's a superfreak. Runaway Sasuke-teme!).
"What would I do if he really acted that weird? Should I stay with this lunatic and hope for the best. I sacrificed everything I had to make this avenger mission possible. I am grateful that Kakashi taught me the chidori but who knew that I would have used such a powerful weapon on Naruto of all people. I can see me punching, wacking, ignoring, teasing, playing, touching, grinding… but I am digressing again. For every move I make I create my own destiny. I am only going to get better if I train with someone who is not a Sharingan wielder but with a known reputation for abducting children and scaring a very scary woman in long socks and, a trench coat. As you can see I made a very wise decision. I did not even think about my mentor's fashion line. I look like I am wearing a huge pajama shirt and high-water pants. It is still better than what he has got going on. He is wearing a sack with a rope around his waist like some hillbilly. Sorry I am doing it again."
"No, really what happened in the forest was that I just knew where I was going. I walked until I found a temple. Before you ask let me remind you that I was walking for days only stopping to rest for a few hours per day because the Leaf's Anbu were after me. At times I felt like returning to the Leaf Village but I knew I could not. I murdered the only person that I could ever have… It was always about his life and progression that spurred me to remain number one. Now, he is a martyr of our friendship and our past. I can never return home, because my soul is corrupt. My hands are red from pain and bloodlust. If, I am forgiven then maybe the tears and sweat flowing away from their bodies might clear the blood that has stained my hands. My destiny after fighting my brother is to live knowing that I will be hunted for the rest of my life. Finding the Sound territory is my only future now."
( I know this sounds very dark but what other choices do I have. I hated being me for a long time now because I have to keep reliving these truths of my life. I wake up bathing in a sea of salty water and then finding the Heavens leaking like an open scar. The ruby liquid drops in big puddles turning the green forest black as charcoal.
"Ahhh!" I did not care if any one was around. I just screamed and started punching a tree until my knuckles were covered in purple and blue welts.
"Where is that conjuring, Hokage murdering jackass?"
I cannot just go into…
(Where am I?… I'm near Cloud Village, right? All right let me look at the map.)
He points to a blue line leading straight toward a creek. The red line about 25 feet next to it is a big mound of purple.
Right, now I am lost. According to this I should have turned back about 15 ft ago. You would think that at least one of the Sound ninjas would have given me a map of their hideout. I was stuck in a bucket for four hours so, how the hell was I going to know where to go.
"Wait a minute did you not have a map with you."
"Surprisingly I did."
(Where, it is not like you have any pockets in your short shorts. Who wears short shorts, my man wears short)
"Anyway, so I decided for the first time in about two weeks that it was okay to go to town. I really thought this out if I was in a tavern or some inn then maybe I could hear something about the Sound Village and where it might be. Before I entered town I thought it be wise to disguise myself just in case the Leaf ninja are around. As soon as I entered town I put on my disguise. It consisted of a blonde wig and knee length black shorts and a black t-shirt. I am wearing a blonde wig because no one would suspect that Sasuke would ever go blonde besides it does not remind you of anyone in particular.
The tavern was made out of fallen branches but surprisingly the roof was made out of stone. Sasuke moved to the corner of the large tavern slowly working his way through the crowd of people watching and listening as if his ear was pressed against a wall.
"When I saw that bootylicious flesh I just had to grab it."
He moved slowly yet quickly enough to avoid being recognized as a snoop. He hesitated a couple of times wanting to turn away from this loud boisterous scene to go back to the quiet life of listening to crickets and watching the fire flies dance around the woods with the colors reflecting those of the dawn. He half listen to the people around him and continued to move until his back pressed up against a wall. He looked out of the window and saw beauty in its finest. The sun's reddish gold hue blended with the fluffy pink clouds that erased the trail left by the golden sphere. He opened his mouth in silence wondering if he should ask the bar maids if there was any available work. As he left the river he recalled staring into the closed eyes of his… friend, and then it hit on him days later that he left his equipment and provisions during the fight between Naruto and that white haired man. To the people here he might seem bored but on the inside his mind was buzzing like a bee around a flower. He thought of maybe working here would let him reach his goal of finding Orochimaru. At the same time his gut told him to leave this place and quickly. He recalled listening to his gut and not the voice in his head that urged him to kill Sakura. It did not matter that she was holding her heart out to him. He had to do something to make sure she did not get in his way. He could not kill her because she was weak emotionally. Those feelings she had put her in danger all of the time.
" I hear voices too. Yet, the voice sounded more like a beast roaring before it struck its prey. "Kill her Sasuke! Do it now." When he heard the voice he knew that something was not normal. I think Kakashi put a seal on me to delay me from finding Orochimaru. The seal Kakashi put on me diminished my ki which really pissed me off. Kakashi did not know that my second motive was to kill Orochimaru. I will kill him after I learned everything I can from that guy whose skin is as white as chalk. Eventually Sasuke walks until it became so dark he could not see his own hand. He then looks up at the dark sky and realizes that it is a bit dangerous to be traveling in the dark. Besides for him to see anything he would have to make a fire. If he did that then someone might see or follow him back to his campsite. The luminescent moon was not there to support him even though it promised to always be there with him to help him on his perilous journey. Sasuke feels around the dark forest and then decides to run up the biggest tree he could find so he can have no one attack him without being in the open. After the 20 feet climb he decides to sit on the thickest tree branch. He then pulls out a small jade box covered with big sapphire blue drops. He flips the box around until he sees a silver crank. Before he turns the crank he reads the inscription written in silver handwriting.
To my beautiful baby boy do not ever doubt my love for you. You will always be first in my heart. If I die before while you are sleeping remember that I will become the moon and forever watch you until I am reincarnated.
Sasuke turns the crank and smiles at the beat da…la… da…la…purr. Da.. la… purr
A figure of a woman wearing a black and silver satiny dress appears awaiting a white dove to land on her hand so she could kiss it with her ruby lips.
It is okay to sleep my little baby
because mommy is protecting you while you sleep,
I live to watch you soar like this little bird in my palm,
This dove sings a message to you after I am gone,
She says Sasuke we will be at peace one day,
But until then you must be strong and remember that I will be there
Watching over you like God watches over me,
So I will continue watching over you in the form of the a star,
You will know which star is me because I glow like the sun,
Now that I am apart of your memory do not let me die in your heart
As the tune plays on tears trickle down Sasuke's cheeks as he sucks in a hard breathe now and again. On this night Sasuke dreams of what could have been.