I haven't written any fan fiction in a while, and while rereading the Vampire Academy series and then reading many peoples fics, it has made me rediscover my love of writing fan fiction.
So hopefully I'm not too terrible. It would be lovely if you reviewed and let me know how you think I'm doing.
No one really knew what had happened to Rose or why she had left the academy.
All anyone knew now was that she back, and she was broken.
The Rose Hathaway that the world had grown to either love or despise just didn't exist anymore. She floated around school like a ghost. I hadn't heard one word from her yet and she had been back for over a week now.
Liss spent every waking moment she could with Rose. I knew she had been given the option to reenrol but she was still saying in Guest Housing at the moment. So whenever Liss had a spare few minutes, even between classes she would go to Rose. While Lissa is in class, Adrian sits with her, he says usually they just both sit there in silence but we all feel better having someone with her.
Lissa doesn't talk about what happens when she's alone with Rose, and I think we're all to sacred to ask. Plus I feel like I don't really have the right to ask Lissa anything anymore.
Even though we aren't together anymore, I occasionally still hung out with everyone although me and Liss never spoke directly to each other. I was with them more now that Rose was back though.
Our little group only talk about what might have happened to Rose when nobody else was in earshot and the lady herself isn't actually with us.
Adrian looks most uncomfortable whenever the conversation turns to Rose. I can see it in the way he shifts his eyes away briefly then doesn't look any of us in the eyes for more than a few seconds. I don't think anyone else has noticed it yet.
When he is asked about the few times he had managed to dream walk with Rose while she was away, he would suddenly shrug and be all vague about the dreams when before he would go over every detail with us.
The one thought that I just kept on circling back too though was; if someone as strong and selfless as Rose could crack, what chance did the rest of us have? It just proved the point that whatever had happened to her was much worse than what any of us could even think of comprehending.
I'm not even really sure if Lissa knew what had happened to Rose.
I knew from the guarded way she had spoken of Rose's leaving that she knew why Rose had left, but she always kept that to herself.
I didn't see either Rose or Lissa for two days after she arrived. I don't even think any of the teachers or guardians questioned Lissa's absence. Everyone could see the girls needed some time together. After everything that had gone down with Avery and then what ever had happened to Rose, I think they needed some time.
After the two days, Lissa had started bringing Rose to lunch or hanging out with us after classes finished. You never knew how Rose would react though.
Sometimes she sat among us and would smile slightly at something funny and actually look at us, as if she was trying to participate as much as she could right now.
Other times she'd stay stuck to Lissa's side gripping onto her hand. She wouldn't smile, but she was there with us.
Then there was one option, the one none of us liked and were slightly nervous of.
Rose would sit close and then her eyes would sort of cloud over. Her face would go slack and she' just sit there, not looking at anything, and not responding to anyone. Her eyes would do this weird flickering thing. Rose could sit like that for hours sometimes.
Eventually Eddie would scoop her up and carry her back to her room.
After Lissa and Adrian, Eddie looked most worried.
Everybody knew their relationship had changed after Spokane. Both had a fierce need to protect the other and it especially showed now. Eddie would wring his hands or pace when he wasn't with Rose, but when he was, he'd be very quiet and still, as if a tiny movement would startle her. He would retell funny stories of things they'd done together and happy memories. Sometimes she acknowledged him, other times she didn't.
He even stood guard outside her room when she slept.
Rose now had a habit of having intense nightmares at night.
We'd found out the hard way that it was better to leave her be, even if it meant letting her scream it out on own, which we all felt terrible for.
The first night Rose was back she had stayed in Lissa's room and we'd all been allowed to stay really late. Rose had fallen asleep first and I remember us all looking around at each other; none of us wanting to state the obvious: something was wrong with Rose.
We had all collected our things together and were shuffling out the door when it started. Being nearest the bed, I heard it first.
Rose's breaths had stopped being even and were becoming long and heavy. I turned away at first not thinking much of it. Eddie and Adrian had already walked out of the room and I didn't want to be left awkwardly with just Lissa. All of a sudden though Rose's breathing has sped up, looking over at her I could see that her fists were clenching and unclenching.
Liss took a hesitant step towards her and slowly brushed Rose's hair away from her face. That was a mistake. Rose let out a tortured kind of cry and for a lack of better word, started to convulse.
Lissa started panicking and sat beside her, gently whispering to her trying to calm her down, but Rose only got worse and started thrashing around. Lissa jumped back and ran to the door calling for Eddie to come back.
Rose had started to pull on her skin, dragging her hand down her neck. I pulled against her hand, not wanting her to hurt herself. Another mistake. Rose started thrashing even more violently and started screaming.
Eddie was by my side and we tried restraining Rose as she kicked out wildly. I could hear Liss crying behind me somewhere as we manhandled her friend. Whilst trying to control Rose's flailing limbs, Eddie had gotten a knee in the gut and I got an elbow in the face. Even in her sleep Rose put up a better fight than most of us.
Me and Eddie had finally made her still when Lissa called out to her loudly, all of a sudden Rose sat bolt upright with a huge gasp grabbing at her heart, her whole body had started to shake then. It had been a long night then for Lissa who had ended up staying awake the rest of night with Rose.
Eddie said he could hear her every night going through the same thing, that she'd wake up screaming sometimes as much as nine times in the night. Even with the couple of sleeping pills Alberta had slipped her she'd wake up around four times.
Of course rumours were flying around school like no tomorrow.
Rose ran away for an abortion.
She was sent to a psychiatric unit after she went crazy after the attack on the school.
She chickened out of being a guardian and ran.
She eloped with Adrian. Although that one was quickly dismissed once people noticed he was still here and pinning after her more than ever.
The list went on, getting more and more ridiculous. But then add them to the whole new bunch of rumours on why she was now back again and you had a whole boatload of crazy ideas.
When I passed by people that were talking about her I couldn't help but listen a little more carefully. I got in a little more trouble that week because when I'd hear something pretty nasty about Rose I would usually flip out and start shouting at whoever had been saying that shit.
I may not have always liked Rose Hathaway, but I damn well respected her.
This fic isn't necessarily romantic, but it could be if that's how you want it. At the moment it's more comfort and hurt.