NOTE: I seriously admire the relationship between these two sisters (in a platonic way), and applaud Disney for having made such a wondrous work of art :)) anyway, Frozen does not belong to me. So without further ado, I hope you ENJOY this simple one-shot. XD
"Do you wanna build a snowman?"
I was 8 years old, and those were the words I missed the most. If only she knew how much I missed them. If only she knew I wanted to play, and build as much snowmen as she wants. If only she knew how those words would leave bouts of happiness, knowing that she still cared, as well as marks of sadness, knowing I could never answer them.
"Do you wanna build a snowman?"
She is 10 years old, I was in my 13th. I wanna build a snowman. I want to get out of my cage, this cage filled with fear and false hopes, fear of hurting those I loved, and dashed hopes for the ever growing uncontrolled power that lies inside of me. I hate myself; I have completely grown to hate myself. I wish you knew. I've always ached to tell you how much I miss you, how much those momentary visits of yours mean to me. Please don't grow to hate me.
"They say have courage, and I'm trying to… I'm right here for you… Just let me in… We only have each other… Just you and me… What are we gonna do?
…Do you wanna build… a snowman?"
The monster inside of me has taken over, and all I can do now is to fight it with tears of grief. I wish I could be with you. I've always wanted to be beside you, to play with you, to at least see you, to somehow make you see that I do care, that I've always cared, but I can't build a snowman, not anymore, not with you. I love you Anna.