This is a rather lengthy poem depicting Anakin's inner struggle through the years as he tries to see the Force the way Obi-wan saw it.
Daddy
guess what I did today?
I rode that blazing rocket far away
through canyons
deserts
rolling hills
but I couldn't catch it still.
Daddy
I came home again
but you weren't smiling
or laughing like you usually do.
You still made me tea
and gave me cookies
but when I asked you why I couldn't catch it
you closed your eyes
and said
tomorrow I could try again.
I miss him too.
Daddy
it's been five whole years
and I'm better than I used to be.
Everyone admires me
but no one knows
it still eludes me.
I think you've caught it
but you won't show me how.
You keep telling me
there's water
flowing
round and round
but I don't feel it.
Father
It hurts
to kill.
I guess you warned me once.
Or so you tell me.
Is this why your smile
never reaches
your eyes?
Father
is it still there?
You said it would be
forever and ever
but the horizon is dark.
Where are the reds
and oranges
and blues?
Water
you tell me.
Flowing water.
Follow it
and it will be there.
But the river I see…
it's no river at all.
Father
there is no river.
You cling to nothing at all.
He says I already have it
and I believe him.
There is no river that leads to the horizon.
No reds, no oranges or blues.
Just me.
And I have it.
You never told me.
Traitor.
Liar.
Deceiver.
Look at where your river led you.
Black and charred
it burns and burns.
Can you feel it?
Power.
I have it
but you never saw it.
Your eyes, they weep…
for me.
It hurts to die
you know.
There is no river.
It used to be there;
I used to be able to see its glow
just beyond the end of the flow.
You called it a trickle
I called it a rush
but though I saw differently
at least it was there.
And just beyond it
that faint, soft ember
ever burning with infinite rays.
Is that where you are?
Will you wait for me?
Did you leave directions
on how to arrive?
I need a map
some signs
anything at all.
You left nothing.
Just a memory…
A blazing rocket
with me on top.
Through canyons
deserts
rolling hills
and I cannot reach it…
still.
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