disclaimer- I don't Own Inuyasha

'I never understood why Kagome desperately wants to stay here for the summer. She always wanted to go up there, and relax and see the rest of her family. I don't understand why she wants to stay now, out of all times. I never think I will. But when I heard the whole story and saw tears lingering down her face, I couldn't blame her."

' I can't believe school is over! I can't wait to go to Long Isle Beach relax in the sun. I've been waiting for this trip ever since school started!"

Ayumi screamed out at the top of her lungs, as the whole entire school pushed up the doors fleeing in crowds out into the open, taking in the sweet air of summer knowing now they wouldn't have to return to school, at least after two months were over. Kagome hugged her books tightly to her chest knowing she had to do a summer report that barely any of them had to do. She didn't mind, though she could of cared less. It would be something to keep her busy from the real world around her. Everyone else had fire lit in their eyes, talking about the summer plans, and how they were going to enjoy themselves.

Ayumi danced around as her black skirt spun up into the air, as the rest of the girls giggled in laughter never seeing her this excited for anything before.

"Well your lucky. Your parents can actually afford to go places like that. I mean last time you guys went to Hawaii so I really don't see the difference!"

Eri mentioned grabbing the extra snack bar that she had saved for later to eat. It was true enough, she always went to exotic places getting these incredible pictures of famous artwork that looked like something from a postcard, it was unreal. Eri had a small cottage near the lake nothing more, that sometimes got her mad she couldn't explore the world like Ayumi. Yuki could of cared less; she was happy staying right at home in Tokyo arranging parties and finding and meeting guys through some summer parties.

Everyone was hyped up in talking about their summer plans that they had been imagining and talking about since the start of school till the end. It was something that kept their mouths full besides Kagome and what was going on with her. They walked across the street now walking with the crowd of students from their school, as Kagome just bit her lip, she wasn't as excited as the rest of them. Sure she went to a cottage three hours away, with forest bike trails, everything to keep a girl like her satisfied. This time it was different something else was troubling her more than realized.

' Why did it have to summer again?'

Kagome thought to herself, grasping her books harder with every passing thought that was twisting her stomach in knots and that made her ready to tear up instantly. Her friends barely even realized she had been dead quiet, or even realized she had been beside them this entire time. Ayumi just drifted out of the conversation seeing that she had this worried look on her face, and that she had been very quiet and nobody knew her as a quiet girl.

" Hey Kagome. What's amatter? We haven't heard anything out of you for your summer vacation! Your probably going to go to that cottage aren't you?"

Kagome looked back with heavy hurt lingering in her eyes, that she threw them off with one of her fake cheery smiles they took as though it was real. She sighed softly, feeling the sun beaming down causing her to sweat alittle as she threw back her hair into a swift ponytail trying to keep herself as cool as possible. She loved the cottage, but that wasn't the problem. There was more to it then that. Of course she loved seeing the rest of her family, they were too far away in her opinion. She enjoyed running into the lake and feeling free up there, like she had no worries at all, but now she had one she could never get off her mind. It was eating her alive. It was something that would scar any person for life, and bring them to pain and tears. She just stared down at her feet watching them in line with the rest of them, as she placed the happiness back in her voice.

" Ya I guess. I mean I've been going there every single year of my life! For the whole summer, there living a life of hell. It's what I worry about every year now. I can't get out of it. My family is too happy there, besides it will never change. They'd never believe me anyways. I can't even bring myself to tell any of them either! I'd be lucky to be anywhere but there."

The girls smiled brightly, as they walked to the edge of the corner of the street patiently waiting for the light to change, as they watched cars flying by and people walking the streets making the whole city seem more alive then it had ever been before. They were already getting heat waves, that caused everyone to grab fans and hide underneath the shade of the trees. They crossed, walking down the long stretch of street that was wasn't too far from Kagome's home.

" You sound pretty excited Kagome! You always use to be hyped up telling me how beautiful it was and everything. I can't blame you. For such a small place, it seems wonderful! Hey…aren't you happy about going?"

Kagome bit down on her lip, now that they were slowly figuring her out. She walked on, removing her long black bangs from her face and turning to them feeling almost guilty to lie to them, but it was the only way to protect her and themselves from the secret she was trying to remain secret.

" Ya well I am, just that sometimes it's boring doing the same thing every summer. I'm excited abit, but it's more for my mother and my brother. My mother barely gets to see the rest of her family, and Sota excited to be up there with rest of the boys his age, and the girl he has a crush on. What a liar I am."

They all smiled at the fact her brother was infatuated with a girl with blonde hair and had huge blue eyes that he had met at the lake. Needless to say, they missed each other every time they left, and they hated when the summer ended. Sota would write her letters all the time, and trying to catch up and promising each other they'd be there and it was always something Sota would wait for all year. Kagome thought it was cute how they were. She hated now she had to worry and be scared, and if anyone knew the secret they couldn't blame her for not wanting to go there again.

They stopped swiftly in front of her house, seeing the girls sad they had to part since they were all going to leave to go somewhere soon. Kagome wished that she could go with them, but she knew that would be out of the question. Her mother always nagged her to come with, and she couldn't say no to her no matter how many times she got to be with her friends away from the hell she was awaiting. They hugged Kagome tightly, with sad yet eager looks on their faces.

" We'll miss you Kagome! Make sure to call if you can! Bye, see you sometime soon!"

They all chanted, walking off only seeing the shadows of three girls dressed in uniform walking down the bend of the street and disappearing out of sight. To Kagome, they were her ticket out of hell but she knew wouldn't be able to. After all her mother wanted her to come, and it was more of a family thing than anything before. She couldn't fight with that, or break her mother's heart for that matter. She just swallowed, walking up the steps looking at her house seeing bags outside already packed ahead of time waited to be loaded into the car.

" Why do I have to go there? I don't want go, nobody will ever understand why but I do. I can't live with that again, and I know it will never change. It's always been that way. My summer vacation isn't a vacation anymore, it's a lifetime of hell. Only if they knew what happened to me, then maybe they'd understood why I wanted to be anywhere else but there."
Author's Notes: This is partly based on truth. I thought it wouldn't be a bad idea to release a summer fic out. So tell me what you think!