I was hiding behind the wall of Hokage's office. I knew I did not have to attend this meeting, but I also knew it was about Kakashi.
Kakashi ... He was always with me, even when I did not wanted him.
- I can not accept that! Do you realize that, if you go, there's no way back ?!
The deep and nervous voice of the Hokage was the only thing that could be heard in the room. Everyone else was silent, waiting for her to finish talking.
-This is the role of a Shinobi. Defending the village to which it belongs, even if it is the sacrifice of his own life.
At the hearing of these words, I froze. Kakashi had spoken slowly and bluntly. I repeat in his mind the words he said: "the sacrifice his own life."
-I can not afford to lose a Shinobi, not now. I will consult with the Brothers, they will surely know what to do.
I knew the meeting was over, so I went back and left. On my way home, I stopped at the training ground next to the river.
I have to do something. I have to make him change his mind, and not leave. Lost in thoughts, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned back scared, pulling backwards until I felt the trunk of the tree behind me. I breathed lightly when I saw Kakashi's familiar face.
-"I told you not to do that anymore! I could make a panic attack!"
He was just standing with his hand still on my shoulder, smiling under the mask.
"I have to admit, I like to do this," he said, then hit my nose.
- "Are you sure you are 19 years old?"
He just laughed and pushed me so that I would get to the bottom, on foot, and then he would sit down. I wonder if he's going to tell me about his mission?
-"What happened?"
He turned his head so that he looked directly into my eyes. I was silent, not knowing what to say.
-"Nothing, I just got tired on my way home."
-"Aya ... Tell the truth. I've known you since I know me, you can not lie to me."
-"Actually, you don't know me since you know you, because I'm 15, and you 19, and I met you when I was four, so we've known for 11 years."
I got up quickly, hoping he would not ask me again.
I walked home, waiting for Kakashi to come to my side. I noticed he's not like the usual Kakashi, but I did not say anything.
Once in front of my house, I came back, looking at Kalashi.
- "I'll see you tomorrow, Kakashi!"
I waited to see his reaction, and see if he was going to tell me about the mission. He said nothing, looking at me. A small shadow of sadness covered his visible eye, but disappeared just as it had appeared. Kakashi turned and walked away. I went into the house, hoping it would be okay.
I ran to Hokage's office, hitting all the people around me.
-Where is it?
Hokage stood at his desk, looking at me sadly. I felt like I was starting to shake. I ran to the exit of the village. I have to find him. I have to find him.
The lightness came to me when I saw the well-known gray hair. I ran silently up to him, hugging him from his back. He stopped without turning back to me.
-"Why, Kakashi? Why are you doing this?"
Tears began to fall, not realizing what I was doing.
-"Please don't leave. Don't leave me, not you!"
I felt the strain, then I felt his hand on mine, pulling her to release himself. I did not let go of him, clutching him even harder.
-You promised me, Kakashi. You promised me you would never leave me.
I know that what I do is selfish, but I do not care. All I want is him to stay.
"Aya," he said slowly." How did you know I was going to go?"
- "I can not believe you were going to go without saying goodbye without telling me."
He turned his face to me, looking in my eyes. None of us said anything. I continue to cry, unable to stop, and he looks at me.
Without thinking, I leaned toward him, touching his lips, which were covered by his mask,
after which I pulled back. He was astonished at my action. I felt my cheeks stain, but I was trying to disregard it.
-"If you go, I ..."
I could not finish the sentence because of the chest pain that cuts my breath. I closed my eyes, hoping it would pass. Before I started to open my eyes, I felt soft, soft lips pressed against my lips. I opened my eyes, staying surprised. He pulled me closer to him, clutching me in his arms.
I could say officially that I had the first kiss. I hoped he would change his mind, and stay in the village.
He pulled away, pushing me away from him. My cheeks surely made fire, making me look laughable.
-"It's sad, you know?"
His voice sounds sober, totally different from his way of speaking. Before I can ask him what he is talking about, he continues:
"How long have we known each other, Ayam? You said it, for 11 years. In those 11 years, didn't you realize I did not stand you? That I'm not really your friend? I took care of you just because that was my mission. Over these years, I was hoping you'd figure it out. A real ninja would have figured out in the first few days."
I was stuck with the words of the venom of the one I thought my best friend. Tears formed a cascade on my face, unable to hold them. Without saying anything, he turned and left, letting the darkness and the cold of the night envelop me.
" Kakashi ... " My voice echoes, full of fear and sadness.
This was the prologue