Author's Note: Hey guys, this is my very first fanfic and it's based on Stephanie Meyer's Twilight series (because like all of you, I can't get enough of those delicious books) All characters, save my own, are hers. I would love it if you let me know what you think of it so far. Please feel free to review or even leave a one word comment, anything to keep me going!

Asleep Underwater is what I think happens after Eclipse, the beginning, Breathing New Air, is of Jacob's POV. I'm not a terribly big fan of him but in my "idea," I wanted to start off my Post Eclipse fanfic with him.

Yours truly,
-icecherie

Title from David Usher's beautiful song, "Alone in the Universe."
Rated T for coarse language (c'mon it's Jacob we're talking about) and some possible other certain scenes later on in upcoming chapters ;). I don't think this is going to be thrusty, haha, so it shouldn't be rated M.
Chapter 2 Fire & Passion is up! Sneak preview on BellaxEdward in the end.

Asleep Underwater
Chapter 1: Breathing New Air

Jacob

Where in the world was I?

I slowly walked up the path. Sometime in the late night I had phased back into human form because it had gotten harder to breath. As I took gigantic lapses of air, I saw the clearing. I could've sworn this was some scene from an old 'Wild Wild West, cowboy movie. I was in the middle of fucking nowhere.

Something in my core stirred and I winced in pain. Instantly I knew what it was, the pain came upon me whenever I felt rage. When I first phased there was something deep within me that I still cannot explain. My brothers know about it, they've all got the devil in them themselves too. Sam, most of all, knows all about it. His escaped on Emily not too long ago. This thing, it's always had some amount of control over me. I've tried again and again to be rid of it and it won't go away, instead it resides within me. It captivates all my feelings, mostly of rage, and they're all uncontrollable. It's been in me ever since, and it's deep. It's pretty deep. I remember feeling depressed, angry almost after I phased. Well, maybe, yeah, I was angry. Heck, I was out of my mind. This demon inside of me wanted to consume every bit of my own flesh.

I could feel the demon now, feel it on the verge of lashing out of my core. If I could only stop thinking about her, if I could only…forget her, the demon would go away. It's so hard, I couldn't find it in myself to do it. I had run until the moon sailed up and went back down, and the sun was setting again just now. Throughout the entire time I was running I tried to release myself from her. I didn't want to think about her anymore, even her name, or her beautiful face in my mind would trigger so much hatred. Not for her, never for her…but for that leech, that filthy bloodsucker. If I could, I'd kill him right now. I'd run back the way I came and bite at every last piece of the goddamn stone he's made up. Oh, how I'd twist my fangs into his weakspot, he'd thank his bloodsucker brother for teaching me that. Ha.

No, no. Breath. I put my hands on my knees as I faced the ground and exhaled. Inhale. Exhale. The demon inside of me crawled back into the darkness where it belonged. I can't go back and kill him, I told myself. I don't know the way back. I don't know where the fuck I am. Agitated, I stripped off my boxers and phased back into a wolf.

I looked around and saw that from where I stood there was a highway leading off the path. I looked around for some signs to see where I was but there wasn't anything. Some lousy highway. It must be the one-oh-one. Obviously. But where am I?

The highway was empty so I didn't phase back and began to race along the road. A small bridge at the next exit came into view, it was small. I could see the shape of a large group of people crowding around it. The bridge faced Lake Pleasant, of this I'm sure. There were cruise boats everywhere. Where the hell did all these people come from?

It was almost dark when I phased into human form once again and put on the pair of boxers I had held onto with my teeth. Thank god, I only managed to make one hole. I smiled at the thought. I was still half naked but who gives a shit. The people here would have to assume I went for a little swim, and if they didn't, then that's their goddamn problem. I walked over to the bridge and a couple of eyes looked my way but turned back around. A lot of cars were parked off on the road and a lot more people had gathered now coming from god knows where to this bridge and lake in the middle of nowhere.

It must be the fourth of July. I suddenly wondered what the boys must be doing right now. My brothers… the pain of thinking about them was immense. Had they heard all my thoughts? I had blocked out all the of theirs after the first nightfall and when I tried to read in again, I didn't hear anything. I had really lost them.

I walked over to the end of the bridge where it was deserted and felt the wind take me. It eased some of the pain and I smiled in turn. It was completely dark now and the wind blew around noisily. I tried to listen to it. My stupid attempt at listening to the wind didn't last long as my attention went to my immediate right, there were loud cheers and shouts. My head snapped and relaxed, just a bunch of idiots enjoying fireworks. Nobody dying, and no little newborn bloodsucker being a complete asshole. Fireworks. Some fireworks they were too, real shabby. The fireworks the boys and I would stir up, now that was something.

Breathing deeply I climbed up and raised my hands like DiCaprio in Titanic. As I tilted my head back and closed my eyes, I swear I felt my heart tug backwards and pull me back before I heard the words.

"Hey, hey you!" Someone spoke from behind me. I assumed from the melodic tune of the voice, it was a girl. But you never know these days. "Look, there's lots of kids here. If you wanna kill yourself, do it someplace else." A bright red firework brightened up the sky.

Forks. Ha. I snorted. But she had some nerves talking to me like that. I put my arms on my sides and just to annoy the hell out of her and even give her a scare, I rocked on my heels against the railing. Even as I lurched forward I felt an automatic tug backwards. She must've walked off because I heard the sound of her heels trail off. Heels. Ha, girls these days. Bella would never wear heels, she couldn't keep herself balanced on her own bare feet. I laughed out loud but my heart sank down to my toes as I thought of her again. The hatred for the leech was about to surface when –

"AND HE'S LAUGHING!" the girl screamed, but her voice held concern. I hadn't heard her tick-tack-tick return. Why did she care? What was it to her. Who the HELL even was she?

I turned around deciding whether I should laugh or not and my eyes met the police officer first, so I eventually laughed. His head was arched way up to look at me, what sadness. "It's alright son, we're here. Just give me –" I laughed again but strangely, my heart tug onwards, "-your hand."

"He's crazy. Never mind officer, let him be. Let him rot." My eyes glanced over to the person whose voice held obvious disgust next to the cop, the one wearing the heels with her arms folded across her chest.

Five or so white and yellow fireworks lit the sky and for a minute it felt like daylight had returned. Then my heart took a gigantic lurch forward as if to have me fall right on top of her, and as I saw her clearly and examined her smooth cinnamon-copper skin and long, black hair fighting against the wind and her big, almond, red-brown eyes, my breath escaped me and I felt my feet lift off the railing towards the opposite direction. I caught one last look of her face and it did not leave my mind.

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I opened my eyes to see light shining through the white curtains behind me. I was clearly at the hospital. I sighed and closed my eyes and once again my heart melted, those red-brown eyes, so much like aragonite, came into full view behind my lids.

I felt someone lift my arm and opened my eyes to see a Nurse removing one of my many bandages. She had tied her hair up in a high bun and I thought I caught some deep reddish brown in her eyes.

She looked annoyed. "You're healing fast," she said when she saw me awake, "Awfully fast." The irritation in her voice was certainly there. The same red-brown eyes were there too. But it wasn't her. The similarity was there though, she could be her mother.

"Shouldn't you people be happy?" I asked hotly.

She shook her head in dismay and scorched me with her eyes. Like mother like daughter. She walked away before I could say another word. She didn't go too far because I heard her talking to someone in the hall although I couldn't make out the words.

Why the hell am I not out of here yet? I thought. The old Jacob Black would've been out of the hospital the minute he opened his eyes. No, I thought, the old Jacob Black would've never made it to the hospital at the first place. Home did all the mending just fine. I sighed.

If I was going to leave, I was going to see that girl first. I didn't know when I made that decision but it felt like a personal command. I sat up on the bed ready to get off and leave so I could think of possible ways to follow that Nurse home and the thought baffled me. What's wrong with me? Follow a Nurse home? This wasn't me, Paul would never leave me alone if he found out... And suddenly her face and her hair against the wind came back to my mind and I fought every reasonable thought out of my mind. I made my decision to follow the girl's mother after she was done her shift and just then my heart thumped so loud, I never heard it so loudly before.

I caught the sight of long black hair from the corner of my eyes and instantly faced to see her. She wasn't the figment of my imagination, she was actually there, not in my mind, but there, and I knew that even at the entrance of my thoughts, she'd be there too.

She was standing against the door, her waist long hair curled near the bottom. She wore a green blouse and dark jeans. She was wearing buckled heels and her aragonite eyes shone with sympathy, her lips were slightly parted and already, I knew her cheeks would be soft. Her hands were entwined as she titled her head and said something.

I didn't make out what she said. My heart had decided to murder my eardrums at that exact moment.

Again she said something and I didn't hear her. I shook my hand and clamped my ears, I thought about ripping them off and burning them. My heart would face the same fate if it didn't stop its deafening ringing.

She took a step closer and looked worried, I could tell she was about to call the Nurse for help so I ran next to her. I had to let her know I wasn't insane. This was all so embarrassing, I could feel the heat in me burning every part of my system. Even in her heels she came up to my elbow and I peered down at her wide glowing eyes and reached out to hold her slender arm, oh her arm.

The moment I touched her, my heart escaped me. I felt the whole ground shake. Suddenly I had a hundred bricks on me as I fell down on my knees and my forehead crashed into the floor in front of her and she took several steps back. She broke into a run as I felt the demon in me snarl but I fought it and I tried to yell after her. No. Don't go.

Author's Note: To continue or not to continue, that is the question. I'll probably continue anyway, I'm dying to finish this!