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A/N: This is my first fanfic and I promise if you read you keep reading it will get better. This is basically just an intro to the story. Please read and review. Thanx!

**Note: I'm trying to edit this story and make the chapters longer, so this is the old chapter one and two combined and edited to be made more interesting…

I used to have a perfect life. Sure, there were ups and downs, but in the end, everything worked out in my favor. I went to a great muggle boarding school, made top grades, had awesome friends, and the perfect family.

Then, I found out that no one had the perfect life, much less me. I found out I was a witch at the age of eleven and got whisked to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, where I also made top grades. Eventually, I grew apart from all of my friends except for the occasional letter, it is hard to live a secret life and still maintain a friendship. Then, things really spun out of control. My parents decided to get a divorce. I was not very happy about it, but I decided to try to make the best of it. Eventually, the bitterness made scared to love anybody. Even though I was almost seventeen, I was yet to have a boyfriend. How could love exist forever, through all of life's trials? Despite my broken family and bitter attitude, things between us all seemed to be going okay. Next thing I know my little sister decides that I am a freak and decides she wants to make my home life a living hell. That is really when things started to go downhill.

My name is Lily Evans, I am sixteen, almost seventeen, and my life is slowly spinning out of control. I try to be happy and seem like I am in total control, but when so many things are screwed up it is hard to believe it. Tomorrow, I am going back to school. That is where I am truly happy. I have friends there, I am head girl, and wizardry comes naturally to me. I miss my old friends, but I still keep in touch with them. When I am at school, I can pretend that my sister does not hate me and that my parents are not fighting for the attention of us children.

"Wake up Lily," I heard my brother's voice say; my mum must not be home, "You have to leave in two hours."

"Okay Oliver, but where is everyone?"

"Mum had to go out for some groceries and Petunia left last night." I heard the door click shut and knew that my brother had left. I slowly rolled out of bed (I was not a morning person), rejoicing that Petunia was not here to completely ruin my last day home. I looked in the mirror to examine my appearance. My bright red hair was a mess and my bright green eyes had makeup smeared underneath them.

Before I knew it, I was downstairs, dressed, packed, and ready to leave. About ten minutes before I had to leave, the telephone rang, and I heard mum's voice telling me it was for me. It was my dad calling to tell me goodbye.

"Lily dear, I just wanted to call and say goodbye and have a great year," a visit from him must be too much to ask for, "so, good luck and I love you."

"I love you too dad," and halfway through my sentence, I heard a click on the line and knew he had hung up. His twenty-eight year old girlfriend must not have been able to find the toothpaste again. She is such a ditz.

Soon, we were at the train station and my mom and brother were telling me goodbye.

"Bye Lily darling, I hope you have a great year," my mum said pulling me into a tight hug. "Try not to work too hard and have a little fun, it's your last year."

"Try not to think too much about what a bitter little brat you are." Oliver said, smiling, "Maybe you can try to finally find a boyfriend for me to torture," Oliver told me, looking hopeful. He was always begging me to get a boyfriend for him either torture or to have another guy around. I was yet to figure out which one it was.

After exchanging "I love you's" and promising to write, I was on the train looking for a compartment with my best friends, Gwen and Eden.

We eventually found an empty compartment and settled into it.

"So Lily, did you meet anyone over the summer or did you finally realize that you and James were madly in love," said my tall, thin, blonde haired, blue-eyed best friend Eden. She was also in my house, Gryffindor and was the sort of girl all the guys swooned over. She has had a different boyfriend every week for as long as I can remember. It is pretty obvious why, too. She was obviously gorgeous plus she had a great personality and was hilarious.

"No, I didn't meet anyone and for the fifty billionth time James and I aren't madly in love. As a matter of fact, I can hardly stand his existence." Eden and Gwen were always saying that James and I were going to end up married and spend the rest of our lives together. I, for one, could hardly stand the boy.

"Come on Lily, you know the two of you are madly in love. Why else would you despise each other?" chimed in my other best friend, also from Gryffindor. She was short and skinny yet curvy with brown hair and deep brown eyes. She was the sweetest person alive. The sort of person who you could tell your deepest, darkest secrets without fear that everyone would find out and always had a shoulder for her friends to cry on.

Before I could argue with my two demented best friends, in burst the infamous marauders, James Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew. Talk about speak of the devil. The four of them were always making some sort of trouble by pulling some sort of insane prank. "Fortunately" they were also in Gryffindor house. James and Sirius were the ringleaders of there little group. James was tall with dark brown hair and electric blue eyes, he was THE man on school campus, always surrounded with half a dozen girls. I, myself, found him obnoxious. He was the sort of person who could get any girl he wanted and he knew it. He was the captain of our house quidditch team and star seeker. Sirius was tall with dark hair and eyes. He was the house team's beater. He also did a damn good job of it. He was also very funny and had charisma to spare. Girls also flocked around him. He had a different girlfriend every week. Remus had light brown hair and blue eyes. He missed quite a bit of school and was the sort of guy who girls adored for his sweet, understanding personality. Last and certainly least was Peter. He was short with beady eyes and just kept quiet. In fact, he was so quiet that if you were not looking, you would not know he was there.

"Can we hide in here; we just dropped dung bombs in Snape's compartment? The dumb bloke never saw it coming." James asked. Snape was a greasy Slytherin seventh year. He was the Marauder's favorite target for their practical jokes.

"Sure, how has your summer been?" asked Gwen. I suspect she has a crush on Sirius and would do anything to be near him.

"P-p-please tell me that the badge on your robes is some sort of joke," I asked James of the head boy badge pinned to his robes. James Potter, sure he made good grades, but him being head boy simply was not possible.

"It bloody is real; looks like you and me are going to be spending a lot of time together this year!" James responded with a wink. I was going to have to spend time with him? That is like cruel and unusual punishment. Looks like this year was going to be just as bad as my summer.

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           I slowly rolled out of bed; it was the first day of my last year at Hogwarts. I silently wished that it would be a year to remember, in a good way. I promised myself that I would somehow have fun this year and not worry so much about, well, everything.

"Good morning, Lils," said the always early riser, Gwen. She was SO perky in the morning; I could hardly stand it. I mean I love her to death and everything, but at least give a couple minutes to wake up before talking to me. That definitely a drawback of sharing a room with others, not having any time to yourself to wake up.

"Morning," I mumbled, "big shock there Eden isn't up and breakfast ends in half an hour. Should you do the honors or should I?"

"How about we share them?" Eden said with a smirk on her face.

"On the count of three."

"One, two, three," we said together. At three, we both started shrieking our heads off, thus waking up a very annoyed Eden. Then, just when she woke up, we pushed her out of the bed.

"Great wake up call guys," my disgruntled looking friend, Eden said sounding like she wanted to kill us for waking her up while it was still light out.

The three of us proceeded to very slowly get dressed and make our way down to the great hall where breakfast was being served. Somehow, I am not quite sure how, we ended up sitting right across from the infamous Marauders. I, fortunately, had the great pleasure of sitting right on the side of James.

"Let me tell ya, Lils, you look like you've spent HOURs making sure you looked just right," James said eyeing my crooked outfit, miss-matched shoes, and hair that had been in a ponytail since the previous night.

"Doesn't she look just darling," said Sirius with a smirk.

"Gee guys sorry I didn't wake up hours ago to make sure I looked just right so as not to disappoint the perfect James and Sirius, but some of us need sleep from time to time," I snapped back at them. I was definitely not in a good mood this morning. Just before Eden could tell them to shut the heck up, there was a loud noise. The owls were there delivering everyone's mail. My mom sends all the letters I get from my old friends to me through my beautiful white with gray spots owl, Shweetie. I had three letters. One from my mum, one from Oliver, and one from my best friend from when I went to muggle school, Callie.

Dear Lils,

Hey, honey. Just wanted to tell you I love you and have a great first day.

Hugs, kisses, and bundles of love,

Mum

It was just like my mum to send me a letter telling me to have a great year on my first day. It was also just like my dad to not even think about it.

Dear Lil Sis,

Hey Lily-kins. How's it goin at school? Hope your year goes well and you finally find a boyfriend for me to harass soon! Just joking, though it would be great.

Love ya,

Oliver

I know my brother was just trying to make sure I was happy, but I really wish he would lay off pressuring me.

Dearest Lily,

Hey! How's it goin at that school for the gifted you go to? My school started again yesterday and I totally hate the whole all girl's prep school thing. You'd think I'd be used to it after like a decade, but I still miss ogling guys. Have you me anyone new? You totally have to get a guy so you and I can double next summer. While I hate my school, I'm totally loving being in my last year there! Write me soon!

Hugz,

Callie

"Wow, your brother totally wants you to be kissy kissy with a guy doesn't he?" James said. He somehow got a hold of my brother's letter. He will not ever let me live this one down, but before I could scream at him…

"Lily, I just wanted to tell you I love you and have a great year, love mummy," Sirius said in a mock-girl voice, but before I could strangle him with my bare hands, Professor McGonagall came by handing out our schedules.

Monday, Wednesday, and Friday:

Charms with Professor Flitwick

Defense against dark arts with Professor Abbot

Transfiguration with Professor McGonagall

Tuesday and Thursday:

Double potions with Professor Pucey

Arithmacy with Professor Branstone

History of magic with Professor Binns

Herbology with Professor Sprout

Care of magical creatures with Professor Grubby Plank

Looks like it was going to be a heck of an interesting year. Who would not love double potions with the Slytherins? Me for one, as well as, all of Gryffindor house for another. Well unless you happened to be…

"Bloody brilliant! We get to make fun of that greasy bloke in class!" said a very excited Sirius.

Overall, the day went by well. Charms was great, I for one have always thought it was the easiest class ever offered. James did, however, somehow manage to blow something up, though I am not quite sure what. Defense against dark arts went well. It has always been my favorite class. Transfiguration was an entirely different story. Apparently, Professor McGonagall decided to make a seating chart and that the head boy and girl should work together and be partners for the year. That means not only do I have to share a table with James, I also have to like work with him. This might be the worst year of my life. Gwen, however, was practically floating on air because she was paired with Sirius. To think, she still has not admitted to liking him.

After classes, I was sitting in the common room working on my mountain of homework, when James and Sirius walked up to Gwen and I.

"So, ummm guys as you know I am the captain of our quidditch team this year," said James with a smug smile on his face.

"What he's trying to say, behind all the gloating, is that last years beater decided her time would be better spent studying," Sirius began.

"To think, study while you can be playing quidditch, it's a conspiracy I tell you," James said looking rather perturbed.

"And now James is looking for another beater to replace him and well we were wondering if you knew where Eden was, because honestly we think she would be great at it." Gwen's face fell, she looked very disappointed. She obviously been hoping they would ask her. It would mean she could spend more time with Sirius.

"Never seen a girl that would do a better job of beating stuff up," said James with a snort.

"And honestly she's not too hard on the eyes either," Sirius said with a wink. I could have killed him. All this time he had only been spending time with us because he wanted to be with Eden. Poor Gwen thought he liked her, and though she refused to admit it, she fell really hard for him.

"So anyway if you see Eden around tell her we're looking for her," James finished. I thought he would leave after he finished asking for his favor, but I am not that lucky. He plopped down in the chair right next to me while Sirius walked off to tell some first years about how Professor Pucey might just kill them and use their brains for potions ingredients. Gwen took off to our room probably to cry. Just when I got up to follow and console her…

"Lily what do you have against me?" James asked and to my surprise looking very serious.

"Nothing."

"Oh really? Then why do you always try to stay as far away from me as possible?" James asked once again looking deathly serious.

"No reason. Other than the fact that you're obnoxious, spoiled, and have a perfect life, which honestly gets on my last nerve," I replied, very annoyed. Why did he have to pretend to care? Just then, there was a noise coming from the other side of the common room and we looked up to see all the first years running away from Sirius looking scared.

"Well then, I wouldn't want to annoy the great Lily now would I?" James said getting up and walking away before I could answer. Right before he left, I thought I saw hurt in his eyes. That is not possible though, why would he care what I wondered. Everything about his life is perfect. Sorry if it bothers him that one person alive does not absolutely adore him.

"Wow those first years, they're so gullible! They'd fall for anything I tell you! They'd even believe me if I said house elves should be treated as equals! Wait a second where'd James go. James, darling?!?" he shouted looking confused and running off.

I sat there for a few minutes thinking about my fight with James, forgetting all about Gwen. Why would he care what I thought? Was that even a fight? Don't you have to care about someone to really fight with them and hurt their feelings? James does not care what I think. Does he? Why would he? I do not know how long I sat there thinking. All I know is that I was eventually interrupted by Remus sitting down in the chair on the side of me. Funny, I had not even heard he and Peter come in.

"Is there something wrong Lily, you look confused or maybe even upset?" Remus asked with sincere concern in his voice. That was all I wanted, for people to be sincere. I would definitely be confused a lot less if I knew they were.

"Nothing it's just James. I mean why is he so dang confusing? I mean one second we're joking, the next he's running off looking like I hurt his feelings. I mean that's not possible he doesn't care." I said getting more confused by the second.

"Sometimes people use joking as a cover up to their real feelings so they don't get hurt." Remus said getting up to leave. I thought for a little longer, then left to console Gwen. That night after I went to bed, I tossed and turned for a while, wondering if he cared and why I cared if he cared. I mean after all, he was just annoying, perfect, obnoxious James right?

~~Well there it is! Hope you liked it! I'll try to update again soon!~~