Title: Fairytale Gone Bad
Category: TV Shows ยป General Hospital
Author: GwenhwyfarRose
Language: English, Rating: Rated: T
Genre: Angst
Published: 03-07-09, Completed
Chapters: 1, Words: 415
Warnings/Spoilers: Everything that happened before March 2009 with John, Maxie and Lulu is included in this.
Summary: tell them the fairy-tale's gone bad
Official Disclaimer: All General Hospital characters and plots belong to Frank and Doris Hursley, and ABC. I do not hold stock either the people or the company. John Zacchara, Lesley Lu Spencer, and any other character featured are NOT mine. The title, summary, and lyrics come from the Sunrise Avenue song Fairytale Gone Bad and I don't own that either.
She knows about the kiss.
It's something she's repressing, a bad memory, and tries to carry on with the farce that was her life. Her boyfriend loves her, her roommate tolerates her, and there's nothing going on between the two.
She doesn't believe it any more than anyone else would.
He tries though; she can't say that he doesn't. Sweet kisses and pretty flowers before he tells her that he promised someone else that he would do something for them. He hasn't told her his new schedule for work either, which makes planning around it slightly more complicated. She can just imagine that he's not really there. That he's with the other blonde in his life and they're doing things that she hasn't gotten the chance to as of late.
She tells herself it's just her luck.
In her family she wasn't the one that was supposed to get the epic love and fairytale romance.
She can't seem to find a man that's willing to love her for more then a moment.
It's not like this is the first time. Her first love was built on a multitude of lies, mostly her own, and then the second time around it was like trying to fit a circle block into a square hole. There was too much missing for her or him to salvage. She still hears from him occasionally, filming in Canada. His emails contain pictures of backdrops and antidotes of the people he's met. She's just glad he's happy.
Her second grand love was so much different then the first. He was a nice man, driven mad by circumstance and his love for her. She still remembers the way he professed his love for her even as he was coming for her. He loved her to death, almost literally, and she can't help but feel sorry for the fact that she didn't love him back. The nightmares that he caused are almost all gone now, and she finds that she can actually say his name now.
This love was supposed to be it for her. He was the perfect man and they had already defied so many odds together.
He kisses her on the forehead and sinks into the couch and she can't help but feel like yet again she's second place to someone who's everything she's not.
She knows that the phrase 'one and only' doesn't apply to her anymore.
She's losing him.
And with her track record, she's almost afraid to care.