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Ah so we're in the club that means he wants to have sex tonight. We came here together but that doesn't mean we're 'together', and even though I say 'we' there is no we or us, it's just him- Ichigo and me-Rukia. There he goes with someone named Senna –his date/partner/lover/whatever for tonight. When she asks about me, he says 'just a friend'. Yes that's what I am to him for the past ten years –just a friend -whom he has sex whenever he wants; and here I am waiting for him to fall in love with me.
But it all ends tonight. I think ten years is long enough to crush anybody's hopes and dreams. Its not like I was waiting for him and did nothing, I told him that I loved him time after time just to get ignored by him. He enjoys all night in the club with random girls and the comes to me late at night just to have sex, as if having sex with random pretty girls wasn't enough. I guess tonight will be different from his routine.
A few years ago I saw that as his commitment towards me, now I just know that he just uses me and throws me away when he's done. Look what I've become-the heiress of Kuchiki Empire -a whore for Ichigo Kurosaki.
It all started when I was 12. I fell in love with him when I didn't even know the meaning of love. The first time I confessed to him was when I was 15. His answer? He laughed his ass off. The first time we had sex was a month after my 17th birthday. It was Valentine's Day and he was upset about something, so I guess for him it was just something to clear his mind. For me it was the best thing in the world. The next day Kaien confessed to me but I turned him down because I thought me and Ichigo were in some kind of relationship. Oh how wrong was I. Ichigo acted as if nothing happened between us. I was heartbroken again. After few days when things went back to normal Ichigo dropped by in my room from the window, for what? -sex. That's when our 'special' friendship started. I never could say no to him because not only was I madly in love with him but I was utterly stupid. Every time we did it I told him how I loved him; his response was always a 'Hmmm' a way to say that he heard what I said but doesn't want to acknowledge it. I never gave-up on my love for him that is until a week ago.
A week ago Kaien confessed to me again and asked me to marry him. I said I'll think about it. Is it really necessary to think? On one hand its Ichigo who used me and doesn't even want to introduce me as his girlfriend, and on the other hand its Kaien who has been in love with me for the last five years maybe even more and ready to make a commitment. I know how it feels to be unloved and I don't want to do to Kaien what Ichigo has been doing to me all this time–trampling on my heart. So my choice -I accepted Kaien's proposal, I'm going to marry Kaien and leave my hurtful past behind me. I bet Ichigo hasn't even noticed the ring on my ring finger.
Right, time to leave for Tokyo. I'm getting married on Valentine's Day. I didn't have the nerve to tell Ichigo about my wedding, it's not like he's going to proclaim his undying love for me. I'm just shielding myself from the hurt and pain I would feel after hearing his uninterested 'Hmmm'. I glance at Ichigo, this may be the last time I see him before I get married. He's busy dancing with Senna. I smile at him. He chooses to ignore me. I feel like crying but the tears have already dried out from all those years of crying alone. I leave the club without him noticing that I left. He has a key to my apartment. Tonight when he goes there he'll find a note on my night stand saying 'Please take your stuff away from my home'. I only wish it was this easy to remove him from my heart. See you, Ichigo.
As I drive to the airport I think about Kaien. He knows about the 'special' friendship I had with Ichigo. He never blamed me instead he understood how I felt but he also made it clear that I was hurting myself by continuing to hold on to false hope. He said he'll always be there for me and he'll wait for me. What more could I want? I have a man that loves me and I know that one day I'll fall in love with him. Seeing how Ichigo works for the Kuchiki Empire I'll not be able to avoid him but atleast now I'll have Kaien to help me through it. I board the plane. After I land in Tokyo I get a call from Ichigo, this time I chose to ignore him.
Today is the day I get married, I have Inoue, Momo, Rangiku and Tatsuki as my bridesmaids and Kaien has Uryu, Hitsugaya, Renji and Chad as his groomsmen. I'm getting nervous not only because it's my wedding day but also because Ichigo showed-up yesterday. He tried to talk to me but the groomsmen took him away with them and he never came back so I guess what he wanted to tell me wasn't that important. It's time for the ceremony. I take a step towards the altar…happiness here I come.