AUTHORS NOTE: I'm a huge Kite/Rush fan and I thought I'd attempt to write a series of one shots on their relationship. This is my first time at writing CC fluff so I apologise if the characters are OOC. (1/20)

DISCLAIMER: I don't own the characters

[Love]

"Do you love him?" She looked over at Scotty, her hands dug deep into her coat pockets and her face hidden behind her scarf as she tried to protect herself from the cold. She didn't know when she and Scotty had started to talk about things like this but they always did. He'd told her about his girlfriend's schizophrenia and she'd felt as if that immediately formed some kind of trust relationship between them. "Don't smile at me like that, Rush." He said and the use of her surname just made her laugh, immediately regretting the action as the cold attacked her.

"What do you want me to say, Scotty?" She said seriously because she didn't know how she felt about Kite. Sure, she enjoyed spending time with him and when she saw him with another woman; she immediately felt jealous but did that really equal love?

"I want to know if you love him." He said simply and she found herself shrugging because she couldn't answer the question. She wished she hadn't told Scotty about their argument now because he was probably going to try and fix things but Lilly doubted that anyone but her could fix this argument as she remembered their argument.

"I feel as if we keep hitting a wall," he whispered against his lips, her hands buried deep into her hair as he kept her on his knee. She closed her eyes and pressed her forehead against his. She knew that this over the same old issue. He could say "I love you" so damned easily and yet she'd not said it once to him. She'd told him that it was just her and him which had made him happy but now he wanted her to utter those three words.

"Kite," she moaned her hands on his shoulders as she braced herself thinking of another reason for why she couldn't say it to him. They both knew it was because she had issues with giving herself to someone because of what she had gone through with her mother. Her mother had left her at such a young age for a relationship with alcohol and Lilly had probably never felt love for anyone but the raw kind she felt for her mother, no one but her could understand why she returned constantly to her mother's aide.

Even though they'd been together for so long, she still called him Kite because it was natural to her. He picked her up off his knee and stood up, ignoring the wounded expression that she flashed him. "I'm sick of standing still, Rush." He said her surname in such a seductive tone of voice and she knew that he was angry with her but he hadn't conveyed that really well.

She stood up and clung to him, "don't go."

Rush looked at her, a sad smile highlighting his face as he looked at her and sighed. "Give me a reason to stay, Rush. All I want is..." his sentence ended when he saw her shaking her head. He just nodded, leant in and pressed a kiss to her lips before leaving her. She stared at the door for a few minutes before falling to the floor, tears falling down her cheeks as she held onto one of her cats, her face burying into his fur.

"I don't know if I do, Scotty. I just don't want to lose him," she admitted sighing as they reached their destination and she hope the end of her conversation about her relationship with Kite. However, she should have known better with Scotty.

"Well I hate to break it to you, Lil but I think that sounds like you have feelings for the guy and they might be love." He said before ringing the doorbell so that she couldn't answer him. She ended up mulling over his sentence for the rest of the afternoon.

Four days later and she couldn't take it any longer. She climbed off her bed, ignoring the lazy glare off both her cats due to her disturbing them. Grabbing hold of her coat, she ran out of her house and hailed a cab. She had no idea what she was going to say to him but she had to say something. She missed him.

Butterflies fluttered in her stomach as she reached his front door, her hand pressing to her mouth as she tried to fight back the nausea. Reaching over to knock at the door, she was stopped by Kite opening the door and staring at her. "Hi," she whispered softly staring up at him. He looked so casual in his jog bottoms and a tight white tee shirt that showed his muscles. She cursed that she'd literally come out in her pyjamas.

"Rush, if this has something to do with your case then you'll need to come see me tomorrow at the office." He said pointedly. "Not all of us work late into the night." She looked at him and realised that she did indeed deserve that but she just shook her head.

"It has nothing to do with a case, Kite. I just wanted to tell you something." She shivered against the cold but didn't want to walk into his house. She wanted to say it to him on the doorstep. "I've avoided saying this for so long and everyone knows it's because I'm afraid of getting hurt but I know that you'd never hurt me." She admitted nodding and realised to herself that she should have thought about that a long time ago. She moved towards him, a hand pressing against his chest where she could feel his heart beating. "I love you," and then on the end she added another word he'd always wanted to hear, "Jason."

He looked down at her in shock for about a second before he grabbed hold of her, his arms wrapping around her waist as he pressed his lips to her. She giggled against his lips at how happy the simple sentence had made him and she now understands how powerful love is.