Title: 25 Musings.

Author: ThePointGirl
Fandom: CSI: New York
Pairing: Several: Mac & Stella, Danny & Lindsay, Stella & Flack etc. (you get the picture)

Rating: PG-R (I suck at ratings)
Warnings: None really…though some slash might appear so beware if you don't like that kind of thing.
Feedback: Review or message. (Hint, hint. Thank you)

Notes: Ah I needed to write something like this-actually do it. And viola.

Episode help: Urm ranging from quite early to late… it depends.

Disclaimer: CBS owns CSI: New York [damn it] and all of it's awesome characters played by (to name a few): Gary Sinise, Carmine Giovinazzo, Eddie Cahill, AJ Bukley, Melina Kanakaredes etc they are all absolutely amazing: D

Chapter 1: Love

Love is a very strange thing. Sometimes: it hits people like a ton of bricks, other times: it's a warm feeling for someone you are with everyday.

With Stella it was the latter.

She cared for all of her colleagues in very different ways.

With Adam and Lindsay it was a love for a brother and sister, because she felt - as they were younger - she had a protective sense over the two. Partly because they acted like a brother and sister too, they both had so much enthusiasm and happiness that Stella wondered whether it was real. Lindsay certainly fitted in with the team and she grew into a CSI you could be proud of. Adam was always trying his hardest to please Mac, and succeeding though the Detective has a funny way of showing it. But the Lab tech wanted to be needed and Stella - with the help of the rest of the team – made sure he was. From his nervousness around Mac (which is going down now) to his know all in areas of the world, Adam Ross is vital in the New York City Crime Lab.

Danny was in a completely different category, she cared for him as a friend that you felt like you needed to, because he was always in trouble. Danny was the one, which you could tease without getting tired of it. He's cocky yet you can't help but smile around him. He cared deeply for Aiden and when she died he was hard to handle. Stella tried, she could see Danny disintegrating behind the CSI, and it needed to stop. It did eventually and Stella was happy to see him back to normal. Whatever 'normal' might be for Danny Messer. She had also pushed him (though this is difficult) when a clash of personalities had developed, most of the time this being between Mac and Danny. Stella was content to see the two at good terms; she had an argument with Mac herself to defend Danny, and now they are better than ever.

Flack, she wasn't sure about Flack. She joked with him all the time and did care about him a lot. He was one of those people who you couldn't help caring about. Everything he did (as far as the women went) was filled to the brim with charm and charisma. He knew things about her that perhaps Mac didn't. Not because she trusted him more, but Flack was easier to open up to. Stella felt sorry for Flack because he got the heavy blows when Danny was in a mood. Stella learned that Flack bounced back from change and heartache because he had learnt to from past experience. He was NYPD cop at it's best. He had lost Aiden and then Jess, and he was still going strong. Flack was an amazing person and she didn't know what she'd do if he wasn't in their so-called gang. Even though when Flack is hanging around the lab (where he finds the time for it she'll never know), Danny has a habit of joking that he shouldn't be there and that he should be chasing perps around a deli. This brought back a memory of the, in a way, fun chases she had come to with him. But Stella knew that if Flack weren't hanging around Danny wouldn't like it and neither would she.

Lastly the one person she should have mentioned at the start. Mac Taylor. Even when Adam had started out he had asked Stella about her relationship with him. That was embarrassing and ended with Adam looking horrified at what he'd asked. Stella didn't mind…really. He was just being curious. Flack often hints at it, but he knows as well as anybody that nothing will happen. Because the two of them are better off as friends, really good friends. Mac was her support and she was his, that's why when arguments arise they are normally sorted out by the next day. Like when you're at school, you think it's a big thing, but because you don't like being without the person you are arguing with, you become friends again.

She loved Mac more than the others.

She wasn't afraid to say it. He needed someone to care about him. Was she jealous when Peyton and him had become something? Yes, sort of. She was happy for him. But then that relationship ended and it was awkward between the two of them. He was her boss and when most of the time they think on the same level, other times Stella likes to enlighten him because it makes her feel better. Stella has seen him put himself in danger and he has been nearly killed three times, she has had nightmares of what would happen if he didn't come out alive. When the more sunny times come round they make jokes together that Flack would say is not just friendly. But she doesn't care.

Because: Stella Bonasera will love all of her colleagues… just in very different ways, whether they know it, or not.