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Chapter One: Flashback Transformation.

I stared dejectedly out of window, my thoughts swirling into a incomprehensible mess. Ever since they left, the notions of my life had been severely altered resulting in myself being sucked into a neverending spiral of depression. When the Cullens were with me, I wanted nothing more than to have an eternal life to spend with them but ever since they uprooted and disappeared, an infinite life without them seemed impossible. Pointless.

The wish I once wanted more than anything soon became my nightmare. How could I cope without the family I loved more than anything else? I didn't want to be a vampire anymore, I didn't want the endless days to melt away without someone to spend them with. How would I live?

But alas, fate decided to turn against me; lashing out at me with it's fury. Firstly, making my reason for existing, Edward, leave me in cold, hard words. Then; my own father turning against me.

I remember the first time, it happened. At the start, it was harmless. Forgivable. A gentle slap on the face from Charlie for answering back. A swift punch in the stomach for screaming. All acceptable things until alcohol entered the situation. Charlie used to come home from the station intoxicated and who was there to deal with his anger? Me. Who was there to be his personal punchbag? Me. I took it all; telling myself I deserved it.

Broken bones, deserved them.

Loss of blood, deserved that.

Bruises from Charlie's belt, deserved every single one.

I look back on it and realised why he did it. I was a nuisance, a waste of space, breathing in oxygen that I didn't deserve.

Yet, the words Charlie shouted at me, hurt me more than anything else. Left scars that I can't get rid of.

Why would Edward want someone like you?!

I don't blame them for leaving!

Waste of space, waste of time, waste of breath, waste of energy! Bella, your a waste!

They hurt more than the kicks Charlie delivered, the punches Charlie swung at me. Hurt more than anything. Almost more than anything.. I remember something much, much worse..

-Flashback-

I ran out of the house, my eyes lifeless, skin sallow, blood trickling from my lip. I stumbled into the forest, gulping in deep breaths as the hole in my heart ripped open even more. Everyone had turned against me, my own father, my one true love.. Did I deserve such a hard life? I sunk down onto a fallen tree trunk and cried. Tears poured out of my inanimate eyes and I couldn't stop; everything that had happened suddenly slammed down onto me and I couldn't cope. Couldn't put on a brave face for everyone to see.

A musical chuckle echoed in the dark forest and my head shot up, instantly alert. Was I hearing things? I peered into the gloom, trying to see where the sound had come from, but it was too dark. A slight dot of orange peeked around a tree, but I ignored it. It was nothing. My thoughts once again diverted to Edward's perfect laugh, the sound of a thousand symphonies.. How I missed it. How I missed him.

"Bella." A velvet voice sneered, jostling me out of my daydreaming. I glanced up and froze, my heart skipped a few beats, my forehead broke out into a clammy sweat and I began to shake with fear. I couldn't escape. My breath was coming in and out in short, wheezy gasps and my head became dizzy.

"Victoria.." I whispered, my throat dry and raw. She stood a few feet away in a feline like posture. Her wild, orange framed her perfect eternal face but her features were contorted with malice and anger. My gaze locked onto a pair of onyx black eyes; they seemed to be laughing at the way I looked. She was hungry and in that second, I was sure I was going to die.

"Did you miss me?" Victoria purred as she took a graceful step forward. I gulped; leaning away from here. As if that would make any difference..

"Answer me!" She growled, taking another step towards me.

"Yes- I mean.. No? I-I.." I stuttered, unable to sound coherent as her eyes held me gaze. Victoria chuckled as she skipped to my side; leaning into me.

"Good; although I'm sure Edward wouldn't like me being here, would he?" She smirked cockily. I flinched at his name and bit my lip, trying not to let all the sudden memories flood my head.

"He's not.. He's not here. They left. All of them." I whispered, letting a few tears escape and run down my face. Victoria's smile suddenly dropped and her eyes blazed.

"Left?! What do you mean left?!" She hissed, grabbing hold of my hair and yanking my head back. I yelped out in pain but she ignored it; waiting for an answer.

"They- didn't- tell- me- where-they-went." I moaned, through cries. Her fingernails dug into my scalp, allowing blood to escape in droplets.

"Ruined my plan.. How dare they.." Victoria muttered to herself but I remained silent.

"That's such a shame, Bella. It is indeed. I was hoping to kill you infront of them, but it appears I'm unable to do such a thing.. What to do with you.. What to do.." She announced, letting go of my hair. My head throbbed.

"Kill me. Please.. I-I don't want to live. Without them, it's useless." I begged, my eyes brimming with tears.

"Killing you would be too easy.. Unless.." Victoria scoffed, but her eyes glinted with an idea.

"Please." I murmured, wishing for death for more than anything.

"Killing you would rid you of your pain and I don't want to do that.. No indeed. I want to make you suffer, the way I suffered and the way I will for eternity. Without your love!" She screeched; leaning in closer towards me. My face instantly paled. I knew what she was about to do and I didn't want it. I couldn't live that way. Live without him or them..

"No, please! Anything but that!" I shrieked, scrambling off the log and backing away from her. Her eyes glinted and her mouth twisted into a sick smile.

"Just that."

"No.. Pleas-" But I couldn't finish; her hand was instantly over my mouth and her mouth a centimetre away from my neck.

"Have a good eternal life, Bella." Victoria chuckled as her teeth slid over my neck.

-End of Flashback-

So, here I am. A vampire, doomed to an eternal life without any of the people to make my life worth living. It's been 100 years since and each day, I've gotten worse. Without the Cullens, nothing seems right, infact, nothing is right!

They are all memories; unwilling to become anything more. I've tried to move out of Forks but something is keeping me behind; a feeling. Something deep inside of me.

I just hope that one of these days I will start to get better, start moving on. But I doubt it; very much.

Forks High School, the place of so many memories. The first time I saw them, the conversation him and I had. The place where he saved my life..

And I was going back there..

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