Gordon's mood and behaviour had been erratic recently. It had been hard for anyone to do anything right and everything Jill had done Gordon had been quick to snap at. She'd put this down to the car accident. Jill knew that something as big as nearly losing your life would obviously affect anybody's mental state but until now she didn't realise how much of an impact it could possibly have. The man that she'd fallen in love with; a fun-loving, caring & patient man, was now hidden behind this new character. He was angry, lost his temper regularly & didn't have time for anybody anymore. Jill so desperately just wanted to hold her husband in her arms and tell him everything was going to be alright, but she couldn't. The truth was she didn't know how they were going to get over this or if Gordon would ever be the same again.
And if her husband's fragile mental state hadn't been enough, Jill had just found out she was pregnant. She was carrying her beloved yet ill husband's baby. Under normal circumstances she would have shared this news with Gordon almost immediately but she'd held back. Months previously, shortly after their wedding, Gordon had tried to talk to Jill about starting their own family but Jill had brushed it off. It wasn't that Jill didn't want children. She wanted it more than anything and she knew that Gordon yearned for it to. No, she'd brushed it off because she knew that if she had a baby then her career would come under threat. Jill had spent years getting to where she was, something which was much harder for a woman, and she knew that if she were to have a baby then Gordon may expect her to become a full-time mother and she most definitely didn't want that to happen.
This wasn't the only reason Jill had held back on telling Gordon. If she'd found out before the accident then she knew Gordon would have been overjoyed at the news but she wasn't so sure now. Honestly, this news couldn't have come at a worse time for them. From Jill's eyes, their new marriage was under a lot of strain and Gordon most certainly wasn't himself. How would Gordon react?