'Why, why me?' That was the thought that crossed my mind for the tenth time in the past five minutes. 'Why, is he still bothering me?!'

"Come on Jaune, lets go, Velvet won't go if you don't go!" Cardin pleaded for the twentieth time. I sighed, I had done that for a long time now.

"I said NO dude, I don't wanna go! I don't want to see anybody" I snarled at Cardin, hoping that he will give up.

I still cannot believe how we managed to become friends. I'm not saying that I dislike him, its just that he used to be the bully in high school, and I was the one that was being bullied most of the time, 'Well, all the time', but nonetheless, one thing led to another, and now, we are best buds.

"Come on bro, just, get out of bed. It's been three weeks. I know it still hurts, but I swear that this will help you." Cardin said, a little less excited knowing that he entered a sensitive topic.

"Look, please, let me be. I don´t… I just don't feel like going out, ok? Yea, it still hurts, and that's why I refuse to go" I said to him with a sad tone.

He gave me a sad smile. I know that smile, its his thinking face. "Jauny-boy, I want you to hear me, ok?. One of the best ways to forget the pain is to make other things that keep our head clear. When you stay indoors and crying, the only thing you achieve is more pain. So please, I swear that this party will clear your mind. And if it doesn't help, you can stay at the dorm for all year if you want to. But please, just forget and have some fun" He finished with a grin and a pat on my back.

I started to think in what he said to me. 'Maybe this will really help me, and If not, well, beds are really comfortable' "Fine" I sighed "I'll go, get out of my room" I said with a false grin and I pushed him through the door. "Give me 10, k?" I asked him and I received a nod from him.

"Sure, but take a long scrub, would you? You smell like shit" Cardin said grinning and stepping out of my room.

I closed the door and took a look at my room. I really think that being the "nephew" of the principal really has its benefits. I had one of the most biggest dorms' in all campus. We had two bedrooms with bunk beds in each one. A small kitchen, two bathrooms, one in each bedroom, a small living room, with a couch and a coffee table, also, the space was, like, really BIG! We also have a friggin T.V.!

All in all, we have the penthouse of Beacon campus, and its all me! Well, and Cardin, but it still is pretty awesome!

I went to my drawer and pulled a white shirt and black jeans. I picked a towel and I walked to the bathroom. As I entered, I admired the bathroom too. It had a shower, a sink, a toilet and a little window that lets the sun hit the hole bathroom in the mornings. It was small, but it was all I ever wanted.

I turned the knobs in the shower and let the water heat for a moment before I entered. Meanwhile I took a look in the mirror. I saw my face and I could clearly see why Cardin wanted me to get out of bed. I had bags under my eyes and bloodshot red eyes, 'thanks a lot tears'. I was really pale, maybe being in the dark for a lot of time will do that to you.

I stripped from my shirt and saw the only thing that didn't let me forget all this. A scar, big as a shoe, was on my right shoulder, still a little red. I tried to forget that sight as I entered the shower. The hot water turned out to be really relaxing and therapeutically, and all the stress was finally coming out.

After I finished my shower, I put my clothes on, add some deodorant and I was good to go. I opened the door to my room and what I saw was something I really wasn't expecting. There were almost 20 persons right now, in my dorm. And I saw a big poster above the door frame, with a "Happy Birthday Jaune!" written on it. I heard the shout of everyone saying 'Happy Birthday' but I blocked all sounds that came later as I started thinking.

'Have I been so lost these last few weeks that I forgot my own birthday? Their dead really hit that hard?' my thoughts were cut short when I felt a pat on my good shoulder. I saw who it was and I was happy to see Ren here. He gave me a smile, but I could clearly see that he was faking it. I saw the same despair, angry and sadness of not being able to do anything I had in my eyes before I entered the shower.

I gave a smile too, trying to reassure him that everything was fine. Finally, he gave me a bro-hug (as we call it) and I walked to the center of the room, where I started greeting everyone I knew that came today.

The atmosphere was calm, with music playing in the background, 'probably Yang's speakers'. I saw that all my friends were here, except, for two persons. As this thought crossed my mind I felt my heart drop and my smile showed it. I saw that Ren looked at me, with tears trying to escape from his eyes. I jerked my head to the door, hoping that he will follow me.

I told Cardin that I was going for some fresh air. I exited the room with Ren in tow. We headed to the dorms rooftop in silence. It wasn´t neither awkward nor comfortable, just a silence that I was starting to get accustomed to. I let Ren get out first, while I put a brick that stopped the door from closing itself.

When I got up, I heard the faint sobs coming from my Eastern friend. I walked towards him and gave him a hug. It wasn´t a hug of neither friends nor brothers, it was a hug that showed that two persons had lost something really important in their lives. A hug that let all emotions flow freely. As I hugged my all-time friend, I too felt my tears escaping my eyes.

I couldn't help it, I tried to hard to maintain my composure, as I was trying to be the wall that could hold together this building that was destroying. But, not every wall is meant to hold forever. I could feel my tears leaking out and tiny sobs escaping my lips.

"H-How c-could w-we let t-them there… W-We could h-have made s-something…" I heard Ren mutter between sobs. And I couldn't help it, I let all my tears flow freely. "T-They could have b-been here with u-us"

"I know, I know, but i-if we tried to help t-them, we wouldn't be h-here t-today…" I said, trying to contain my sobs. "I really miss them t-too, but we can´t let this fe-feelings control us, we must s-stay strong" I really wanted to believe my own words, but this was all too much for me.

We kept our hug for like most felt for hours, the only sound being our sobs, and the faint music that sounded on my dorm. Our moment was cut as we heard the sound of footsteps coming from the door. We broke our hug trying to remove all tears that accumulated in our faces. When the footsteps ceased, I saw two persons walking slowly to the door. "Are we interrupting?" One of the girls said.

I looked at the door and saw the girls that have always been with me and Ren. One had chocolate eyes, and short brown hair with her lose wavy lock of brown and red. She was wearing a white blouse, black leggings and black boots. The other one had long hair, black as the night itself and amber, beautiful eyes. She was wearing a black blouse and blue skinny jeans and sneakers.

"Not at all" I said, trying to mask the pain in my voice. "Come here" I waved them to get close. They agreed and walked towards us embracing us in a huge hug, each one. I hugged Coco, trying to contain my tears that were advancing on my eyes. I looked to my stoic of a friend, seeing that he had no such luck, trying to hold his tears to no avail.

We stayed in relative silence, until Blake spoke first. "We should go down, the others want to spend time with their friends" She said to Ren and I, for us to enjoy the time with the friends that we still had.

"Sure, come on" Ren said, now managing to control his emotions and returning to his calm demeanor.

I still need to learn about his facial expression control. "I'll catch you in a bit, I need to talk to Coco" I said to Blake and Ren that were already at the door.

They nodded and left me and Coco alone on the roof. She raised her head for her to see direct into my eyes. 10 years, I known her for ten years, and she hasn't lost her beauty. She had an inquisitive look, as trying to figure what I wanted to say to her. We stayed in silence for a couple of minutes until she decided to break the silence. "You are still thinking about Roman?" She asked me, trying to stay away from any landmines.

"I can't stop thinking about him, nor I can't stop thinking about Em" I said while looking at her eyes. I really found this adorable. Coco has always been smaller than me. She only gets to my chin, which makes it easier for me to see her into her eyes. "I still think that we could have helped them" Her eyes always bring me the trust and comfort I need. "We could have taken them out before it exploded. T-they could be h-here right n-now if I h-hadn't been so c-careless…" I tried to control my tears but they were to treacherous for me to keep them in place. "I-I… It w-was all my f-fault…" I couldn't hold it anymore. I started crying again. It seems that my reserves of tears never get to dry.

"Shh, shh, Jaune, please don't say that, it wasn't your fault, it was somet-" She started before I left her warm embrace and I snarled at her.

"Of course it was my fault! Because of me, they were killed" My voice was getting louder "Because of me, they suffered a fate that they never deserved" I was venting all my rage on her "Because of me, Ren almost lost his leg" I know she doesn't deserves this "Because of me, a gas station burst flames" But I can't stop, I need to let it all out "Because of me, my brother, and my friend's sister, are dead!" I shouted the last part with all my anger filling my voice and tears spilling over my face. "Thanks to that, I almost lost an arm too" I tried to breath but to no avail. I felt like I was hyperventilating, and I almost like fainting. But I refused to it, and I tried to look at the girl that has always been with me. I saw her face, a face of pure shock, fear and sadness. I couldn't stand seeing at that face. That face was meant to smile, it was meant to bring a smile to everyone that was feeling down, but I made that face the opposite. Now I felt like crap.

She was at a lost of words, and the only thing that she did, was hug me. She didn't say a thing, all she did, was hug me. I returned the hug, feeling all my rage dissipate. "I'm sorry, I… you didn't deserve that, it's just that I feel li-" My speech was cut short as I felt soft, warm lips against mine.

"I know how you feel, just, let it all out" She said, giving me a warm smile. I still cannot believe how she has hold up with me for so long. So the only thing I did, was hug her back and I let al my emotions run vanish in the air thanks to her. Thanks to this woman, I still have reasons to being strong.

All I ever wanted, was her, and here she is.

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