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New text massege. He pulled the phone out of his pocket with speed that won't shame any teen.
Kealie.
He delete the text without even read it. She probably just sending him again what a dick he was, concider it was five A.M.. Twelve hours from now she'll send that she was sorry and she miss him and "Let's do this again in the office like we used to!"
Fuck her. She was the only reason he were had to leave his office, the reason why he move out of his home to smelly one room apartment and why he wasted so many night at the bar, drinking like there were no tomorrow. If they never met, than everything was good now.
If they never meat, he still had Clary.
Every man cheat. It's a fact. You would never meat a man that hasn't. Just because no man admit that doesn't mean it's not true. Not just with sex. Not telling woman your middle name it's not a cheat? Telling her you can listing her stories for hours it's not a cheat?
So yes. Every man cheat.
He didn't had any illusion. Sex is sex. Not love. No one is cheat because he wants something he didn't got at home. He took responsibility for his actions. Clary was amazing. She was artistic, and smart, and fun, and dark like him, and she was the perfect woman. Ever since their them on a blind date they get along really well, move in tougher faster then any couple he knew. And he didn't care. From the second he saw her he knew he want to marry her. She meant for him, and he for her.
Of course it didn't stopped him from looking around. He needed excitement, it was nature. This is how he was raised by the American culture. And of course he loved his girl, but she couldn't give him everything that he needed. He was far more active then she was, and of course he loved her, it's just that they done it once in a week- how could man be stele after once in a week?
Of course, he didn't regretted for any of that. He was attractive the amount of woman that wanted him surprised even him sometimes. It would be a sin to deny them what they wanted. He just regretted on Kealie, that was stupid enough to come to Clary a week after he popped the question and told her to back off, that he was her man.
It was the first time he saw Clary crying. She looked at him with such horror, and only then he felt the regret in his heart. He should have stick with the anonyms girls without faces and names.
Her brother send him the invitation to her wedding about a mouth ago. Maybe to tell him how jerk he was, or maybe because she wanted him to know. Whatever the reason might be, he hopped this shit would never get caught, Clary deserved that.
What now? Now he would move on. Live his life. It was a shame what happened with Clary and he hoped he would find happiness again. There was nothing he could do now. The only thing he wants is that his new girlfriend would never find out about this. Becouse he would cheat again. It was his nature.