A/N: OHMYGOD I JUST WROTE HAYNER/ROXAS WHAT.
like struggle bats; that weren't quite swords, but a few many steps below that. like hayner; who wasn't exactly who he and roxas apparently wanted him to be, but he tried, and that was much more than you could say for the blue inanimate bats. after all, they were controlled and pushed around by whoever picked one up, and no, sir, hayner was not a push over, he made his own decisions, thank you very much. that, of course, didn't mean he could decide to be more than he was, to give more than he had; but he could still try. after all, it's the intention that counts; right?
so, while he didn't suddenly become someone he wasn't, someone he didn't even know who it was (roxas didn't know it either, he just felt it), hayner would keep giving roxas what he could, what he thought he wanted, and if that didn't count as trying, damn, there was something wrong with the world. and, of course, it was all deliberate and willing and selfish too; hayner wanted it as well, and he guessed he could deal with the consequences, if they ever found him. he wanted it, even though he subconciously knew he wasn't what roxas needed, who roxas needed; and if he, in the end, wasn't enough, he could still say he just wanted to try.