Short one-short written during a writer's block. Beware, for it's dark!
He Shivers
He shivers when he thinks of his possessor. Her silken, black curls haunt his mind. His poison, she is—but he is not he without her.
Night and day, he ponders over her dark, mesmerizing obsidians. And although he is aware that an infatuation with her cerise lips can bring about his death, when nightfall ensues, he tries to resist the enticements his subconscious forces on him… But yet, when morning hits, he feels unclean and guilty as he awakens to find that his nightly clothes are…wet, and that he has lost once more to his heart.
Hate fills him then, and he yearns to scream and scream, but instead he further succumbs into the familiar sensation or lack thereof of numbness. Uncertainty looms above him, and he wonders if he will ever prevail in the deed he has promised to his beloved parents: He will kill her, he had promised.
But how will he live without her?
And so, he shivers when he thinks of his possessor. Her silken, black curls haunt his mind. His poison, she is—but he is not he without her.
He then attempts to bury these thoughts into the recesses of his mind, as he tries to commence his day. Members of his house beam at him as they welcome him into the Common Room, but when he fails to smile back as tenderly, they mistake his numbness for timidity. And he lets it be, for he would rather be seen as a coward than who he truly is…
A traitor.
For though his mind wishes he would kill his haunter, he cannot bring himself to contemplate her death.
Above his chest, there lays a locket where truth is held: a picture of her within a silver chrysalis. He places his hand— large, rugged, and trembling—on it, and hears her cachinnating in his mind, sees his parents' agonized eyes, sees a memory never to be forgotten.
But yet, she is his reason for enduring life.
Everyday, his mind presses him to kill her... except, his heart prompts him to recall that life would be empty if he were to do so.
Neville has plummeted into a Catch-22.
What to do?
A/N: Well, what do you think? Feedback is most welcomed!