My first Fanfic please be nice.

disclaimer: Twilight, and all things twilight(characters, places, etc.) and the song hurt by johnny cash do not belong.

I hurt myself today,

To see if I still feel,

I focus on the pain,

The only thing that's real,

I stared blankly at the wall, numb, not feeling anything, not noticing anything, just staring.

The needle tears a hole,

The old familiar sting,

Try to kill it all away,

But I remember everything,

He told me my wounds would heal with time. That my memories would fade. I still remember all of the happy, wonderful times we had together that were all canceled out by my final memory of him.

What have I become,

My sweetest friend,

Everyone I know,

Goes away in the end,

My friends had all left me to wallow in my own self-pity. Not even Charlie liked to be around me any more.

And you could have it all,

My empire of dirt,

I will let you down,

I will make you hurt,

After he left, Mike tried to make his move on me, but it just ended with me hurting my friend.

I wear this crown of thorns,

Upon my liars chair,

Full of broken thoughts,

I cannot repair,

My mind is never happy, all I can think about is my lonely destitute, as I wait in my silent vigil for him.

Beneath the stains of time,

The feelings disappear,

You are someone else,

I am still here,

I know that He's probably off in Alaska, with them, starting over, finally rid of me. But I'm still here.

What have I become,

My sweetest friend,

Everyone I know,

Goes away in the end,

Charlie tried to help me, but nothing he did could take away the empty feeling, as I wait to completely fall apart.

And you could have it all,

My empire of dirt,

I will let you down,

I will make you hurt,

I still sit at the same table that he used to sit at with me. My friends sit at another table; they'll look over at me and stare, shake their heads and turn away.

If I could start again,

A million miles away,

I will keep myself,

I would find away.

If I were given the chance to start over, and do everything again, I would do everything exactly the same. Just to relive those few months spent in total happiness. Now everything is gone, I've chased everyone away.

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