A slightly slower version of Goodbye Agony by Black Veil Brides played in the background. Now I could see why Nico loved it. Nico...ten months have passed since he committed suicide. Why? We don't know. Never knew he was depressed. Ever since I came out as gay, he admitted to having a crush on me. Only problem. I was in love with Loki. I blamed, and still do, myself for Nico's death.
Heaven's gone, the battle's won The battle indeed. My mind and thoughts won. No one will miss me, no one
I had to say goodbye I didn't get the chance to. It was too quick
Lived and learned from every fable Got to learn more about the Greek's and meet them in real life, even some Norse
Written by your mind My mind has chosen my fate, death by hanging. My tango with Death has come to an end
And I wonder how to move on Simple, I'm not going to. I have nothing left, nothing holding me back
From all I had inside There's nothing inside me, nothing. Well, except guts...and bones. Mustn't forget blood
Place my cards upon the table Already done, the Fates had chosen my fate long before I was born
In blood I draw the line Started self-harming after his funeral. It's my fault he's dead, my fault
I've given up my pride Had no pride to begin with, only Annabeth, her half-siblings, and Athena did
Living a life of misery Full of misery indeed. Too much pain, too many deaths. Nico, Bianca, Jason, Iapetus, Zöe
Always there, just underneath The Pit, Tartarus and all those monsters. All wanting revenge
Haunting me, quietly alone I'm still suffering from those nightmares, this time there's no one
It's killing me, killing me It's like poison. Running through my veins. Pumped by my heart
Dead and gone, what's done is done Andy and Ashley make a really cute couple
You were all I had become I loved Annabeth yet she stabbed me in the back, it hurt
I'm letting go of what I once believed I had faith in the Gods, yet they let Nico suffer in silence, every one did except me
So goodbye agony It'll soon be over
I watch the stars and setting suns Iapetus never got to see them again
As the years are passing by Waited years and years for Iapetus to appear, until Nico told me he faded
I never knew that hope was fatal A monster that toyed with hope
Until I looked it in the eye Red, flaming eyes. Looking into the flame
And now I'm not sure I am able Trusted Hestia so much, she betrayed me like all the others
To reach the other side Two unlikely friends helped me get here, without them I would be dead long ago
Casting out the light The life in my eyes has been extinguished
Living a life of misery
Always there, just underneath
Haunting me, quietly alone
It's killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done
You were all I had become
I'm letting go of what I once believed
So goodbye agony
Goodbye agony
Not alone in forgiving
The faithful and the blind I was so blind, should've seen Nico was depressed
Innocence is forsaken
I leave 'em all behind
And then I see even angels never die
Living a life of misery Its time to end this
Always there, just underneath Standing from my bed, I put my camp half-blood shirt and blue jeans on
Haunting me, quietly alone Pained memories filled my head at the familiar sight of the clothes
It's killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done Grabbing my wooden chair from the desk, I placed it under a hook in the ceiling
You were all I had become Standing on the chair I reached over to my desk littered with paperwork waiting for me
I'm letting go of what I once believed Grabbing the noose, I tied the end to the hook
So goodbye agony Placing my head through the opening of the noose, I got ready
Goodbye agony Kicking the chair over, I hung there struggling not to move. Dear Gods it hurt so much
Goodbye agony Black spots began to appearing as someone tried to get in
The banging of a door being kicked open and muffled shouts of "Percy!" were the last things I heard before air was rushing into my lungs and I was on the ground, sitting in someone's lap with their arms wrapped around my waist. My head rested on a stranger's shoulder as hands ran up and down my back, one stopping to cup the back of my head. Whispers of "why Percy, why" in my ear. Black hair was all I could see. Black hair? None of the Avengers had black hair. The only person left it could be, was...Loki. Thought the god hated my guts. Always glaring at me with emerald green eyes, never smiling. "I thought you hated me? Wanted me gone?"
"I-I never hated you Percy, why would you think that?
"You-you were always glaring at me."
"You are as dense as the legends say. I don't hate you...I love you"
"What? You did?"
"Yes Perseus"
"I love you too and I'm sorry"
Bursting into tears, the broken demigod clung to the god as sobs wracked his thin and pale frame. Loki's hands soothing him in any way possible. The boy realising he wasn't alone and that the god and the Avengers were still there. As the pair sat there, another song came on. A beautiful song full of hope encouragement. Another by Black Veil Brides, Never Give In.
A reason, a victim
A shining beacon in the sky
You yearn for, what's missing
The power hidden in the night
An angel or demon
The parts you play on lonesome nights
The damage, inflicted
The pain and lust they leave behind
Never give in (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never back down (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never give in (hey, hey, hey, hey)
We're soldiers, in season
We can bring change before we die
The tales of, their beatings
To fear what lies beneath our eyes
Never give in (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never back down (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never give in (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never back down (hey, hey, hey, hey)
When your life feels lost
(Fight against the odds!)
Never give in
(Never back down!)
Never give in (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never back down (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never give in (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Never back down (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
When your life feels lost
(Fight against the odds!)
Never give in
(Never back down!)
"Suicide doesn't take away the pain, it gives it to someone else."
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