Love Goes On

Chapter 1: Goodbye, Brother

I watch as Caleb makes his way to the weapons lab, knowing that I probably won't see him again. Tears blur my vision. I just said goodbye to the only family I have left. Biologically anyway.

I replay our conversation over and over again in my mind:

"I hope you have a good life, Beatrice. With Tobias, and your friends. I'll watch over you, always, so will mum and dad. Make sure to make me an uncle one day as well, continue the Prior family. Just not too soon. You're only sixteen." I smile sadly, and so does he.

"Okay, Caleb. I love you, and I forgive you, for everything."

"I love you, too. I'll say hi to mum and dad for you, okay?"

"Okay."

And we hug.

"I'm sorry this is how it has to be, Beatrice. But don't let my death be in vain, have a good life, and when you have a chance to do something you want to do, take it."

"I will. Goodbye, brother."

"Goodbye, sister."

Then he goes.

I wait for a few minutes before turning and walking to where we said we'd meet the others when they get back from Chicago. Tears line my cheeks as I walk. As I walk I watch as people change and look confused.

He did it.

Caleb did it.

He's dead.

I cry even more now.

I get to where Cara, Matthew and George wait for me. Everyone else went to Chicago. Cara holds me in her arms as I cry. It's now that I understand how she truly feels about Will's death. I want to know how she could forgive me for what I did to Will, but she says nothing.

"Tell Tobias that he'll know where to find me." I say as I pull back from the hug.

She looks confused. "What?"

"Don't worry about it. He'll know where I am." And I walk away.

I enter the room where Tobias and I got over my fear and I collapse onto the sofa in a puddle of tears.

I just cry.

…

I hear the door opening and closing and it's only a few seconds before Tobias has crouched down in front of my face, looking at me sadly. I wrap my arms around his neck and his go around my waist, he picks me up and sits down with me on his lap. I cry into his chest.

"Hey, it's okay. I'm your family now. I always will be. I promise. I'm not going anywhere. I love you."

"I love you, too."

I'm still crying. I can't not cry. My brother is dead. My parents are dead. So many of my friends are dead. Uriah might not make it. So many people I have cared about, or loved, have died, it makes me wonder how Tobias is still here, with me. Alive. It makes me wonder how he hasn't left me for someone so much better than me. He doesn't deserve me. He deserves so much better. But I'm not going to leave him. I need him.

He places a kiss on the top of my head gently. So gently that it's as if he thinks I'll break if he did it any harder. And I probably will. I know I'm broken. I know I'm breaking even more now. I've seen too much. I've done too much. I've lost too much. And I know I have PTSD. But it will get better, right? Things will get better?

But I know one thing. I will always have Tobias with me. No matter what. And we'll be okay. We'll mend each other. I know we will.

…

Tobias and I are making our way to the cafeteria for dinner. We are walking hand in hand. My cheeks are sore from the tears, probably red too, but I don't care.

We enter the large room to find our friends sitting at our usual table. Christina rushes over as soon as she sees me and wraps me in a hug.

"I'm sorry. Where were you? I was worried."

"It doesn't matter. I'm going to be okay. Let's go and get something to eat." She nods and we sit down. I sit in between Chris and Tobias. Cara, Zeke, Hana, Matthew, Amar, George and a weirdly cheerful Peter are all here with us as well.

"Hello, I'm Peter, what's your name?" Peter says, holding out his hand for me to shake.

"Uh, I-I'm Tris." I say, shaking his hand once.

"It's nice to meet you." I just nod in response.

"What's going on with Peter?" I whisper to Tobias.

"Oh, that. I gave him some memory serum, he wanted it. He doesn't remember anything."

"I thought you were giving it to Marcus or Evelyn?"

"Yeah, I was going to give it to Evelyn, but she decided to choose me instead of power. So I didn't give it to her, she wants a chance to be my mum again. Though I did tell her that she'd have to accept you, and she was surprisingly okay with that. She and Marcus made a peace agreement. She has to leave the city for two and a half years, and when she comes back she isn't allowed a role in the government. Marcus is allowed to do whatever so long as he doesn't assume a role in the government. He's not going to try and be a real father though. And even if he wanted to I probably wouldn't let him." I nod. I'm glad Evelyn wants to try and be a mother to him again, even if I don't like her and she doesn't like me, but I swear if she does anything to upset him again I will kill her.

We spend the rest of dinner making small talk. Not really being in the mood for anything else. We decide to go and see Uriah afterwards. Peter went back to the dorm though because he doesn't understand what's going on. And Matthew, George and Amar didn't really know Uriah that well so they went somewhere else.

When we get there we get the biggest shock of our lives. Uriah is sitting in his bed, awake, smiling his usual goofy, childish grin at us.

"Uri!" Hana yells happily as she embraces her youngest son.

"Hey mum. Hey everyone else."

"I thought you were in a coma." Hana cries.

"Yeah, I was. But I woke up not too long ago." Then we all hug him, smiling like idiots. "Guys, I need to breathe." We all let go of him but we're still smiling.

We sit around and talk, a bit cheerier than we were at dinner.

…

A week later and I am still mourning over Caleb. Once the death serum had cleared Matthew went into the weapons lab and got his body to take to the morgue. I saw him, on my own. His pale, lifeless body, laid on the table in front of me and I cried, saying how sorry I was for everything, and telling him that I forgave him over and over again. Then we cremated him and I have his vase of ashes in my bag, ready to take home, to Chicago.

Uriah got out of the hospital yesterday and today we are going home. Tobias and I are going to be living in his old apartment in Dauntless. Hana is going back to her place. Zeke is going back to his and Shauna's apartment. Cara's going back to Erudite, Matthew will be staying there with her, but not in the same apartment of course. Amar and George will be getting an apartment together in Dauntless. Uriah and Christina are getting an apartment together, turns out they were actually dating before Uriah got hurt, now they're back together again and want to live together.

We're all okay. We're all coping.

Tobias explained to me that they're keeping the Faction system, but it's not going to be like it was before. The Factions still have their primary things, like bravery, selflessness, kindness, intelligence and honesty. But they'll be going back to how they used to be. They will work together in harmony. There will be mostly new leaders. I believe Jack Kang will still be leader of Candor, and Johanna is still going to be leader of Amity. But the other Factions will choose new leaders next week.

Also, 'Faction before blood' no longer exists. You can move freely between Factions to see family and friends, but once you have chosen a Faction that is where you will live and work for the remainder of your life. Sixteen year old still have to do an aptitude test and choose the Faction they want to live in. But there are no more Factionless. If they were there because they're a criminal they are either being kicked out of the city or being put in prison. If they are there because they simply didn't fit in they are retested and can choose a Faction, they get a week of training before they can become a full member and have to get a job and what not. If they have kids their kids become members of whatever Faction their parents choose and at the age of sixteen they are able to do a test and choose what they want for their lives. No one will be made Factionless anymore and people from all the Factions are working together to rebuild that sector and anything else that needs rebuilding so they can be nice homes, shops, schools, restaurants, offices, workplaces, playgrounds, or whatever.

The city is going to get better.

And so will life, hopefully.

…

Tobias and I arrive at our apartment to find it in the same shape it was in when we left it. Though it is dusty since we haven't been here in a while.

We clean around and pack our things away. I put my brother's ashes in the bottom of the closet, where I can still see it but it isn't clear. We sit on the sofa in the living room, cuddled together.

"Do you think life is going to get better?" I ask him.

"Yeah, I do. I think we're going to have a wonderful life. You, me, our friends, maybe even some kids one day."

"Do you want kids?"

"Yeah, one day. But not now. Though, I will always be scared of becoming my dad."

"You won't be anything like him, Tobias. You're kind, caring, loving. You're more than that man could ever be. You have the capability to love, he doesn't. You wouldn't ever even think about hurting me or our children. You're going to be an amazing father one day."

"You're going to be an amazing mother one day."

"Not yet, though."

"Not yet."

"I love you, Tobias."

"I love you, too, Beatrice."

"I thought I said only on special occasions?"

"It is a special occasion. The war is over and we're finally home. We can start the rest of our life, together, now."

"Okay. Fine. It's a special occasion."

And I kiss him. And he kisses me.

I do believe that life is going to get better. I will always miss my family, and the friends I lost. But when I'm with Tobias, and everyone else in our family, I know that I'll be okay. We'll be okay. We can have a good life, together. All of us. We can mend each other. We can help each other. We can be there for each other.

I really do believe that things will be okay.

Hey Ravens. Hope you enjoyed the first chapter of this new fanfic I had in mind. It's just of Fourtris' life had Tris let Caleb go into the weapons lab instead of her. This might be a long-ish fanfic. We'll just see what happens. And don't worry, not many bad things will happen. I promise. It will mostly be happy, fluffy stuff.

I will update again when I can.

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