"Hey? Sollux?" my voice was cracking, just like the rest of me when I finally called out, it was no less than a cry of desperation coming from someone like me,always proud ever spiteful.
"Yeah KK?" I scowled. His voice was stronger than mine. He was stronger than me. Why could he be so calm as to rival the winds of paradise when I, the great leader, was crumbling into myself? A shuddering sigh escaped me as lithe shoulders quaked. "KK?"
"Shut up fuckass!" he turned to me with blank unseeing eyes, brow creased slightly with concern before he released a breath of his own, long and wistful, turning to once again face the wall. I turned away my own tired eyes, retreating into my self to build the courage to ask for solace.
"We're going to die, KK" I shot him a would be glare, but grief clouded my eyes. Not that it mattered. "But maybe we'll see them again" shoulders slumped he reached up towards the celling with a hand spotted with the noblest of bloods, turning it this way and that as if his eyes still held the ability to transmit the macabre image to his think pan. A warm smile played across his lips, a frown etched into mine.
"it's my fault there gone Sollux, if I was a better leader-" my voice shattered into a mess of sounds "Fuck it all!" I was falling again, into a state of self loathing, loosing grip of my worth. I had failed them all. Who was I kidding a lowblood, no, a mutant like me could never have thought to take on such responsibility. Terezi could have lead better, blindness and all, at least she would have know when Eridan was breaking or how Gamzee was loosing himself. At least she knows her way around a fucking thinkpan.
Tyrian blood spots smeared against me as a warm hand clumsily clasped my own.
"It's not your fault"
"like hell it's not! Who else-" I lost use of my mouth as another calloused hand awkwardly restrained my speech.
"It's not your fault"
I bit into captors hand, willing him to release me before he could feel the cold tears run down his skin. Reluctantly, the hand retreaded, yellow tongue removing the mustard blood beading at the wound before it once again fell to rest at the hackers side, half curled in on itself.
"Fucking gross" I grumbled under my breath as I caught sight of Captor nursing his wound through my tears. "That's like sharing spit" my disapproving shudder was met by a haphazard snort and a chuckle.
"whatever KK" I released my hand from under Captors to hold it open palmed up to my face. Thoughts echoed through my thinkpan, but one struck me harder than the other world weary whispers.
"Hey? Sollux?" I closed my hand setting it in my lap with its, considerably cleaner, counterpart.
"Yeah, KK?"
"Were still friends right? Even after I dropped you down the stairs?" another warm chuckle floated through my listing holes enticing a rare smile from my features.
"Yeah KK, were still friends"
. . .We'll pull through. . .
Well here's my first upload after months of having an account finally some input x3 Its not long but I wrote it early this morning, when I should have been asleep, on my ipod in the notes app, but I thought I may as well upload it here. So what did you think?