Shattered
~~Sakura P.O.V~~
I sit here in my room and you all think that everything is fine. That I lead this perfect life and have this perfect little family when, in reality, my world is falling apart. Everything I've ever known is gone. Not there anymore.
You think that it's peaches and cream when my life has crashed in the last week. You think that it's easy for me to sit here and not cry? To just sit still and live life as if it'll all be okay tomorrow?
I cant because I know that tomorrow I wont wake up and be a three year old again. I wont have honeyed hair and I wont be an only child.
You think that you have it bad, you with your fake teenage angst and fears of becoming overweight. You act as if you like rock music and you hate pop but I know you better than those lies I've heard you sing pop. In fact you sing it every Tuesday at open mic night.
You think that I'm so fucking innocent and that I'm a baby. That I'm stupid and fail tests. That I'm young and naive and I help old ladies walk across the streets. You know what, fuck that.
At school all anyone does is come up to me and tell me their problems. Do they think just because I act sweet that I actually give a rat's ass what happened to their boyfriends or why their girlfriends won't sleep with them? Honestly, I don't give a flying fuck anymore. I don't care if they'll 'send their mafia' out on me or if they tell daddy. I simply don't care.
So here I sit broken hearted no one caring instead they all go on with their lives. To them I only exist when they want money or have problems. I'm just hidden in the background somewhere.
So here I am. Still sitting on a chair in front of my desk, writing on a piece of colourful paper with cherry blossoms in the background. Cherry Blossom's in the background...just like me. How alike we really are.
How can one girl be so bitter?
Well, some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts and we're never the same again.
I bet you're wondering how one person can have such a huge impact on another person's life...well, so am I. It's so hard to believe that he's gone. That he has a new girlfriend. It's hard to finally realize that even though you may love a person more than anything else on this earth that they might not love you.
Well, it hurts and it sucks for sure but maybe one day I'll get over it.
~~Sakura P.O.V~~
I sit here in my room and you all think that everything is fine. That I lead this perfect life and have this perfect little family when, in reality, my world is falling apart. Everything I've ever known is gone. Not there anymore.
You think that it's peaches and cream when my life has crashed in the last week. You think that it's easy for me to sit here and not cry? To just sit still and live life as if it'll all be okay tomorrow?
I cant because I know that tomorrow I wont wake up and be a three year old again. I wont have honeyed hair and I wont be an only child.
You think that you have it bad, you with your fake teenage angst and fears of becoming overweight. You act as if you like rock music and you hate pop but I know you better than those lies I've heard you sing pop. In fact you sing it every Tuesday at open mic night.
You think that I'm so fucking innocent and that I'm a baby. That I'm stupid and fail tests. That I'm young and naive and I help old ladies walk across the streets. You know what, fuck that.
At school all anyone does is come up to me and tell me their problems. Do they think just because I act sweet that I actually give a rat's ass what happened to their boyfriends or why their girlfriends won't sleep with them? Honestly, I don't give a flying fuck anymore. I don't care if they'll 'send their mafia' out on me or if they tell daddy. I simply don't care.
So here I sit broken hearted no one caring instead they all go on with their lives. To them I only exist when they want money or have problems. I'm just hidden in the background somewhere.
So here I am. Still sitting on a chair in front of my desk, writing on a piece of colourful paper with cherry blossoms in the background. Cherry Blossom's in the background...just like me. How alike we really are.
How can one girl be so bitter?
Well, some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts and we're never the same again.
I bet you're wondering how one person can have such a huge impact on another person's life...well, so am I. It's so hard to believe that he's gone. That he has a new girlfriend. It's hard to finally realize that even though you may love a person more than anything else on this earth that they might not love you.
Well, it hurts and it sucks for sure but maybe one day I'll get over it.