Impact -- Chapter One.

Jacob's POV—Enjoy!

She's really gone no matter how much I've tried to deny it. She's really gone. No matter how much it hurts to think about it. I had to remind myself of that fact everyday. Bella and her precious Edward were married and hiding out in another state by now. I should be happy for her, but I couldn't get rid of the feeling that she would have been so much better off had she picked me. At least for me she wouldn't have had to change. She could be that same old Bella, still with her family, still have her friends, and she could be with the other person that she loved. What I would never be able to fathom was how she could make that decision over choosing me and never having to change a thing.

She was… alive (sort of), married and happy and I knew there was nothing I could do now to change that. I had to accept that. I needed to get on with my own life. I had begun living hers, trying to workout what she would be doing and thinking, and it had taken me a little while to stop.

I honestly wondered sometimes if I had imprinted on her. It seemed the only explanation to the way I was feeling and the strength of my love for her. With her gone, it had felt like my heart had been ripped out and had gone with her.

I always thought of her; more now then when she was here. I had asked her many times before she left if she was really sure. He had left her before and I promised her that if he ever did again, I would personally hunt him down and destroy him. She had laughed, thinking I was joking, but I had never hidden the serious tone in my voice.

Now I was running through First Beach trying to get the thought of Bella out of my head. When I thought of her it bugged the others. We share our thoughts when we phased. I hated feeling like this myself, so I couldn't imagine what it was like for the others, to have to go through it too every time we phased. Most of the time it was a burden to link minds with the pack; especially when one of us, mainly me, was going through an emotional rollercoaster.

Anyways, I was running through First Beach and I thought what a great weekend for a Bon fire party. So I decided to ask Emily and Sam if we could have a party tomorrow. When I phased back to a human at once I realized how peaceful it was...no one listening to my thoughts, I liked it. The hardest part for all of us, was when we were wolves and trying to keep something private… there are no secretes in the pack, none at all. About now I had made it to Sam and Emily's house which we all thought of as our home away from home. As I walked up to the front door I heard my dad's voice. At first I was confused of how he got here, and then I was more confused of why he was here. At that time I was opening the door and they cut off in a mid-sentence. Glancing at me.

"Jacob, what are you doing here?" Emily asked me in a kind and genital voice, she is always so nice.

"Um, I was just thinking since it is nice outside if we could have a bon fire party tomorrow down at First Beach?"

"That would be wonderful, maybe you can invite some girls from school to come down." Emily said all chipper.

At once I had known what they were talking about when I interrupted them. They were talking about me and how they feel bad that I'm still trying to let go of Bella. What's worse is that they are so desperate for me to imprint that they want me to get some girls from my school to go to the party. And I was thinking if I was going to imprint on any of them, don't you think I would of by now?

"I don't think that's going to happen, I don't want to invite any of them anyways." I snapped.

"Aw come on Jake, don't be like that" Billy grunted.

"I don't want to be like that but you guys pushing me to try and imprint, makes me like that." I said weakly. Then muttered, "Sorry."

"It's alright son. You don't have to invite them if you don't want to. We all just want you to be happy. So if you want a party, I will need you to go to Sue's and tell them about it and ask them if they want to help out." Billy said.

"And tell Quil that I want to see him as soon a possible will you please?" Sam asked.

I just nodded and left.

As I was running to Sue's I was wondering why Sam wanted Quil and only him, not the rest of us; but I figured it didn't matter. When I got to Sue's I noticed that Leah was outside getting three suitcases from the car, and I was wondering why she had suitcases and I figured it was none of my business my curiosity got the best of me.

"Hello Jake."Leah asked picking up two suitcases leaving one behind."Do you think you could get that other suitcase for me?"

"Um yeah, sure. Leah?" I asked casually bending down to pick the third suitcase from the ground and handed it to her.

"Yeah, what's up?"

"What are you doing with these suitcases? Are you going on vacation?"

"No." Leah said slowly… "Sam didn't tell you?"

"No he didn't, he just told me to tell Quil that he needs to see him as soon as possible."

"Oh." Leah said. "Well Quil's cousin is coming over from Britain and she is staying with us from now on because her mom just died, and Quil is the only family she has left."

"That's nice of you guys, Quil must be happy. I can't wait to see her." Seeing the look on Leah's face he said quickly, "What?"

"Oh nothing, it is just that when she comes I'm afraid that— never mind okay, just forget it and help me with these bags" And without another word she left.

When we went inside there was another suitcase on the ground in front of Seth's room.

"Hey Jake!" Seth said very enthusiastically.

"Hey Seth. Where's Sue?"

"She went to go pick Lucia up."

"Who?" I asked puzzled.

"Lucia… You know, Quil's cousin?" Seth said. "Didn't you know that she is coming down to stay with us?"

"Yeah, but I didn't know her name." I admitted.

Just then the phone rang and Leah dashed off to get it. Seth came over and sat down on the couch I was in and told me that Leah was not happy that Lucia would be coming down because he said she likes me and thinks that I'll like Quil's cousin better.

"Psht, yeah right. Leah HATES me." I snorted.

Seth just shook his head and said that she only pretended to hate me. I couldn't grasp that though. I didn't like Leah, but I think that it is just weird that she likes me. Impossible. Creepy too I might add. But how come I never realized it? I change in front of her, and she strips in front of me. I can hear her thoughts and she only has thoughts of hate and how she hates Sam for leaving her for Emily, and how she hates… wait a minute! She hates Bella the most out of everyone because she broke my heart. Maybe the other reason she hates Bella is because I saw something in her that I didn't see in Leah, and Leah is mad because she couldn't find out what that something was. Maybe she was trying to find out what Bella has that she doesn't. I thought of all of this by the time she answered the phone. Now she was walking back into the living room, slowly saying that they will be here in 10 minutes.

I was still thinking of this when I heard tires on the driveway. I was still thinking of this when I heard the car doors slam. I still thought of this when I heard the front door open and Sue walked in. And I still thought of this up until I looked up to see Lucia walk in the front door of the Clearwater's home shyly. Quil was behind her but I barely noticed him. The only thing in the room or in the world that I could see was Lucia. She was beyond beautiful. She has long silky hair, brunette colored hair with a straight fringe that sat on her forehead, framing her soft, shy face... She had a pale face with pretty hazel eyes. She had white colored khakis on and a light blue blouse the hugged her curves and made her irresistible, just like her full lips. She was the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life, even Bella, and I felt drawn to her in awe. Just then I notice Sue was speaking, she was introducing Lucia to everyone and I thought that she didn't need to introduce me to her; it feels like I have known her all my life.

"…and this is Jacob." Sue said pointing at me. I quickly stood up and shook her hand. That was a mistake; as soon as we touched it felt like I was getting electrocuted, a shock was going through my hand, I could feel it going to hers, and by the looks of it she could feel it too. And once again I could only see her. I needed her. I wanted her desperately. As soon as that happened she quickly took her hand away and looked down blushing.

Sue asked me what happened and I could barely hear her as I ran out the door. I ran and ran and ran, because if I didn't I was most likely to turn around a go back and do something I would regret later. So I just ran. I didn't know what happened or why, but I needed to control my self before I went back there. I phased. And at once everybody knew what had happened. I imprinted. Everyone was trying to give me advice and tell me not to worry, it would be alright, and one and I knew it was--Embry -- told me to go back to her. Sam told me that I needed to get control of my self and go tell my dad, Emily and Sue what happened. So I did.