Chapter One

He was crying yet again the pain was just too much to bear and he couldn't stand it anymore. It had been three months and still he cried. He had never shed a tear for anyone except his mother and now her. She had left him with three children. Two were at boarding school but were kept close by if anything happened. Their last child was at home with him. His daughter the only girl left in their family now. She looked just like her mother except for her bright red hair. His sons looked liked him the only thing they had of their mother was their eyes.

He heard little feet running into his room. Lex wiped the tears from his eyes quickly and he looked at his daughter. She was waiting in the doorway looking intently at him.

"Come here." Lex told her and he watched as a bright smile came to her face and she ran over to him. Lex placed her on his lap and looked at her. "What are you doing up this late?"

"I can't sleep." Her eyes had huge bags under them she hadn't slept in nights.

"Why can't you sleep?" Lex had been worried about his daughter for awhile. Ever since she kept having re accruing night mares for the past week.

"I don't like the night."

"Lily what's wrong why won't you tell me?" He looked into the eyes of his child.

"Nothing." She ran her hands over her eyes she was so tired but she was afraid of falling asleep.

"Lily if you can't tell me then you are going to have to talk to someone else about this." Lex knew that he couldn't let his child keep going through sleepless nights it wasn't good.

"Who?"

"A therapist to help figure out what is wrong with you and why you can't sleep."

"I don't want to talk to someone else."

"Then talk to me. Please sweetie?" Lex touched her cheek and she looked up at her dad straight into his eyes.

"I don't want to see him kill mommy anymore. I want it to stop." Tears streamed down her cheeks.

Lex ran his hand over her face and he held his daughter. "I know you don't, I know." Lex pulled her in tight and he kissed her head. He didn't know what to do his daughter was traumatized that it was the police officer had told him. Lily couldn't remember what the man looked like at all. All she had told the police was that the man was holding a gun to Lana's head and he had tied up Lily to a chair. Lily remembered him saying 'I am going to let your daughter see just what I saw. Don't worry I won't hurt her' Then she said that he pulled the trigger and Lana fell to the floor. The man untied Lily and then he left.

Lily ended up falling asleep in his arms after awhile. He was glad that Chloe was going to be over in the morning. When Chloe came Lily was always happy it would be nice to see a sincere smile on her face. Lex had loved Lana and they had shared ten years together. It was hard to lose his wife, but he knew he could never understand the pain Lily felt. That day he came home to find police cars surrounding his house had felt like a dream, at first he thought that something bad had happened to Lily. When he saw his daughter sitting on the couch crying and he knew that something had happened to Lana. He didn't believe them at first not until he had seen her and then it hit him hard. He couldn't breath and he had backed into a wall and sat down and cried.

He hated that memory and he hated that he hadn't been home. He had blamed himself and he still did. Lex picked up Lily and took her into her room. He covered her up and went back into his room. Lex pulled back the blanket and lay down. Tomorrow he was going to go pick up his sons and bring them home for the weekend. His eyes closed and memories filled his mind.

In the morning Lex was awoken he heard knocking on the door. He got up and went to door knowing that it had to be Chloe. He only had on his pajama pants and not shirt he hadn't thought to grab one. When he opened the door he was greeted by Chloe's welcoming smile.

"Well I guess I woke you up." Chloe told him as she looked at what he was wearing.

"Yeah you did what time is it?" Lex didn't want to be late his boys always pestered him if he was even a minute late.

"It's eight." Chloe was surprised that Lex wasn't dressed yet he had to go get Alex and Leo in ten minutes.

"Shit. I guess I stayed up too late trying to make Lily feel better. Can you talk to her while I am gone she keeps having these nightmares about Lana." Lex let Chloe in and then he closed the door.

"Yeah I can talk to her you better hurry up you don't want the boys to bother you all weekend." Chloe smirked at him and then she went up the stairs into Lily's room to see if she was awake.

Lex watched as Chloe just walked in as if this was her house and as if she felt completely comfortable here. Lex went back into his room and changed he left the house and went to the boarding school to get his sons.

Chloe watched as Lily looked up at her. "Hey your dad said that we need to have a talk." Chloe took the little girl's hand and helped her up off the floor.

"About what happened last night." Lily didn't want to talk about she hadn't wanted to talk about it when the police made her when her dad wasn't there to protect her from them. They seemed to get even madder that she couldn't recognize the man that had killed her mom.

"Yeah I know that you don't want to talk about it but sometimes it helps." Chloe brushed the bright red hair from Lily's face she looked so much like Lana.

"It hurts too much."

"It's not good to keep things in there must be some reason that you block out the man who did this."

"I just can't remember what he looks like his face is a blur. All I remember is mommy telling me she loved me and then I remember what the man said and mommy dying." Tears streamed down her cheeks and she looked at Chloe she didn't want to talk about this anymore.

"If you do remember what this person looks like then will you tell someone?" Chloe was worried that something was going to happen to the kids or to Lex if Lana's killer was still out there.

"Yeah I guess."

"Promise me you will."

"I promise."

"Now let's go downstairs I'm sure you are hungry." Chloe took the child's hand again and led her down stairs she poured some cereal and milk into a bowl and let her eat.