Love comes when you least expect it
When it's not wanted
I may feel loved, desired
But I also feel cornered, confused
I need time to think about
I need time to find out
Who I am
What I want
Where I belong...
Crack me open
Read my thoughts
Interpret my desires
They think they know me
But it's their little fantasy
It's what they want, I'm not considered
Do they really care?
Do they know how to think?
Do they know how to love, properly?
When it comes to me,
No.
They don't care
They can't think
They don't love
Use
Drain
Abuse
Pain
Alone...
And I condone.
My emotions spiral and mix
Into a mass I cannot identify
What is love again?
What is hate?
Help me remember how to care
About my possible fate.
Help me remember who I am
And what I feel.
I wish that I could drift off
Into another dimension
Or another world, even
Just to get away from it all
Propped up on my personal cloud
So high up, in the sky
No one can reach me.
While I'm gone
I don't want to worry about
I don't want to forget about
The way I feel,
The conflicting emotions
Heavenly suffering
Repulsive desire
Rushed suspension.
Stop time from ticking away
Reach out and collect the numbers
The seconds, the minutes, the hours
Hold the arms still as they move quickly
And shove the future into you
With such a force, of which you're not prepared
Causing me to crumble down
And lose my mind
Leave me be,
I just need a break from reality...