Playing with Fire
Author's Note: Hello everyone! Finally! This is the first chapter to the sequel of Collateral Damage. Of course the timeline has changed since Silver's little 'vision' and if any of you haven't read Collateral Damage yet I recommend you do, just so you understand everything.
Okay, main shipping with be Gold and Silver, with Originalshipping thrown in for good measure. Everyone loves those boys! It will be hinted at Secondaryshipping too, but not too much. And I can promise yet another bumpy and wild ride for our beautiful babies!
So sit back, relax, and enjoy the drama!
Chapter one: Everything changes
To be given a second chance was something that just seemed surreal right now. Like everything that I saw, that I dreamt, was just a collection of possible occurrences. There wasn't substantial proof that even if I chose to make the same mistakes that my life would have ended up like that, but having that vision...really affected me.
Gold...right now we were not as close as we were in my vision, and I had no idea if we ever would be, but when I kissed him earlier I knew it meant something. And just like my premonition I am in the Pokemon Centre room, sharing with Gold, staring out of the window.
He seemed different. Like he wasn't his usual bubbly self, making stupid lame ass jokes and trying to get on my nerves. In fact he was being too quiet. I expected some remark to why I was just looking out of the window, but he hadn't said anything.
I sighed, gazing up at the network of stars in the night sky, all glistening and twinkling for all to see. A small smile crept upon my lips as I closed my eyes briefly. Right now I had a chance to put everything right, to make me and Gold work. We had no worries about Cyan trying to destroy us and we could just enjoy things at our pace. Only it wasn't that easy.
Gold was oblivious to my vision, so my sudden urge to kiss him must have really shocked him. Maybe that was why he was so quiet.
Had I scared him? Then again the Silver he knew wasn't like me now...I used to be so horrible, so insular. But how could I be like that now? Now after I had seen the error to my behaviour. But...perhaps acting like I hadn't changed would help?
"Gold..." I muttered, weirdly hating the sound of my voice echoing in the silence. I glanced over my shoulder, watching the amber eyed boy spread out over the large bed, gazing up at the ceiling.
"Yeah?"
I frowned, biting my lip, feeling nervous. Why was I feeling like this? It was just Gold, the same Gold I saw in my premonition. He shouldn't be making me feel like this.
"Are...you okay?"
Golden eyes raised to mine briefly until he nodded.
"Of course I am, why wouldn't I be?"
I shrugged my shoulder's, fully turning to face his sprawled out body, as I leaned against the window sill. How could I explain all this? It was all so stupid, and incredibly unreal. He might think I had lost my mind or something.
"...you're quiet..."
The dark haired boy moved until he was lying on his stomach, elbows propping his body up slightly as his hands rested underneath his chin.
"I was just thinking,"
"About what?"
"Stuff..."
I rolled my eyes. Wow that was helpful. But still he didn't seem too troubled to me. In fact he just looked like he was literally trying to sort out a metaphorical mess inside of his head. Slowly I walked towards the bed, sitting down on the edge, just looking at him.
"Do you...want to talk about it?" I asked, wanting to hit myself afterwards. Since when did I care about that shit? Gold glanced at me for a moment, before a playful smirk teased his lips.
"Since when did you care about my problems?"
Instantly I looked away, allowing my long red hair to hide my expression from view. I knew I should have used a different approach.
"...I don't care about your problems," I mumbled, hating the fact I couldn't bring myself to be heartless any more. What the hell was wrong with me? The bed shifted and before I knew it Gold was sitting upright beside me, raising an eyebrow in thought.
"...Silver...did something happen?"
I blinked in shock. Happen? What did he mean?
"Huh?"
"Did something happen earlier today?"
His eyes burned into mine and I could feel my heart pound ever faster in my chest. Images flooded my mind, visions of what could have been between us, what we could have had. Then I frowned, instantly causing the dark haired boy to tense.
"...Silver?"
I was brought back to reality for that moment as the temporary silence seemed to deafen my ears. I hated it, I wanted Gold to continue talking, to never stop. But obviously that wouldn't happen.
"I...I'm fine..." I lied, fidgeting with my hands in my lap, trying to think of anything to say to Gold. He shook his head.
"You're lying,"
"I am not!" I said defiantly, trying my best to hide the shaky undertone to my voice. Of course it was useless. If my hands were anything to go by then Gold could blatantly see my whole body trembling.
"...so why are you shaking like that?"
He pointed to my hands and instantly I pulled the edges of my sleeves over them. It was a self conscious thing, seemed I hadn't grown out of that yet.
"...it's nothing."
"Silver, you can talk to me, you know?"
It just wasn't that simple. Maybe I should just forget about it, and not rush things. If Gold and I were going to happen then wouldn't it happen regardless of what I did?
"Yeah..."
Then he placed a hand on my shoulder, causing my whole body to tense immediately.
"You're...making me worry. I don't like it."
My eyes glanced at Gold's expression to see he was frowning. It wasn't like I didn't want to tell him, it was the fact I couldn't. So as my eyes gazed back at my hands I decided to try to say something at least.
"...sorry, it's just complicated."
"Too right it is. Silver...you kissed me in front of everyone!"
His voice was loud, but he didn't seem angry. Just shocked, wanting answers that I could not provide. I mean how would he react if I just admitted that I loved him?
"...I did..."
"I just...want to know why. The Silver I know would never let anyone hug him, let alone that!"
A small smirk teased my lips as Gold's hand gently rubbed my shoulder. That was very true. But I just saw Gold and I couldn't stop myself.
"People...change..."
Golden eyes blinked in confusion.
"Yeah, but it's like you've gone full circle or something! This is just not you Silver,"
Was it so wrong to try and change my behaviour? Did Gold like it when I was a horrible heartless bastard? I sighed heavily, wishing that this conversation would just end already.
"...like I said... it's complicated."
"Silver..."
Gold shook his head, obviously wanting to protest at my lack of co-operation, but before he could say anything else he was cut off by a thunderous scream.
"AAAHHHHHHH!"
My body jolted at the sound. What the hell was that?
"What the hell...?" Gold complained, glancing at the door. The scream vaguely sounded like a voice I recognised.
Was it Crystal? But why would she be screaming?
"That sounded like Crystal."
The dark haired boy immediately got to his feet, with myself following suit. Well, I didn't want to be alone in this room.
"I suppose we should check it out." Gold murmured, causing me to nod in agreement. And just like that we left our room and made our way to Crystal's.
Gold knocked three times and still no-one was answering the door. What the hell was she playing at? I was growing impatient, sighing and leaning against the wall. Gold continued pressing his ear against the door, listening for any noise inside the room, then he would knock again.
"Crys! Is everything okay in there?!"
I watched him. He was nervous, concerned to why his best friend was not answering the door, and to be honest a part of me felt the same.
Had something happened to her?
And just like that my whole body froze.
What if...by changing the time line it altered other people's lives too?
I swallowed hard as Gold continued knocking the door, not giving up.
"...Gold..." I tried, deciding it was time to actually tell him.
"Not right now Silver...I'm trying to listen if Crys is okay."
I folded my arms in annoyance and looked away, changing my mind. Okay fuck it. I wasn't going to tell him. He could stay in the dark.
Then my ears alerted to the sound of the door unlocking from the inside and a horrendous creaking sound echoed through the corridor. As I glanced back to where Gold stood Crystal was at the door, her cheeks were flushed in a red hue, and she was sniffling.
Had she been crying?
"Crystal? What happened?" Gold asked, until the blue haired girl collapsed in his arms, breaking down completely. I had never seen her so worked up before, it was like she was terrified of something.
"Oh...G-Gold...it was...horrible!"
"Okay...calm down, and tell me everything that happened."
His voice was soft, like he used to speak to me. Well...in my vision.
Once again my body tensed at the reoccurring image. Would he ever be like that with me now? Crystal sniffled as she clung to Gold like he was literally her only lifeline in this world.
"It...was...awful Gold...I...had a nightmare..."
"What happened?"
I watched both of them intently, never diverting my gaze. A nightmare? Wasn't it usually me who suffered from restless nights? Crystal raised her face to look at Gold before she closed her eyes, allowing new tears to fall down her cheeks.
"...I dreamt that...you had a Birthday Party...and...it was a disaster!"
My heart pounded in my chest as realisation started to sink in.
She dreamt of what I saw in my vision? No...that wasn't possible, was it?
Gold looked confused for a moment.
"How so?"
She sniffled again, trying to get her voice at a steady level before speaking again.
"...it was a massacre! Lots of people were killed! I...I ended up crippled...in a wheelchair...and Silver..."
At the mention of my name I glanced up to meet sparkling eyes of blue.
"...he...he..."
Then she broke down again, only able to stand thanks to Gold supporting her. I watched as he gently stroked her back and tried to calm her down, but right now I was more on edge than ever.
She didn't mention what happened to me...was it what I saw? Did I get shot by the police? Did I...die?
"Crys it was only a nightmare, it's not real." Gold soothed.
If only he knew. It certainly felt real to me when I experienced it, so I knew exactly how that felt. No wonder she was an emotional mess. But now that time line would not happen. I had changed that.
"..I...I know...s-sorry..."
"We all get them..." I added in, looking up at the ceiling in thought. Usually I only ever had nightmares. Dreams were foreign to me, but it was something I had learnt to deal with.
"I can't say I have ever suffered with them." Gold mused, still holding Crystal in his arms.
Well that didn't surprise me. He was always so laid back and care free. It wasn't like he had anything to worry about. The blue haired girl moved back slightly to wipe her face on the back of her hand. I figured she had calmed down a little now.
"You're lucky then." I groaned.
"I think...I'll be okay now..." Crystal murmured, taking a deep breath. Gold looked at her intently, his face pained to some degree. I guess he really worried over her.
"Are you sure?"
She nodded, smiling weakly.
"Yeah, it was just...a shock that's all."
Gold smiled back and deep inside it lifted my heart right up into the heavens. I had missed that stupid grin of his, in a weird way. As I moved away from the wall Crystal glanced at me, bowing her head slightly.
"I am sorry for...worrying you and disturbing you."
I heard Gold chuckle nervously I wondered why he would behave like that. It wasn't like we were doing anything spectacular. So instead of contributing to the conversation I merely rolled my eyes and let Gold do the talking.
"No, it's fine. Honest. Just...try and get some sleep."
Crystal nodded, her face still flushed in a faint red hue due to her crying antics. But at least she had calmed down and wasn't so hysterical any more.
"Okay...thank you Gold."
And with a nod of his head the blue haired girl slowly retreated to her room once again, locking it behind her.
I sighed heavily, running my fingers through my hair. This had been a long night, and I was shattered. Good job tomorrow was my day off from work but still, working at the department store would never be the same again. Not after what I saw.
"Crys never usually suffers from bad dreams..." Gold mused as he turned to face me. I shrugged half heartedly, not really caring. What I had been through was ten times worse.
"I think we should just try to get some sleep. It's late."
The dark haired boy nodded in response as I opened the door to our room and walked inside.
I sat on my end of the bed as I got inside, refusing to look up at the amber eyed boy who stood in front of me. Just getting today over with would be an achievement.
"Silver..."
My eyes glanced up momentarily at Gold. He seemed confused, almost hurt, and I didn't know why.
"Mhm?"
I watched as he sat beside me, clasping his hands together in his lap.
"You never told me why you are acting this way."
Frowning to myself I sighed, wishing this conversation would just go away.
"There is nothing to tell..."
Gold raised an eyebrow in thought.
"So, you just changed your whole demeanour over night?"
"No..." I mumbled, hating the sound of my voice right now. I could almost feel his eyes burning into me, judging me for my behaviour. I hated it. Why couldn't he just accept it and be happy?
"...so what then?"
"It...doesn't matter."
Gold sighed, placing a hand to his head. I allowed my eyes to trail downwards to the carpet as they started to get adjusted to the dark environment.
"So, you kissed me and you expect me to just not ask about why you did it, and move on?" Involuntarily I flinched, wishing that somehow this was easier.
Why was this so hard? In my vision Gold came onto me! Why was that not happening now?!
"...I said I was sorry."
"It's not about being sorry Silver..." He grunted afterwards, obviously losing patience with me. Instead of protesting or answering him back I flopped on my side of the bed, subconsciously hugging the pillow for comfort. Gold didn't move. He just stared at me.
"...you're screwing with my head, you know?"
I closed my eyes, trying to block out his voice. Things would have been so much easier if he just didn't ask questions. Gold normally just went for it, and didn't think about consequences. This wasn't supposed to happen.
"It's not intentional..."
"Oh really? So why did you kiss me then? Was it a spur of the moment thing? Do you ACTUALLY like me? Or is this some sort of sick and twisted mind game to you?"
Those words hurt, like really hurt. I moved up slightly so I could look at Gold, and I saw the pain in his eyes. Was that really how it seemed to him? Did he think that little of me? Shaking my head a little I tried to explain as best as I could.
"...this isn't a game Gold...something happened which...I can't really explain and when I saw you I...couldn't stop myself..."
Poor excuse, but it was the only thing I could say. Gold raised his eyebrow at me.
"That still doesn't clarify anything, you know?"
Feeling annoyed at myself and Gold I sat upright, my hands balling into fists. It was like he was attacking me, causing me to feel threatened. Did he want me to lash out?
"Just...leave it!"
"Not until you tell me the fucking reason!"
I glared at him, and at that moment I swear to Arceus he was glaring at me too. But, it didn't make me angrier. In fact it caused my heart to thunder in my chest.
"That's not going to happen." I grumbled.
Gold's eyes narrowed as his body neared mine. Instinctively I backed away, until my head hit against the headboard and I cringed. When I opened my eyes again Gold was very close to me, glaring into my eyes. So close in fact if I concentrated I could almost feel his breath on my face.
"Well...you are not going to sleep until you tell me."
Quickly I turned my head to the side and closed my eyes. This was too much for me right now.
Why was he so close? Was he doing this on purpose?
"Fuck you Gold!" I cried, my hands trembling at my sides.
"Why is it so hard for you to tell me?" His voice was gentle, soft and I found myself relaxing a little. When I opened my eyes and looked back into his golden eyes I saw he was smiling. And I hated it when he did that.
"It's...hard to explain."
"Try me."
I sighed heavily, trying to figure out what exactly I was supposed to say.
How could I tell him everything? About us, about Cyan and about the fact he tried to kill everyone I loved because of something I did? It was all so stupid.
"...I...had a vision." I blurted out, watching as Gold's face contorted in confusion.
"A...vision?"
"Yes."
"Like...of the future?"
I shrugged, not knowing if that was what it was. Maybe it was a possible future, which now I had changed it so none of those things would ever occur. Which I was grateful for, but at the expense of Gold and I. We were not together, and right now I doubted we ever would be.
"...I did something bad which caused everything to spiral out of control, and lots of bad things happened."
And then I felt Gold's hand gently rest on mine, allowing my eyes to trail downwards. Why was he doing this?
"Is that why you have been acting so...different?"
Weakly I nodded, closing my eyes. I didn't want to relive that experience ever again. Cyan had caused enough problems, just merely thinking about it was sending my body into panic. The dark haired boy smiled, and chuckled.
"Silver...it doesn't mean any of that will happen."
"I know..." I murmured, feeling the warmth of Gold's hand on my own. Even now my heart wouldn't stop beating faster for him. It was like it would burst out of my chest soon.
"Maybe you just need to sleep. Everything might become clearer in the morning."
That was a great idea. Quickly I moved my hand from Gold's, feeling my body tense up.
"Yeah..."
As he smiled at me the dark haired boy stood up and walked over to the other side of the large bed. Then he sat down on his part of the bed, and took his shoes and socks off. I kicked my boots off, not feeling comfortable with having bare feet in bed just yet. I also decided to keep my clothes on. Things were awkward enough.
Gold of course had no shame whatsoever and basically stripped down to his white cotton boxer shorts, causing my face to get extremely hot all of a sudden.
Those boxers were the same in my vision...
"Silver...?"
I snapped out of my daze until I met Gold's eyes. He seemed concerned.
"I'm not going to even ask why you were just staring at my crotch..."
My eyes widened in realisation.
Shit...did I really just do that?!
My face seemed to just burst into flames at the heat that radiated off it, and quickly I pulled the bed sheets over my body in embarrassment. As I closed my eyes I heard Gold laugh and then felt the bed shift slightly as he lay beside me.
"It's okay...I'm not going to go crazy or beat you up, besides...that's usually your job."
I kept the bed sheet pulled up high around my face, so angry with myself right now.
How could I have been so stupid?! Why did I do that? Stupid fucking visions...
"Relax Silv."
Not knowing what else to do I turned away from him, facing the wall, wishing that I could force myself to sleep right now. I was dying of embarrassment. Once again Gold chuckled.
"Sheesh, I never had you down as the shy and retiring type."
"Shut up Gold!" I cried in defence, feeling my whole body tense up completely.
This was hell right now. He was lying beside me with nothing but boxers on, and knowing that we were a couple in my premonition wasn't helping me right now. My eyes shot open in shock as I felt a finger delicately dance down my spine, causing me to shiver.
"Why are you hiding from me Silv? Are you worried I might get excited around you?"
I closed my eyes tightly, feeling my body tremble under the pressure. Was it such a crime to want to be able to sleep in peace for once?
"I'm trying to fucking sleep you moron!"
The finger from my spine disappeared which allowed me to breathe a sigh of relief. Maybe he had given up for the night.
"I'm sorry, I didn't realise how important beauty sleep was to you."
Grumbling incoherent nonsense to myself I closed my eyes and tried to settle down. It was late, and if we stayed up any later I would be very grouchy in the morning. As I sighed weakly I felt Gold shuffle slightly amongst the bed sheets before mumbling quietly;
"Night Silv."
As I managed to get my heartbeat and breathing back to normal I started to relax, feeling a little better. Maybe Gold was right, perhaps things would become clearer in the morning. And with that in mind I murmured.
"...night..."
Author's Note: Ah! Poor Silver :( The timeline has changed so he isn't with Gold! I'm sure that will change soon enough xD Bless them. Anyhoo, please read and review! It makes a crazy yaoi obsessed fangirl very happy face indeed, and it makes the updates quicker too! Ciao for now!