Since it's that time of year for Christmas stories, I figured I'd try my hand at it. Think of this story as the grown up version of the Polar Express just without the actual train. It has a few lovable characters in it – SVU and a few of the Bad Girls (Brit TV show). As we all know, Olivia has had a hard childhood so she's lost her belief in the true holiday spirit at a young age. The same goes for Nikki Wade and Helen Stewart. Now don't you worry, I haven't forgotten about my other story but this popped into my head as I lay listening to Josh Groban's song Believe (which happens to be on the soundtrack of The Polar Express)

Plot/summary: Nikki and Helen obviously are a couple and are happy together but something is missing in their lives. Olivia is a good friend of theirs and she too is feeling like something is missing in her life. Until one snowy night. The lives of these three women will be forever changed by one event.

Believe

"Alright everyone! Have yourselves a great holiday. I don't expect to see anyone until next Monday."

"Uh…captain. Can I talk to you?"

"Sure Liv. But if this is about your time off, the answer is no," Cragen turned and headed for his office. Olivia just stared at his retreating back and sighed. She wasn't exactly sure what she was going to do for entire week.

As if to read her thoughts, Elliot saddled up beside her, "you have any plans then?" Shaking her head and turning towards her desk, Olivia began to pack up her desk.

"You know I don't have any family. And before you say anything, I'm just going to stop by your place on Christmas morning for a few hours to drop of the kids gifts."

"Ok. But you know Kathy. She's not going to like that. And besides, your little El's godmother. Why don't you sleep over for the week…?" Elliot wasn't able to finish his sentence when Liv adamantly shook her head.

"No way. I've spent an afternoon at your house remember? Your kids are great and I love 'em all, but I'm not that crazy to spend more then a few hours with them. They are wild." With that, Olivia said her goodbyes and left the squad for her holidays. Olivia was thinking about how she was going to do during the holidays when a familiar voice stopped her.

"Happy holidays you prat! "

Smiling Olivia looked up to see her best friends heading towards her.

"Hey you two. Where have you been?" As Helen was about to reply, Olivia caught the look on Nikki's face and quickly add with a cheeky grin on her face, "on second thought, never mind." Both Nikki and Liv laughed but Helen's jaw dropped open.

"Olivia Benson! I'd expect that from Nikki, but you!" There was no bitterness in the words. Only a twinkle in Helen's eyes. All three women smiled.

"What are your plans for the holidays mate?" Nikki said as she wrapped an arm around Helen's shoulder. Liv thought about it.

"Uh-oh. Looks like someone is thinking of bailing out on us Nik," Helen said with her thick Scottish accent. Olivia smiled and just shook her head.

"No I'm not bailing…yet. Did you need me to bring anything?"

"Nah. Just bring yourself. And if you can bring a date along that would be great." Sighing, Liv just shook her head. Helen was always trying to get Olivia to date more. At least get out of the apartment.

"Now Helen, you know I can't cheat on you," Liv said with a wink and a smile. Helen just blushed slightly and laughed along with her. A glance at Nikki told Olivia that she had better stop that line of joking.

Clearing her throat, Liv gave a sad smile and said, "Sorry ladies. I'm not bringing a soul. You'll just have to deal with me." With that Liv made her way to the elevator.

"Come on now mate! We know you have someone stashed away!" Nikki called out as Liv entered the elevator. Getting an elbow in the ribs Nikki looked down at Helen.

"What? What did I do, love?"

Sighing and rolling her eyes, Helen eased her way out of Nikki's arms, "I saw the look you gave her Nik. You know she means no harm."

"I know, I know. I can't help it. Can you blame me?" Nikki gave her that small smile that Helen melted over. Shaking her head, Helen reached up and kissed Nik on the lips.

"You're incorrigible." Helen placed her hand in Nikki's and headed for the elevators.

"Yeah. But you know you love it," Nikki replied cheekily.