If I Mean A Lot to You.
And EClare Story
I decided to write my own EClare story. I mean, I ship them so much. I still have some hope for them. This takes place after nowhere to run. Okay, here it goes.
Disclaimer: I do not own degrassi, or anything in here.
Eli's POV:
I can't stop thinking about that night. The night I crashed Morty. The night I lost the girl of my dreams. I can't understand why I'm such a screw up. I just wish I could talk to her. I mean, we talked when I found her and helped her in the woods, but of course Jake and Drew came to ruin whatever could have happened. Why did she have to get back with him? I mean, Jake and I are on good terms now, but still. I just wish… -Phone rings- I wonder who that is…? It read.. ClareBear
"please…a-answer…" "Um..hello?" I can't contain my excitement, but I can't help but hear muffled cries after that "Please answer"..
"Eli!...you..you answered.." I don't know why she doubted that I'd answer. "Of course I did, what's going on? Are you..crying?" "Um..um..yeah." "Well, why are you crying?" I swear, whatever made her cry… "Jake..and I.." "What did he do Clare? What happened?" I was going kick his ass for making her cry.. "He..We… I…" "Clare, come on, you can tell me.." I wonder what he, or they, or she did… God, if it's what I think it is.. "I almost…broke my vow. For him. But.." "Oh my god, Clare! Did he make…you? Did he pressure you?" I was surely going to kill him. "No, I wanted to. I was…unbuttoning my shirt..and-" "You can tell me Clare, I mean, that's why you called, right?" God, I was so pissed..she was so pure, and smart. How could she be so god damn stupid about this. And with him! He…basically…cheated. "But as…soon as I started, he..just..put his hands on…-" "You can keep going, Clare, it's okay." "I don't wanna talk about this anymore. I'm sorry I bothered you." "Clare, I'm going to go get you, okay?" "No, Eli.. I-" then I heard banging on the door, I'm sure it was Jake. "Clare, sweetie..baby." "Get out of this house, Jake! "Well, fuck. I live here too, hunny." "Get out." "Fine, you're just a fucking tease." "Alright, we're through. See ya later, Bro." "Clare..?" "Oh, Eli.. I forgot..-" before I let her finish talk I said "I'm going over." I then hung up. I told my parents, then I ran out the door.
Clare's POV:
I can't believe I was so stupid. I can't believe I almost broke my vow..for him. I can't believe I called Eli. I can't believe Eli is coming over.
I miss Eli though. I needed to thank him for so much. I loved his way of always caring. I loved the way…he just..never judged. I loved..him. I did. I really..need to catch up with him, and soon. I missed it being Eli, Adam, and I. I missed the way things were. Since Alli and I weren't talking. I never even got to ask her why she kissed Jake. I just missed the old days..where I wasn't so goddamn- -knocks- "Clare! It's me, Eli.." I ran down the stairs and opened the door…he smirked at me. God, I missed that smirk and those deep green eyes. His hair was a little shorter than the last time I saw him. I miss him. He interrupted my thoughts when he said "Now, let's continue this story, Clare. Tell me, what happened with you and..Jake."
Eli's POV:
God, I shouldn't have asked. This story was way too much. It really pissed me off. I mean, therapy with Dr. Nash had helped me cope a little, due to the fact that I never told her much about Clare. As soon as Clare noticed my face looked a little disgusted, she stopped and said "Oh..I'm sorry, I know you must…not like hearing this. I don't really like telling it.. but I have no one to talk to. Everyone in my life..I pushed them away. Even Jake, who's like..my brother..my…jerk of a brother." I couldn't think of anything to say, but I couldn't see her this way anymore. "Clare, I know this is..really screwed up, but you can always get people back. I mean, you didn't push me away, I'm always going to come back to you whether you like it or not!" Dammit, Eli you said way too much, she's just looking at you oddly with those gorgeous eyes.. Clare then said "Eli, I want to…thank you so much. I've missed you..so much. Tell me…what's been going on since I last saw you." This was so...surprising. she wanted to know what's been going on..with me? "Well.." I said with a huge sigh "this is going to be a long…and painfully boring summer story to you, and first 2 weeks of school story too.." Clare giggled..her first..giggle and smile of the night. I felt somewhat accomplished. "Okay, let's start with after school ended. I started seeing a therapist. Her name is Dr. Nash. She's surprisingly..amazing. but you know, I'm really stubborn, right? Well, I didn't talk to her for at least a week. I really wasn't into talking to her. Even if she started off with 'So, Eli, what's your favorite class?' I couldn't answer that since you were involved. So, I just blocked her out for a while." "You couldn't talk about me..?" of course not. You were the best thing in my life, and I fucked it up.. "Uh, no…not really. It was hard. Especially since you were dating…Jake. And stuff."
Clare's POV:
I couldn't believe this. Here I was, with Eli, listening to him, and how he's changing. I missed him. And he's a senior this year. I mean, I saw him not even a week ago, but I missed him so much. I missed one on one time with him. Then I heard footsteps running up the stairs.. Oh my god..no, not this. Not now.