This is the alphabetical order challenge that I came up with! (Most probably someone else thought of it too) Anyways! Hope you enjoy!

All I was trying to do was save my brothers.

But I failed horribly.

Couldn't lead them right, couldn't get them out of our mission safely.

Donnie had to operate on Mikey to close the gash on his head.

Everyone was glad that at least he didn't get a concussion, except I.

For me, I had truly failed my brothers, Mikey could have gotten seriously damaged.

Good thing no one knew from my family, what I do after I watch any of brothers get harmed because of me.

Harming myself was my way of punishing myself for letting the enemies hurt my family.

It surprises me how non of them have noticed the fresh wounds that appear once I come out of my room in the morning.

Just seeing the blood drip from my arms, to my wrist, to my palm would make you wonder why the heck haven't the asked me where did I get that.

Knowing my family so well, I have realized they could tell these wounds weren't there when we came out of the battle.

Looking at my arms, perhaps they thought I deserved feeling the pain I felt like the one they felt.

Maybe they were right, but not completely, as for my pain is much worse than theirs.

Notice the difference little brothers, none of you help me with my pain, as for you, everyone you love is right beside you to support you.

Oh my dear brothers, if only you felt the emptiness in my heart, then may be you could look at me differently.

Passion, Love, Warmth, Comfort, Joyfulness, Happiness, went messing the moment I stepped in to be your leader.

Question was, have I wanted this?

Raph always thought that I gladly wanted to take that role so he wouldn't, though he wanted it, sorry to disappoint you little brother.

Splinter was the one who forced me to do so, I never wanted it Raphie...

Training hard was required to be done at dawn, keeping distance from everyone so I could focus on what's more important.

Uttering a word that defines disagreement with my master would mean punishment.

Very much anything I do that disappoints my father means punishment.

Why my dear brother do you say the leader ship role is an easy challenge.

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AN:To be honest with you I didn't think that I would be able to reach this much! I know I have failed this challenge but it was fun doing it. Please feel free to try it out and in fact please share with me what you wrote, I would love to read that. I know this was very weird and seemed a little it forced, but I like it! :3 See ya later~3