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Chapter 1

I never thought she'd do it. I just can't believe she said yes to his crazy plan. She seemed so hell bent on killing herself for that bloodsuckers kid. I can't even believe I agreed to this. I mean what was I thinking? But if this is what it takes to save her life, than is it really so much to ask?

JPOV

"Bella listen. This didn't work out, try again." I didn't like the direction I was going in but what did I have to lose? Bella. Bella was the only thing I had to lose.

"Jake, I'm sure any baby would be the same."

"Not any baby, Bella. Any baby of His, sure. But what about a human baby?" My baby.

"What Jake, kill my baby and have some strangers? Are you kidding me?

Okay Jake, just say it. Just lay your heart out there for her to stomp on one more time. 'cause she sure as hell is never going to go for this, just like I told her leach.

"No, Bells…not a…stranger." Here goes nothing.

"What? What are you talking….. Oh." She looked touched and a little shocked, but I could also see the pity in her eyes, pity for me. God, I was pathetic, but I didn't care. I was too far gone for that. "You don't mean…..really?"

"Yeah"

"Wow"

"Bells, I would do anything for you. But I won't stand by and watch you die." I couldn't take this anymore. I was losing it. "This is crazy! Can't you see what you're doing? Killing yourself for what? For something that's hurting you? And you're going to take both of us with you! I hope you know that! 'Cause Bells, neither of us is going to be around much longer after you're gone." Sure, that was a low blow but this was Bella's life.

"Jacob…." Oh great, she was crying now. Shit what had I done. Not only was she never going to go for this, she was probably never going to want to talk to me again.

"Bella…..Bells? Look at me." I took her too thin but still beautiful face in my hands. "It doesn't have to be this way. You don't have to do this. You can have everything. Your blo….Edward, a healthy, normal baby to love. Just…..please, don't do this, not this way." I couldn't help the sobs that escaped me.

"Jake." She looked at me with such love. "I don't deserve you. You really would do anything for me, wouldn't you?"

"Bells, you know I would. And you should also know by now that I need you in my life like I need air to breath. So please, Bells…..just please."

"Jake…I love you. I just…I don't know. Okay, say I did what you're asking. How would Edward feel? I know you don't care about him, but this is his baby too. How can I do that to him?" Typical Bella only thinking about her leach lover, not herself, anybody but herself.

"Bells, he told me he has no plans to go on living -if that's what you call what he does- after you…..die. " Tears started to pool in her chocolate brown eyes. "And Bells, I don't think I can make it either. I don't think I even want to make it if you're not here. You told me once that I'm your sun, but Bells, You are my heart. How can I go on living without my heart?" Tears were running down both of our faces now. Why can't she see all this is for nothing. All this suffering for what? Some vamp spawn. " Bells it doesn't have to be this way."

"Jake I know you love me. I know you both love me more than I could ever deserve. And this is killing me too, more than you know, hurting you and Edward like this it's….it's worse than the physical pain. And that's saying a lot." She laughed trying to lighten the mood. "I just don't know if I can. It seems so wrong to hurt something so innocent. Can't you understand?" She lowered her eyes to her rounded belly. "How could I kill my own baby? I would have to be some kind of monster to do that."

I couldn't help but roll my eyes. Some kind of monster…..well I guess she would know all about monsters. "Bella, you wouldn't be a monster. That THING is the monster. That THING is killing you. It's not some pretty little baby, Bella. Can't you understand that?" I could see I was pissing her off a little. "Bells, I'm begging you….think about it, please…before it's too late." I saw her soften, as she ran her hand over her belly.

"Okay."

"Okay?"

"I'll think about it, Jake." Did she really just say that? Or was I losing my mind just like the bloodsucker had? "I think I need to be alone right now, but Jake?" She looked at me pleadingly. "Don't go to far."

"Sure, sure I'll just go run patrol. Have someone get me if you need me." I hated to leave her looking so sick. Every moment with her meant the world, especially now that those moments might be numbered. Maybe, and I even hated to think it, I was probably kidding myself, but maybe she really would think about saving herself.

I walked out of the house jumped off the porch and phased before my paws hit the ground.