A/N: This is my first Rescue story, even though it's my all-time favourite show. I'm really excited about it and would be estatic if you left a review, with your thoughts. It's set immediately after episode 11 'In Deep', from season 3, so it will have spoilers in it if you haven't seen that episode yet. Anyway, enough of my ramblings, and on with the story!

DISCLAIMER: Rescue: Special Ops is property of Fremantle Media, and I do not own any of it.

It was cold, and I was tired and weak from blood loss and exhaustion. I drifted off to sleep, a sleep haunted with rocking motions and my lungs filling with water. I woke up, at about one in the morning, and heard a sound from the lounge room, and followed it out of the bedroom.

"Can't sleep either?" Jordan said. I asked if I could stay over his house, as I didn't want to be alone after what we'd been through, and he obliged, admitted he wanted company as well. When we got to his house, he insisted that I take the bed, and he would take the lounge, which was in fact a really comfy lounge. If it hadn't have been, then I would have felt bad.
"No, I can sleep. Just not without dream-drowning." I sat down next to Jordan and he put his arm around my shoulders.
"All I can think about is what would have happened if we hadn't have been found." I snuggled into Jordan, thankful for the knowledge that I wasn't alone in this.
"Yeah, well the important thing is we were found, thanks to you." I smiled at Jordan, and in return he leant down and kissed the top of my head. "What are you watching?" I said.
"Currently, Magic Bullet infomercials. But the only other things on are crappy movies, foreign stuff, and Baywatch, which isn't really suitable viewing after our day."
"Crappy movie time then," I flicked through the channels lazily, until I found a half-decent movie that was about to start.
"What's 'Mar's Attacks?" Jordan asked.
I looked up at him. "You're kidding. You've never seen Mars Attacks? Wow, that's sad. Really sad actually…"
"Shut up and watch the movie!" Jordan settled back down, before proclaiming "Why are those cows on fire?"
"Shut up and watch the movie!" I quoted him. After half an hour or so, I fell into a trance where my eyes were focused on the TV but my brain was doing everything but interpreting what I saw.

'Did he really mean what he said? About me, about not wanting to take it back? Does he want to be together like me, or does he just want friends with benefits, or nothing at all? Oh god, I overthink things way too much…' My brain was going wild, and it didn't help that I was cuddled in to the guy I was thinking about.
"So what's the plan?" Jordan said.
"The plan? In case there's an attack from Mars?"
"No, with us. What's the plan? Where are we going?" Jordan tore his eyes off the TV and looked down at me, with a nervous look on his face.
"I dunno," I said, disentangling myself from him and sitting cross-legged on the lounge, facing him. "Where do you want us to be going?"
"I don't want us to act like nothing ever happened. I mean, I want there to be something between us, I just… I…" I won't lie, Jordan looked really cute as he was stumbling over his words, searching for the right way to say it.
"Same." As I spoke this one word, I saw Jordan change in front of me, as if the world had been lifted off his shoulders. "I've had my share of friends with benefits, and booty calls, and casual, and…"
"I don't want any of that either. I want something more serious, an actual relationship." The smile hadn't left Jordan's face, and it made him look so cute, and combined with what he was saying, it was proving very hard not to lean over and give him a peck.
"I like the sound of that." I said as I returned to my original position snuggled up into Jordan. I watched the movie for a while, smiling.
"Heidi," Jordan said after about five minutes.
"Yeah," I tore my eyes away from the screen and looked up at Jordan, who lent down and kissed me. "What was that for?" I said, giggling.
"Do I need a reason to kiss my girlfriend?" Hearing him use that word to describe me sent butterflies through my intestines, which just fuelled what I was about to do.
I leant in and kissed him, with more force. Jordan responded eagerly, wrapping his arms around my waist, pulling me onto him which I happily obliged to. My arms snaked around his neck, pulling him even closer to me, and one of his hands reached up and pulled my hair out of its bun, and then tangled itself in the fiery mess. His tongue slid into my mouth, and I returned the favour. We kissed passionately for a while, before I pulled away and stood up, leaving Jordan looking bewildered on the lounge.

"And where do you think you're going?" He called.
"To bed, I'm tired, and it's 2 in the morning." I reached the bedroom and led down in bed, wishing that I hadn't have left Jordan out there alone. As soon as I closed my eyes I found myself back in my watery nightmare, except there was one difference. It wasn't me drowning and all alone. Jordan was there, as he had been when it happened, but he was the one drowning. It was horrible, and there was nothing I could do about it. I vaguely noticed a light turning on, which pulled me out of my light slumber.
I sat up and saw Jordan at the doorway, looking pained. I burst into tears, not fully understanding why I was crying. Jordan sat next to me and took me into his arms, comforting me. After I had calmed down, I said to Jordan, "I… I dreamt you were drowning. I was alone out there."
"You weren't alone. You had me. You still have me. And I am never going to leave you. Don't forget that." Jordan said as he laid down, I laid down next to him, cuddled up to each other. We led like that for 10 or so minutes, my mind ticking over, comprehending all the stuff that had happened over the last 24 hours.
"It's never gonna be over, is it? It's always gonna be haunting us." I admitted.
Jordan replied, "It will be eventually, it may not be soon, but in time it will." He pulled the covers up and closed his eyes.
I leant up and kissed him lightly on the lips, and settled back down, snuggled up to him. "Thank you." I smiled.
"No problem." He said, kissing my head. I closed my eyes, and drifted off to a more peaceful sleep.

A/N: Well, there we have it, the first chapter done! Please tell me what you think! It'll be about 3-4 days until I post the next chapter, but not to fear, I'm nearly finished the third chapter, so there's no unexpected wait. Thanks for reading! Elena Fisher xxy