PEYTON

Have you ever had a moment in your life, when you knew that because of this moment, nothing would ever be the same? Where you could look back in a few years and say, 'yep that's when my life took a completely different track than I thought'? Well I have had this moment happen to me four times. Four times my life has drastically changed. The first one was when my mom died in that fatal car accident when I was eight years old. The second one was when Ellie died, and I found out that I had a brother. The third was when I was shot in the school shooting. But the fourth has become the most important. The only moment that changed my life for both the best and worst. This was when my heart fell completely and indefinably in love with Lucas Scott.

Lucas Scott and me have had a complicated relationship, to say the least. But I knew that the first time I talked to him, the day he fixed my car on the side of the road, he was going to end up being important to me. You see I, Peyton Sawyer, have had many tragic things happen to me in my life. I have had more deaths than I ever thought possible effect me. People left me non-stop. People always leave, right? But the only thing kept me moving was Lucas. Even when I "didn't" have feelings for him, he was helping me through whatever was going on in my pathetic life. His heart touched mine in a way that no one else's have. We can understand each other without having to say any words. He makes my life complete.

But apparently that love and those feelings have become a one-sided thing. He is marrying Lindsey. Lindsey who is beautiful without having to try. Who is generous and friendly and trusting. Lindsey who does not have a trail of drama and depression following behind her at every step she takes. All of these facts, make it even harder to accept the fact that Lucas is moving on. She couldn't be a bitch or even slightly ugly, she has to be the girl that Lucas Scott should end up with. The girl that makes him happy and keeps his life simple without unnecessary drama.

It's the day of his wedding. This day I knew would become another one of those damn moments. It's the moment that I will become forced to stop loving Lucas Scott.

"P. Sawyer? You ok?"

I am pulled out of my trance and look over at Brooke who is sitting next to me in the pew. I smile softly and look away, not able to talk. It feels as if I open my mouth, I'll say too much. She grabs my hand and squeezes it. Knowing that I am not ok, there is no way that I could be ok.

Then the music starts, and my heart rate increases. I am almost convinced that the best thing for me to do at this point is to stand up an run out of there, get in my mustang comet and leave. Drive until I do not know where I am and start a new life. I could become anyone I wanted to be. I could tell everyone I had a mom. A stalker could never have attacked me. I could pretend that I was never in love with Lucas. But then I look up and see him standing there, in his suit and tie, ready to say 'I do', and he is staring at me with his intense blue eyes, and I know I could never pretend I'm not in love with him. I try and read what his eyes are telling me, but he suddenly looks away. His eyes look behind me and begin to stare at his fiancée who is walking down the aisle now.

My heart continues to break into smaller pieces with every note of the soft music playing in the background

LUCAS

I paced around the back of the church. I was supposed to wed Lindsey in ten minutes. This was proving to be the longest ten minutes of my life. Part of me wanted to run out to the altar say "I do" and get this over with. Just be married with Lindsey and it would be final. The other part wanted to slip out the back door and go play basketball at the river court. To stop overanalyzing this marriage thing. To just end it, knowing that marrying Lindsey would not stop my consistent thoughts about a certain blonde haired woman. A woman who had entered my heart long ago, and it seemed when she got in, she had dug a hole and stayed put. I hated myself for thinking this on my wedding day. I hated Peyton for coming back and making my feelings resurface, when I was getting really good at burying them deeper. But most of all I hated that I got myself into this situation and that I was too scared to do anything about it. I suddenly needed to see her.

I snuck out of my room and walked to the door that allowed me to look out at all the guests. I looked out, but I didn't focus on anyone except the girl who had just entered the sanctuary. She looked beautiful, as she always did. She walked down the pew smiling at all of her friends, but I could tell it was forced. She didn't want to be here.

"You ready, Luke?"

I turned around and saw Nathan standing there. He looked anxious, almost as if he was expecting me to say 'No I'm not'. But I knew I would never be ready. I may always have feelings for Peyton, but I was in love with Lindsey. At least that's what I would continue to tell myself, because Lindsey and me make sense.

"Yep, lets do this thing Man. " I smiled at him, and he patted me on the back. We walked out to the alter, and I blocked out my thoughts about Peyton. This day was about beautiful, wonderful Lindsey. The Lindsey who believed enough in me to get my book published. The Lindsey who loved me. The Lindsey who….

All my thoughts disappeared as I made the mistake of looking over at Peyton who was looking down at her hands. She looked so small and sad. I wanted to hold her and tell her that it would all be ok. Then she looked up at me with her beautiful green eyes. The eyes that looked at me with anger when I walked in front of her car and she had to slam on her brakes so she wouldn't hit me. The eyes that looked at me with regret when I told her I was with Brooke. The eyes that looked at me with sadness when Ellie died. The eyes that looked at me with love when I kissed her at the state game. The eyes that were now looking at me with love. But these were the same eyes that looked at me with confusion when Peyton told me no. No, she did not want to spend the rest of her life with me. I looked past her, and stared at my future wife walking down the aisle and smiled.

I was almost done with repeating my vows, and getting to the inevitable "I do". There were probably some people expecting, and hoping, for me to say no. But As I looked into Lindsey's eyes, I knew I couldn't do that to her. Lindsey loved me and she made things simple. There were no complications with her. Being with her was easy and painless. Isn't that what love should be about?

"Do you Lucas Scott take Lindsey Strauss as your beloved wife?"

The words came out easier than I thought, "I do".

The priest started to recite the vows for Lindsey. Yet, she suddenly had a look in her eyes that I had never seen in her before: clarity.

"When was the first time you spoke to Peyton?" She looked at me expectantly. I knew right away what she was talking about. The comet. My book. I revisited that moment when I pulled over on the side of the road and first spoke to the infamous Peyton Sawyer. Her car had broken down. I flashed back to the present and Lindsey knew. She knew before I did, she knew that I had unknowingly written my book about Peyton coming back into my life.

"I'm sorry, Luke. I can't do this." And with that my wedding day ended.

This day had become one of those moments that I will be able to place as a moment when my life took a completely different track than I expected it to. This is ironic because this moment today was caused by the only other important moment in my life; the day Peyton Sawyer and me first spoke; the day I fell in love with her.

What do you guys think?? I decided to write one about Lucas and Peyton because I have recently realized how obsessed I am with the two of them being together haha. Reviews? Comments? Suggestions??

I have no idea on how long I want this story to be, but this is def not a one shot!