PAIN

-Pain

Without love

Pain

Can't get enough

Pain

I like it rough
Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all-

He called me to his room. Its been happening way to often. I still haven't recovered from the last time, but I have to go. I don't mind really, but just once, I'd like to hear him to say it. Even though I know he doesn't mean it.

"Yes master…." I recite more than ask. He says nothing, just sits there, hands on his desk under his chin. Can't he at least look at me? After what seems like for ever, he gets up throwing his chair to the floor. He walks over to me and I put my head down slightly, averting my eyes from his. Looking me over. Can you tell I hurt?

"Come."

"Yes master" we walk over to his bed.

"Take off your clothes." there's a quiver in his voice. He's been crying again.

-You're sick of feeling numb
you're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
and I'll show you a world that you can understand-

I just want to comfort him, so I obey. I start to unbutton my jacket when he throws me to the bed and straddles me. I still don't look him directly in the eyes. He leans in and smashes his mouth on mine. I start to taste metal in my mouth, he bit me…again. He pulls away and rips my jacket and forces it off of me. He goes for my neck and bits me there to, I don't even flinch, is that sick? At least this time he went for un-bruised flesh. He sucks on it while trying to take of my pants. Always has trouble with those, I reach down but he forces a growl so I let him do it. After a while he gives up and lets me take them off. He sits up ant takes his own shirt off and throws it to the floor. god he is beautiful. He takes his pants off. I turn my head and I wait for the pain. Instead I feel him pushing me inside him. I look at him in disbelief.

-This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you'll understand-

he pushes down, letting me deep inside him. He moans and I want to touch him. He leans in close to me and whispers "hold me" without hesitation I wrap my arm around him, feeling his muscular back and he slowly moves on me, I moan and lay him on his back and thrust into him "harder!" with every thrust I can feel him tearing. He grabs me and bits my neck. I thrust into him one last time and I collapse on the bed, I can hear him breathing heavy.

-Anger and agony are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go out
You'll understand-

Did I fall asleep? I sit up and see him sitting on the side of the bed.

"Master?"

"Leave." What? Did I really think it would be any different?

"Yes Master" I put on my clothes and silently walkout the door.

-I know, I know, I know, I know that you're wounded
You know, you know, you know, you know that I'm here to save you
You know, you know, you know, you know, I'm always here for you
I know, I know, I know, I know that you'll thank me later –

At least its better than nothing.