A/N: Hey, so before you get upset, I am still doing You Did What? I know it's been awhile and I have been working on it very slowly. I wish I could say it will be out soon, but I can't promise that. The next chapter is pretty far along though. Now I would like to take a moment here to explain why I've been taking so long. It's currently 9/29/2013. My last actual day off was 14 days ago. My next actual day off is in 7 days and I only get one. As many of you know I'm in school, but what you don't know is that my work is not cooperating with my school schedule at all. Instead of giving me the hours I wanted I'm almost at full time with school and literally spend almost all my free time with school stuff. I'm trying to get this sorted out. Anyways I don't want to complain, but I did want to explain whats going on. Now this story will be posted when I get to it. I have the second chapter done for it already and I may work on the third here soon. This story is in a different style and I hope you like it and it works out. The reason I post one shots and things like that instead of chapters for you did what is because I can write them much much faster. This here being like 1k words maybe takes me like 30 minutes and with short chapters or one shots, it's easier for me to get the story out. Summary = I can write these much faster and I honestly don't ever put too much thought into them. This one will be many short chapters, I have no idea how many, but I do know whats going to happen in this story. :)

Sorry for the super long authors note I just really wanted to explain everything that is going on. Please don't be afraid to message me with any questions, thoughts, or concerns. It's been so long since I've talked with Fan Fiction and posted and it makes me sad. By the way for those interested, I am taking Chinese, college writing, and communications right now. Hmm I can't really think of anything else to say except, I am trying!

As always, I hope you enjoy this story, it may be a little different from what I usually do. Actually a lot different, but I think it will work. I'm not going to do a bottom A/N since this one is so long!

Have you ever had one of those days where everything is going wrong and that little voice in the back of your head just won't stop? You're ugly, you're stupid, you're not good enough, the world would be better off if you didn't exist. It's that voice that's trapped in our minds for only us to hear, for only us to be brought to the edge by. The same voice that brings tears to your eyes as you grit your teeth and tell yourself that you are strong, that you are smart, and that you do mean something to someone. That someone out there would miss if you just mysteriously vanished.

Have you ever wished that you could have done things differently or tried harder? Have you ever wished that these things that this voice reminded you of weren't so painstakingly true to yourself? Have you ever been pushed so far that death actually seemed like an option that wouldn't sound so bad?

We all experience things in our life that shape us and mold us in different ways and to varying effects. In the end though we still have our self image and though it can be strong, we can single handedley shatter it in our own mind. This leaves us vulnerable and far more open to the negative world we know as reality. If this world is able to strike us when we are like this, it not only hurts, but can leave permanent scars.

It can happen anywhere, to anyone, for any reason. But when it happens at a moment in your life that you prepared for so vigorously, this effect is doubled. . . And the voice in your head stops talking because at this point it is screaming and it's the one thing you can't run from. The only way to silence it is by ceasing to live, an option that I'm sure doesn't seem like such a bad thing at a time like this.

February 10th . . . .

"Yumi, what do you plan on making for Sachiko-sama this valentines day?" Yoshino asked as she organized her school papers in her hand. It had been just her and Yumi left in the Rose Mansion on this chilly February afternoon. The rest of the girls had already gone home but seeing as though Yoshino and Yumi were in the same classroom they decided to stay and study together. As it always happened though, they would find a way to get off topic.

Yumi could only roll her eyes and sigh as she glanced down to her finished homework. "Probably just chocolates again, how about you?" Yumi replied with a question as Yoshino gave her a look like she was passing up the perfect opportunity. Yumi could only shrug and glance away towards the clock as she spoke. "Well, I don't know what you want me say, you know I can't just tell her. Besides I'm sure she already has her eye on someone."

"You don't know that until you tell her how you feel. You don't think she would really cast you away for being. . . well, you know. . ." Yoshino said with a suggestive shrug which Yumi clearly understood as "lesbian."

"No, I don't think that. I know without a doubt she would cast me away and everyone on campus would then know what I really am." Yumi explained with a defeated sigh towards the end as Yoshino thought about her words for a moment.

"You know being a. . ."

"Lesbian?" Yumi asked as Yoshino put her head down a little like Yumi had just spoken a forbidden word in a holy temple.

"Well, yea. . . It's not a bad thing, I mean you don't have to use it so offensively. . . I mean look at me, I don't care that you like girls, you're still my friend." Yoshino said as Yumi looked at her with a raised eyebrow and sighed.

"I know that and trust me it's crossed my mind, but you still can't even bring yourself to say that word. You can't even call me what I really am, a lesbian." Yumi explained shaking her head towards the end as her voice became quieter, whenever she talked about this she got down.

"Fine, you're a lesbian. . . Happy?" Yoshino asked as Yumi glanced up to her and blinked a few times as Yoshino grew more uncomfortable. "Alright, I'm sorry. . . It's just. . . You can't say it without it sounding offensive."

Yumi just chuckled at this, this wasn't their first time having this exact conversation and it most likely wouldn't be their last. "Yoshino-san, you know I don't take offense when you say it. It's just that. . . Could you imagine my Onee-sama's face when she found out her petite soeur was a lesbian?"

"Is a lesbian, you mean?" Yoshino countered quickly as Yumi opened her mouth but just nodded instead of speaking. "I get your point, but I still think no harm could be done. Sachiko-sama trusts you and loves you. You are the only one she will open up to and I don't think you being a lesbian would hurt that."

"Until she found out my feelings for her weren't sisterly. That is when things would get bad." Yumi replied as Yoshino sighed, there was no getting through to Yumi. She would need to resort to different tactics.

"You can think what you want, Yumi-san. I bet if you told her you would be surprised by the answer." Yoshino said with a grin as if she knew something which Yumi just rolled her eyes at.

"Why don't we get going, it's getting late?" Yumi asked as she started to gather her things and stood from the chair.

"Fine, fine, but promise you will think about telling her. If you don't say anything nothing will ever happen." Yoshino reminded Yumi who just looked away with a thoughtful yet depressed expression on her face.

"I'll think about it." Yumi replied even if it was just to satisfy her friends desire for an answer. She knew she couldn't actually tell Sachiko. She couldn't tell the pristine, beautiful, elegant, graceful, and amazingly wonderful campus queen that she loved her. Fairy tales belonged in books and in movies, Yumi knew the cold reality of life was cruel and twisted. It had no place for fairy tale endings.