hello thank you for reading, this is a songfic about what roy would do if he lost riza on the promised day. thank you for reading and please drop a review (good or bad) :D ENJOY!
Send away for a priceless gift
he seals the letter he will never send
One not subtle, one not on the list
a letter with words left unsaid
Send away for a perfect world
he had his eyes set on a better world
One not simply so absurd
she pushed him, she is why he is the man he is today
In these times of doing what you're told
she always stood by him
Keep these feelings no one knows
"to hell and back" he laughs and downs another shot "we went far further than that"
Whatever happened to the young man's heart
he sits back in his chair and sighs
Swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart
tears streak his cheeks
And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45
in his scard hand lies her gun
Swimming thru the ashes of another life
with the barrel against his forehead he takes a deep breath
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
his own words echo in his head
Starring down the barrel of a 45
"even if something happens to me, i need to know that you will stay strong hawkeye"
Send a message to the unborn child
his dreams of happiness, a better future, a family... all resided in her
Keep your eyes open for a while
he downs another shot
In a box high up on the shelf
he looks around the empty apartment. her boxes still unpacked
Left for you, no one else
no family to sort the boxes, no one to carrey on her name
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
"hawkeye" he whispers
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight
he throws the shot glass, it shatters against the wall
Whatever happened to the young man's heart
"im the reason you joined the military, im the reason you diddnt have a real life, im...im"
Swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart
"im the reason your... de-" he swallows "dead"
And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45
grabbing his bottle he walks to her bedroom
Swimming thru the ashes of another life
he sees no proof of human exsistance, just a closet containing a single pressed uniform,
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
he sees one picture that sits by her bedside
a picture taken long ago. a picture of a young short haired girl and a ravrn haired boy smiling together at a town fair. she holds a stuffed dog he won for her
And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45
holding the picture he takes another long gulp and sets the bottle down
Swimming thru the ashes of another life
"it feels like a lifetime ago now... riza"
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
his tears are stronger now
Starring down the barrel of a 45
"riza. look at me. wasted. gun to my a coward and cant even stand by my own words" he sighs
And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45
"im just... i love you"
And I'm swimming thru the ashes of another life
he pulls the trigger
There is no real reason to accept the way things have changed
and all is quiet
Starring down the barrel of a 45
he left this world their picture in his hand. a bottle at his feet. and a letter on the desk telling of a tragic tale of a man falling in love, wiith a woman who could never be his