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What Happened to us?
By Darks Light
...Tala's POV...
"Kai, it's Tala, again. I'm... never mind. I'll try you again later."
I sigh in defeat as I hang up the phone, that's probably the third message I've left tonight; maybe even the 20th one this week. I walk over to my small lounge room before slumping down on the couch, picking up a postcard off the coffee table as I do so. I stare at the postcard in somewhat utter confusion mixed with my annoyance of the events of the past week. We had been getting along so well... but then he had to leave to go to Japan; something about a reunion with his old team. I lie down on my side, knees drawn up to my chest; postcard resting lightly in my outstretched hand. I had begged him to stay here in Russia with me; it was where we belonged. However he still said that he was going to go because of what they had done for him in the past.
I smirk slightly, I guess I must have looked pretty disappointed when he told me this because he then promised he'd send me a postcard and that we'd go do something on his return; well he kept part of his promise. I place the postcard carefully on the coffee table before sitting up and glancing around my empty, dark, and lonely apartment. Sure it had always been empty, I never had many belongings; neither of us did. However, it was only after Kai's departure that the loneliness and the darkness began to sink in; the only things that brightened it was the postcard and pictures of the two of us in my room. As suspected, though, even those began to dim.
Kai had returned to Russia a week ago and I had first caught sight of him while walking down the streets to nowhere particular. I remember being so happy at his return that I had ran over and hugged him, he hugged me back but there was a difference now, he was cold, even hesitant. It was as if we were back at the Abbey where we weren't allowed to show any further companionship then what was suspected between teammates like ours. His eyes too, when I looked into them, were different. So different that I had even wondered if this person was really Kai, instead of the usual pride and superiority that shone from his crimson depths there was a mixture of regret and self-resentment. This was Kai, but these eyes, these eyes weren't his.
I shake my head, clearing my mind as I get up off the couch, proceeding towards another room. The floor is cold on my bear feet and my footsteps echo of the hallway walls; each step reminding me of how alone I really am. Ever since Kai had come home, he had always seemed busy; as though he didn't even want to see me anymore. I can tell something's not right, I just don't know what. Every time I go over to his apartment he was always busy sometimes refusing to even see me, though when I do see him, he's always the same, head bowed, gaze lowered as though something has been taken from him; something he didn't want to lose.
I try to stop thinking but my worries keep filling my mind, making it difficult to focus on anything else. I grab a pen and pad of lined paper from the spare room before heading back into the lounge room where I had left Kai's postcard. He refuses to see me and doesn't return my calls... I make a face of distaste as I stare coldly at the pen and paper I had placed on the coffee table; writing him a letter seems like my only other option.
"Just great," I mumble. I move to sit on the floor, pulling the coffee table towards me so I could lean against the couch. I'm not good at expressing my emotions, let alone writing them down...where do I start? So much has happened... well maybe more so, to much of nothing has happened.