Chapter One:
She drove down the high way with the windows wide open even though it couldn't be more then forty degrees outside. "Lost in Stereo" by All Time Low blared from the radio. Cars zoomed by and to everyone she was just another person on the high way headed somewhere. But she wasn't headed anywhere. She was running away, running away from the mess her life turned into. Like that quote," She smashed the rearview with her fist because starting today she was never looking back." She wasn't going to look back because there wasn't anything to look back to. How she ended up like this didn't even matter anymore because it was all over now..
LET'S TAKE IT BACK TO WHERE IT ALL STARTED
I walked down the hallway with my best friend Thomas who was rambling on about how high he going to get at the party tonight. "Lacey! Shit I'm talking here, what the fuck are you looking at?" Thomas said. " Sorry" I replied and that seemed to do the trick because he went back to talking about the party. But I wasn't really paying attention all I saw was her, her being my friend Ella who happened to be bi. The way I looked at her scared even me, it wasn't how a friend was supposed to look at a friend. I was insanely jealous I had to admit as I watched her flirt with one of the rocker guys from our school. Now if you haven't figured it out by now the way I felt about Ella was more than friendly. This scared the living shit out of me because I for one had never had feelings for another girl in all my 17 years of life. So what the hell was going on with her? She had been feeling like this for a little over a month now.
She hadn't told anyone because she just couldn't. Her friends wouldn't understand, telling Ella was too embarrassing and it would be even worse when she rejected me. I most definitely couldn't tell my mom because my mom had always had her prejudices about gay girls. She could tell Thomas but every time she tried to she just lost the courage to do so.
**A few hours later **
The music was loud, smoked filled the air and most of the people at the party were fucked up. Lacey was almost ready to go home but she couldn't leave just yet she needed a few more hours, a few more drinks or blunts to feel free, to feel like nothing at all was bothering her. An old, old flame grabbed her and pulled her to the dance floor. They started dancing and rubbing against each other, the weed evident in his breath. He grabbed Lacey by the waist and pushed her up against the closest wall and kissed her softly. She couldn't help but kiss back and there were there for what seemed like forever. Once they broke apart, Lacey opened her eyes to find her friend Claire giving her a "wtf" look and Ella standing there smirking. She walked over to them and as soon as she got there Claire shouted" WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT LACEY? I thought you guys were over."
"look I am so fucked up right now I can't even tell if you are a girl or boy right now", I joked. " Claire rolled her eyes and said "whatever just try not to do anything stupid, please, get home safely please! Mira Ella you are in charge of getting her home." For the first time Ella spoke up "oh Claire I think it's a little too late for that anyways Lacey is going to go home right now."
" I am? Who knew"
" Yeah you are, you are a danger to society when you are like this." Ella responded.
" ha funny! Well take me home personal driver" I shot back
"gladly! You are much more fun when you are willing to do anything freaky..so I enjoy this side of you." Ella said and then winked. Fucked up and all that little comment and wink still sent chills down my spine.
" C'mon let's get you home lacey." Ella smiled.
**A few weeks later**
My sceret was still burning a hole in my conscious and it was slowly driving mad so today was the day that i Lacey was going to tell Thomas about it. i didnt know how to approach it or even how to start the conversation but either way i was going to tell him. 5th period rolled around and Thomas still hadnt showed up for school, so much for today being the day i would tell him. Ella kept asking me what was wrong and why i was so quiet and i felt like screaming at her what do you care? I was mad at me , i was mad at her, i was just mad because i was hurt. A few days ago Ella broke my heart without even intending to or notcing she did. She was talking to me about how she was at a party where she was completely and totally wasted and the girl she had a thing for was there but all she was doing was hanging out with her boyfriend. It broke her heart and she broke mines while she described how beautiful, smart and funny she was. I just wanted this day to end and go home to my room, stick my headphones on and drown out the world.