A/N Set S3, Ryan wasn't so insistent on going on the road trip, so he went to see Marissa instead.

'Well there is one other thing I could do to get the money.' Sadie announced to a rather confused looking Ryan.

'And what's that then?' Ryan asked.

'Johnny's dad, he owes Gwen like 10 years worth of child support and if I can get it off him then that would be more than enough money than Gwen needs.'

'Well then I think a little road trip is in order.' Ryan said.

'No,' Sadie shouted.

'Why not?' Ryan asked confused once again.

'Because I'm already going with her.' Volchok said as he walked into the kitchen.

'What – What you're choosing him over me!' Ryan shouted.

'Yes! Yes okay Ryan I am.' Sadie answered back.

Volchok walked over to Sadie and but his arm around her shoulder and started to wander around her body – She didn't seem to mind, in fact Sadie was very responsive to Volchok.

'What's your problem bitch, you have a girlfriend – remember, Marissa Cooper perfect in every way.' Volchok played.

He could see that Ryan was starting to get clearly annoyed.

'You know if you go on this road trip well then Marissa would be all alone and only Volchok would be there for her.' Sadie smirked.

It was only there when Ryan Atwood noticed that he truly realised he was still in love with Marissa, now more than ever – forever and always.

'You guys just go and fuck yourself – and don't come back fucking idiots!' Ryan shouted storming out to his SUV.

Wow, what the hell? I think I just had one of Summer's rage blackouts. Ryan thoughtto himself.

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There was only one place he could go, one place where he knew Marissa would be, one place that everyone came to brood.

The lifeguard stand – She only went there when she was upset.

And that was what he did to her; he upset her and hurt her – all over again.

He had to make this right – he loved Marissa.

'Ryan?' He heard a voice from behind.

'Marissa?' Ryan said.

'What are you doing here?' Marissa asked.

'Well I need to talk to you actually.'

'What about.' Marissa said signalling Ryan to sit down beside her.

'About us,' Ryan answered sitting down beside her. 'I think that the last few months for us haven't been easy with Johnny and Trey and the Harbor stuff and I know that I haven't been the best boyfriend to you but,'

'Did you come here to break-up with me?' Marissa asked worried.

'No, no of course not, no Marissa I was just getting the bad stuff out of the way so we could move on to the good stuff.' Ryan smiled, reassuring her.

'Well that's all right then.' Marissa smiled.

'I'm so sorry Riss, if I made you doubt our relationship or hurt you – but I love you more than anything else and I will do anything to make it up to you.'

'Ryan, I think it should be me saying that to you – I love you too. The Johnny thing I didn't love him Ry, I didn't – I wrote him a letter the day he died that said that I loved you and that Johnny and I would only ever be friends and only friends.' Marissa admitted.

'So Johnny took it really bad and got drunk – and that's why he got up that cliff.' Ryan guessed.

'Yes, of course I was sad that he died and everything – but it was mostly guilt about how I helped him die, it made me sick Ryan, I couldn't cope with it so I tried to push everything away and hope that it would make everything all right but it didn't it just made things worse – and I nearly lost you to Sadie and I nearly started going of the tracks with Volchok. My relationship with my mom is terrible and Summer's not particularly talking to me and Seth – well Seth is Seth.'

Ryan laughed at Marissa's comment about Seth.

'So from now on, Marissa Cooper we will be honest to each other no matter what it's about and trust each other and…' Ryan got cut off.

'Love each other.' Marissa finished.

A/N This is a 2-parter story btw, I hope you enjoyed it.