Broken Heart
By Mina Kon
Title: Broken Heart
Plot: Implied Hermione/Ron
Disclaimer: Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley belong solemnly to J. K. Rowling
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"Who do you like, Ron?"
"Lavender"
How that shattered my heart. I nearly felt it break in pieces.
Then silence. Just silence.
I tried to talk, but no words left my mouth. I wasn't feeling anything, indeed. I was in a tremendous shock.
Why? Deep inside, I knew it, I knew you loved her. But I also hoped that you loved me instead of her…The sweet way you acted towards me, always consoling me when I was sad "Even when I didn't let anyone do that", the way you searched for my company.
The way you made me feel important
Flashes of those moments came to me, as I felt my eyes burning. But you were waiting for an answer. And I gave it to you.
"Congrats"
What else could I do? A scene? Please, that's just stupid. You don't deserve that.
And the tears just wouldn't fall…
Then I suddenly left that trance and bumped you with questions: "Why?", "What do you fell towards her?", "Why do you love her?"
"Why her?"
Just like that, no ceremony, no holding backs. That's what makes our friendship so special. We are never afraid to ask, never afraid to say. We don't have formalities between ourselves.
And you couldn't tell me why do you loved her…its engraved deep inside, isn't it? But you should pull it back love, do it. Just like I did. I never liked to be in the shadows afer all.
But enough with me, let's try to help you now. You deserve. You'd deserve even if I didn't love you.
You're special.
"Should I tell her?" - you asked me. Things like that make me so happy. That you care about what I'd say, that you find my opinion important. Silly, hun?
"Yes you should." – I answered without thinking twice. If you two get along, I'll be happy for you. If you don't, at least you tried…
That's just love, isn't it? Forget yourself towards someone.
"If anything goes wrong, I'll blame you Hermione" – you said, mocking me as you always do.
"Don't say that. I only want you to be happy."
At least you should be happy.
I left you then. I couldn't take it anymore. The tears that I could never share burned in my eyes.
But still, they didn't fell
Your happiness is my happiness
"Denial" – I kept telling myself – "Denial and doubt. I'm in that section of pain".
Finally alone, I have up on sadness.
And tears fell, one by one then an unstoppable flood. Each one was my hurt, my pride, my shame. Shame for crying, shame for being selfish.
Each one hurt a lot.
I just cried then, for times and times, but no sound was heard. What a stupid way to cry it is. So quiet, so shameful, so full of regrets.
But it hurts so much…
It hurts…it hurts…
"Ron" – I murmur, to no one – "I love you".
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The next morning I felt a little better. It's true that dreams can heal sometimes…
Now I kept studying and studying, so that I didn't fell the pain again. Avoiding it.
But then he came again. And I was surprised to see that I felt no pain when I was with you. Your company heals, even though you don't know it. The laughs and plays we share together, that heals me. And that's enough for now. It has to be enough.
For I don't ever want to lose you. Never.
The End
No big talking this time. I too, loved someone who doesn't feel the same for me. Despite of that, we're very close, and I don't want to lose that. So I won't say nothing, and we'll continue the good friends we are
Dedicated to him (even if the won't read it, luckily )
Kissies, Mina