A/N: first slash. bear with me. right now i'm not sure of the rating so i'm just gonna put it under T and see where that goes. May change later.

Disclaimer: of course I don't own BTR.

*Beep beep* the incessant ringing of Kendall's alarm rang through his room reminding him it was the first day of senior year. Kendall groaned and rolled over at the thought of going through this year without his boyfriend by his side. Pushing his head further into the pillow under him and covering another on top, he tried to silence the sound without actually having to turn it off but he was failing miserably. Suddenly his phone rang next to it thus creating an even more annoying sound and forced Kendall to wake up.

"WHAT!" he screeched into the phone without even glancing at the caller ID.

"Excuse me did someone wake up on the wrong side of the bed this morning?" His angelic voice spoke.

"Ugh it's like 6:45. Why are you up already?" Kendall questioned irate forgetting momentarily where his boyfriend was.

"Well it's midday here where I am…" The voice spoke softly.

"Oh. Yeah…I forgot you were in London…"Kendall sighed sadly 'he's halfway across the world from you duh'.

"It's your first day of senior year! Why aren't you more excited?" He asks.

"…'Cause you're not here…" Kendall replied somberly.

"Kendall, we talked about this, you can't think like that forever. You have to go out and enjoy this year. You'll be with me soon. Right now focus on your senior year, it's supposed to be the best one. You have to know mine was and I want the same for you. So stop moping around about me and get excited!" His boyfriend exclaimed lively.

Kendall couldn't stop the small smile forming on his face. Only his boyfriend could turn his frown upside down.

"Alright, alright I'll get up. Why are you calling me anyways? Don't you have class or something?" Kendall questioned again.

"Nope don't start classes for another week. I'm just calling to check up on you and make sure your first day was a good one." You could hear the smile through the phone.

"If you haven't started classes yet…why the hell did you leave so soon?"

"Because we needed to adjust to being apart from one another. The longer I stayed there, the harder it would be for you to let go. I had to leave while you were still okay with me leaving…"He explained.

"I get it…it's just I miss yo-"Kendall was cut off by a knock on his door.

"Kendall, are you up? You're sister is waiting for you at the breakfast table." His mother told him through the door.

"I'll be down in a minute mom!"

"I'll let you go now, babe. You have a good first day okay and wish Katie luck for me on her first day of high school. I love you." His boyfriend spoke.

"No! Wait, I wanted to talk some more. I miss you Logan." He replied desperately.

"Kendall you should go. Your sister is waiting for you and you don't want to be late on your first day do you?" Logan urged.

"…But…but not without you. I can't do this. I just can't." He pleaded, "I can't go to school knowing when I looked to the left your car won't be parked next to mine. That some other strange car will be there. And when I walk through the double doors you won't be waiting for me at my locker. I just can't do this Logan. I can't and I won't." Kendall whimpered trying to hold back the tears.

"Kendall…" Logan started, " I know this hard. Being apart from you is just as hard on me as it is for you but we can't do this. Be strong for me. It's not like I'm never coming back. I'm a phone call away. I'm here Kendall and I'm not going anywhere, it takes two people to make this relationship work and I need you to not give up. It's going to be hard with long distance and the time difference but we'll make it work okay? You have my heart Kendall. You have it completely. Believe in us and it'll work. Now go on and get ready for school. You can call me when you get home no matter how late you think it is over here. I want to hear all about your first day. Now go. I love you Kendall, don't forget that."

Kendall sighed knowing Logan was right, if he nagged him anymore Logan would probably end their relationship right there.

"I get it Logan, I do. It's just we've been together since my freshman year…That was three years ago, it's hard to adjust to in only three months. I want this to work. But I'm sucking it up and I'll call you when I get home. I love you so much Logan."

"I understand Kendall it takes some time, but we'll make it through. I love you too. Bye, have a great last first day."

"Bye." Kendall said and hung up. He trudged to his conjoined bathroom and washed up then after got dressed. He took one last look in the mirror, "This is as good as it's going to get." And marched down the stairs to the kitchen where his mother and sister were waiting for him.

"Oh good you're not dead!" Katie exclaimed faking relief while her mother shot her a deathly glare.

"How are you this morning Kendall?" His mother asked softly placing a plate of bacon and eggs in front of him.

"If I can make it through today, I think I'll be okay." He answered somberly with not much hope.

"Kendall it's not like he died or something. He's just halfway across the world." Katie spoke out.

"KATIE!" Their mother yelled.

"What? I'm just toughening up his skin. High school's a cruel place, mom." Katie replied.

Mrs. Knight opened her mouth to speak but Kendall cut her off "Save it, mom. It's her first day of high school…she has the next four years to eat her words." Kendall smirked evilly.