I looked out my window at the snowy scene, dammit. "So Jack Frost?" I shouted out the window of nothing, "You can take every moment possible to create snow days but not to help one little girl?! I've waited for at least one of you guardians to help me for years on counting!"

No answer.

"Jack ass…" I muttered under breath. I turned back to my room. My blank rickety room. This house is abandoned anyways, completely vacant other than yours truly. No parents, no family, no love. Not to mention no fun, hope, joy, or good dreams that these stupid 'guardians' vowed to give all children. I've heard those tales that Jamie and his friends tell about every kid stop believing because Pitch struck everyone at once, and I know its true… but couldn't they tell I was still believing? Couldn't they see my distress? But instead they call stupid Jamie the 'true believer'. Yeah sure, he was ready to give up on them in just less than a day. They also say he was Jacks 'first believer'. If he had ever bothered to find me and save me from the darkness, he would've seen that I had believed in his all this time. Before anyone.

I never had a tooth collected, I threw them out in the blizzards. I never had a true Christmas, no matter what, North never came. I never had fun, or a good dream, or any hope or Easter egg hunts. I prayed to the freaking Man in Moon, he never answered. It angers me so deeply, I don't want toys or anything, just someone. Someone to tell me its alright, to comfort me when my parents died, to give me a light in my darkness, to just be a friend. I heard that they see your light, and if your light glows, they will come. Why don't they see mine? Is it not bright enough? It should be, I believe in them more than anything.

Well, I guess now I see who the guardians really are.

The only one worth it is Pitch. He was always by me. Even if he gave me nightmares and fear, at least he was there. At least he bothered to come.

Now I look out that window without a bit of sadness, just pure anger. And hatred.

I guess that could be why I died that night.