*Facepalm* Bed, why can't I find you? XD So, I was supposed to go to sleep since it's now 12:30 a.m. and I have to get up in 6 and a half hours, but who needs sleep? Apparently not me. XD I felt like writing up something to go with my other poem (Life Raft), but with Reese's POV. Mostly because Mamahub asked me to. :) Hehe. Hope you like it. :)
Disclaimer: I don't own Person of Interest, but that would be a riot. ;D *fistpump* (And WHY did I think of Optimistically-Hopeless and her talking about the difference in writing styles when I typed this disclaimer? XD lol. Ich liebe dich, Italy. ;D)
Ejector Seat
It's never easy,
To leave the one you love,
Even if they don't know,
That you love them back.
Life isn't simple,
Cherishing someone isn't enough,
That much I know.
Too many have left me,
Betrayed me,
Disengaged from my life like an ejector seat.
Once flying without a care,
Then bombs careen through the sky,
Disintegrating my wings,
I was left plummeting towards Earth,
With nothing to fall back on,
Always hitting hard,
But I got back up.
Now it's not so easy,
Indecisive with emotions,
He never lets me in,
Only a sneak peak to get high on,
But the crash too much to bear,
Not like the others before him,
Don't bounce back as quickly as I used to,
He's the only one that's had that effect,
And it'll probably get me killed one day,
But for him,
It'll be worth it.
Subconsciously, I find myself in coldness,
Chilling my body to the core,
Standing under his window,
Shivering, but refusing to leave,
My legs won't let me.
The light radiating from the frosted glass,
It somehow warms my body,
To think of the levelheaded man,
Complete with downy sideburns,
Near sidedness and chivalry,
His image giving me fuel to survive.
Either asleep or reading,
I wouldn't know,
But I can't help but wonder,
If he's thinking about me.
Then the light goes out,
And the warm feeling drifts away,
Springtime nostalgia hit by wintery truth,
That I'm standing alone,
Waiting for him to find me,
Though he already has,
It's just not enough.
I contemplate going up there,
Scaling the stairs without hesitation,
Finding him with his usual stern look,
With perhaps a hint of kindness,
Hopefully with compassion,
And kiss him the way he deserves,
For saving me in my weakest hour,
For giving me a life,
And letting my dreams,
The ones of helping humanity,
Soar like an owl.
But my body won't allow it,
My mind going through the risks,
How much rejection would hurt,
That my heart would shatter,
With just one unloving look,
My life would be over.
I find myself, yet again,
Without courage,
Usual pride and confidence faded away,
I walk off alone.
Yes, more angst. XD I'm evil and I know it. *Gets "Sexy and I Know It" in her head. XD* ;) lol. Hope you liked it. :) And if you didn't read Life Raft, this goes along with it. ;) Sort of. XD Hope to TTYL. ;D