You know those cold nights when everything you've ever wanted was within your grasp, yet you couldn't reach out far enough to grab it, and you just ended up falling back down onto the ground gasping for air and strength? Well that's how my life was, just laying on the ground day after day, for not a single person could actually help me, nor could the save me for this place of torture.

I guess I was suppose to be an experiment. I was born to be an experiment, nothing more and nothing less. I didn't know my mother or father. I barely knew the people in the cells surrounding me. The guards, or as some of the other boys called them, Saviors, came by twice a day. Once when the sun was shining into the small window of my cell, and the next when the light was almost gone. Each day they picked out some of us, and they took us to the other rooms. One room for practice and one for different injections.

I tried not to think about it, I was just a small child, but they didn't care; they still gave me injections every other day like the rest of the boys. The older ones got injections everyday; I just hoped that we could all leave before the day where I had to get those painful injections everyday.

The guards walked through the hallways, handing out the stuff we ate once a day. A bowl of mush, everything we needed to become their soldiers was in it. I stared at the bowl placed in my cell. I didn't want to eat it, but I knew I needed to eat it. Picking up the spoon and the bowl I eat slowly.

"Hey, Finni?" the youngest of my group said from the cell next to mine. He was much smaller than me, but his strength was a lot more honed than mine.
"Yeah, what's wrong?" I sat the empty bowl on the ground carefully, if anything was broken, everyone on the cell block would be punished.
"I was just wondering why you've been so quiet lately, it's strange for you," He mumbled setting down his bowl as well,"I hope you aren't going crazy like Mark."

The delicate face of Alan looked questionably at me. Mark had been here the longest in our group. He was the strongest one out of us all. Except one day, he didn't want to listen to anyone anymore. He tried to take over the cell block, he said it was to free us all, but he started to draw attention from the guards. They didn't like his plans, no they hated him after he started saying those things.

One night the Saviors took him away, they tranquilized him and took him outside. No one heard anything about him since. I'm not sure if they regretted their decision, after all he was the strongest they had managed so far. Alan had looked up to him, so had I for that matter, we were all very quiet for a few days. It was uncommon for someone to talk about him, so to hear Alan say something about him, it well made me feel a little sad.

They say that feeling emotions aren't good. They will get us killed in battle, but I can't help but feel a little sad about it. We all looked up to him for courage, so it's just right if we feel sad about him. Today, we're suppose to have a match. I can't help but hope that I'm not being paired for fighting today.

"Who do you think they'll pick today?" Alan asked quietly. He was never this quiet before. Something must be bothering him.
"I don't know," Staring at him, his brown hair covering his eyes now. The saviors will probably cut it all off pretty soon," I just wish you the best of luck though, if you're picked."

They walked down the hall, there was 6 of them, each stopped in front of a cell. In front of my cell, and in front of Alans' cell. My breath caught in my throat, maybe we wouldn't be paired together. No- we can't be paired together because one of us would die. If we didn't fight we would both die, how could they do this? They didn't care about us. We were just their little lab rats; that's all we were suppose to be, nothing more, nothing less.

We all kept our heads down as they walked us to the arena. If someone even made a slight move to escape, they made us kill them. No, they wouldn't allow their hands to become bloody, but they made ours bloody themselves. As we reached the arena, they took us into separate rooms. An injection of blue/gray fluid and we are ready to kill each other.

My first battle I fought someone I didn't know. He looked young and weak. I almost started crying before I crushed his chest in. He didn't utter a word to me, just adverted his eyes. No screams or anything. The next one I was almost over pressed by the guy, he was a lot bigger than me, but the injection, I'm sure, gave me the strength to beat him.

" 'ey kid," the man guarding me said,"You gotta do good. Beat the shit out of the next one. The leader is watching. We've been bragging on you."

Taking a ragged breath and not lifting my eyes from the floor, I nodded. If he was watching, maybe I could get out? If I did, then I would make sure that Alan was taken care of.

Alan. This was the last match, I was hoping that it wasn't Alan, but if it wasn't, then that meant that he was dead. Either way he was dead or we were both about to die. I didn't want him to die, I didn't want to die. Shaking my head the door opened and I walked into the arena, to see the one person I didn't want to see.

Alan stood there, blood running down his nose. They should have done a better job of patching him up before this match, but why should they care? It's not like it mattered to them anyway. If I lost they were going to be in trouble and Alan would probably be killed, but if I won, Alan would die anyway.

His eyes met mine, and mine went to the ground. Our hearts pounded in our chests. Neither of us made a move. As the Saviors watched. They were getting impatient. "Go already! We don't have all day!" One shouted. I took a small step forward and Alan did the same. We stared at each other. Apologies flashing between our eyes.

I stopped thinking, I had to just do. I had to do exactly what they taught us. I had to kill him, no matter if he was a friend or foe. I had to kill him. My arms moved with trained accuracy. I just hoped he was gone before he felt what I had done to his small and fragile body.

I hope you like my story for Finni! I don't have everything typed out so just please be patient with me while I type the next chapter out~!