Author's Note: This is my first time trying at any kind of story here on so I hope that you all enjoy it. This is going to be a sort of continual story based around Yu Kanda and Allen Walker, but I am going to make it more realistic than some other stories I have read on here and will try and keep it updated/based around what really IS happening in the newer mangas (based on updated chapters on , so try and keep as up to date on there as much as possible or else you'll suffer from SPOILER MANIA!). Also, unless if it is from dream to reality (I'll make it obvious when you read) the scenes will stay in 1st person but will switch between Kanda and Allen. WARNING: WILL CONTAIN SPOILERS on Kanda's past, Alma, and Allen's involvment with the 14th, so keep updatd on the mangas as I said before! I'm going off of 's status on the series so check their newest chapters if you're not sure where you should be in the series to read this fanfic! Other than that, if this story isn't something you think you may like then don't read it! It's going be a Yullen kind of story so just a big warning, that's the point of this fanfic. But for those of you who are into all that jazz? Enjoy! :) P.S. even if you don't like Yullen, it won't turn that way for a few chapters so please read anyways? ^^"

START OF STORY- Kanda

"Is something wrong Kanda?"

I turned to face the boy sitting beside me on my right. His eyebrows were slightly furrowed together and his blue eyes looked up at me expectantly, his neck slightly craned foward. His hands were clutching the ground where it dropped into a large lake, filled with blooming lotus blossoms. I took note of his unmoving, white hair as I swear I felt the chill of a soundless wind.

I'll wait for you...

I looked back at the lake, my feet dangling over the lilly pads that floated upon its surface. My gaze became lost as I stared at one particular lotus blossom, nearly at its peak in life. I saw her face beyond it. Her hand reached for the blossom, but then the delicate flower burned with an immediate flame. The lotus, dead, sank back down to the mud, and that woman, her saddened face looking up at me, smiled slightly and then sank down with it. I reached out to her, my eyes wide, mouthing the word 'wait' as my lips refused to voice such a plea.

"Yu!"

My gaze looked back behind me as I felt myself falling into the lake, and with horror, I looked upon the Alma I knew so long ago, and Allen...

I'll wait forever...

...his bloodied corpse dangling from Alma's Innocence.

I awoke with a start, my breath coming in quick, short gasps. I could feel a heavy layer of sweat coating my entire body. I looked around at my surroundings and realized that I was in Mater. I looked down in my lap, expecting to see Alma there but in his place was crumbled rock. I stood erect and looked around quickly, hoping to see either that woman or Alma, but neither were in sight. He was dead. He was finally, actually dead. My eyebrows furrowed together in frustration, and I put my left arm to my face to try and fend of the burning tears that fell to the ground effortlessly.

"Alma...I'm so sorry...please forgive me..." And then I remembered the battle back from where I came. Thank you- Allen Walker. You being here helped me. I looked up, blinking away the now-forgotten tears. Saying his name, he made such an odd face. Did it really matter so much to him? What had happened to Allen? And everyone else? Was Allen really...the 14th?

I looked up at the hidden sky. I suppose...that since my job here was done, I had better get moving. But where to? I couldn't go back to the Order...not after all that had happened. Not after what I had done, what Alma had done. And then another question exploded in my mind. Would...Allen be welcomed back to the Order?

NEW SCENE- Allen

"We are now in a state of emergency. A Noah has been discovered within the HQ. It is currently running toward the East Beach with Allen Walker. At 22:00, we will meet up for an emergency strategy meeting. At 22:10, all exorcists will be given a mission with no time limit. Due to the situation, the pope will be issuing an imperial order. It will be delivered to everyone. As of now, we will be freezing Allen Walker's rights as an exorcist. From here on, he shall be classified as a Noah."

The sound of the Order's announcment rang in my ears, even from this great distance. Apocryphos...how such a thing could do so much damage from the inside out of the Black Order I don't think I will ever know. But one thing is for certain...I've been exiled. I can't go back, not even to warn them of the protective Innocence of the "heart". But...would it do anything to them? Was it just the Noah it was after? And if so, did that make...me...a Noah?

"That scared me, are you two okay?" I heard Tyki's voice above me, atop Timcanpy, whom was holding Road and myself in his large mouth. I furrowed my eyebrows together in confusion, I could have died, but Road had jumped in front of me to take Apocryphos's fist herself. And I saw Judgment, raised to Master's head, flash into my mind once more. I closed my eyes tightly, so that I saw stars, but I couldn't shake the horror, or the constant throbbing feeling in my head.

"I don't know..." I muttered pathetically. He sighed and reached downward to pick Road up into his arms. He ran East quickly and I followed, Tim following closely behind me. Why was I following him? He was a Noah, he was the enemy. He was my enemy.

As of now, we will be freezing Allen Walker's rights as an exorcist.

I skidded to a halt, the harsh words of the Order sinking in.

From here on, he shall be classified as a Noah.

Did that mean...I was now the enemy? Then...what did that make the Noah...to me?

NEW SCENE- Kanda

I cursed as my slowly-healing body screamed out in searing pain. I ignored it, continuing to climb the rubble of the old abandoned town. I didn't have Mugen at my side anymore, and yearned greatly for its presence. I needed to be careful now. As much as I hated to admit it, I would be useless against any Akuma, much less the Clan of Noah. As I flung myself over the edge of an opening into the coolness of the open air I inhaled quickly, appreciative of the fresh air, untainted by musty bacteria or the rust of age old blood. Where was I even going to go? I still hadn't made up my mind. Maybe I could sneak back to HQ and steal back Mugen; I was sure that they had taken it after the battle with the Noah. I wasn't sure what the outcome of it was, but it's postitive that those church bastards slunk away as everyone else fought.

"Dammit!" I spat on the ground and got up to continue walking onward. I didn't know where to go. I needed to get Mugen back, but did the Order even have it in their possession? Did the Noah have it? Did the Noah...destroy my Innocence also? My heart dropped suddenly. Mugen...what if Mugen no longer existed? What would I do? Was I...no longer an exorcist?

"Damn you Innocence..." I hated it. I always had. I cursed the Innocence in my early years, but even now I realized that I still despised it. If it wasn't for Innocence...or the church...or the Earl...or those damned Noah-! Noah. Was Allen one of the Noah? I remembered his skin, an ash gray, after I stabbed him for the last time with Mugen. I looked down at my quivering hand, stained with dried blood, of whom I don't remember. It was all my fault. I did this. If only I did something back then, if only I said something sooner, if only I looked at Alma before, if only...if only Allen didn't need to sacrifice himself to open my eyes. Alma...Allen...everyone. What have I done?

NEW SCENE- Allen

I looked off into the distance. The sun was setting and I felt a swelling pain growing in my chest. Quiet tears slowly flowed down my cheeks. I was no longer aware of where I was, I merely stared off into the ocean's horizon.

"We must go back to the Lord Millenium 14th..." Tyki started. I stared out at the ocean,a dead feeling englufing me from the inside.

"I'm not the 14th..."

"...it's not as if you can even go back there now, so why not come with us this time?" Tyki continued, ignoring me.

"I'm not a Noah..."

"You'll be welcome amoung us, the Earl would be pleased to be by your side." Tyki encouraged, throwing aside my pathetic, half-hearted denials.

"I'm not going there..."

"We'd be happy to have you with us." He looked down at me and smiled, walking up to my left side.

"...ever..."

"Then where are you going to go?" A fresh tear slid down my cheek.

"I don't know."

"Then why not join us for now?" I could sense the slight irritation in his voice.

"Because you're my enemy."

"We're family 14th," he laughed.

"I'm not the 14th."

"Yes...you are." His smile was gone. I didn't need to tear my gaze from the fading sun to know that; his tone was tight and he didn't like the conversation going in circles. Another tear slowly rolled down my face.

"I'm no fucking Noah..."

"Then what are you?" Tyki asked amused. I furrowed my head into my arms that I lied lazily down on my bent knees. I sqeezed my eyes tightly shut and felt my body heave as I let the tears come easily. My voice cracked as I cried out my only reply.

"An exorcist!"

END OF CHAPTER ONE

End Note: WELL! That seemed like a good place to stop for now, gosh my brain hurts! D: I'm not sure how this will work since I want to keep this consistent with the manga and yet I'm working ahead of what's translated online? Ought to be interesting...now I'm not saying this end diolouge is true and I'm not saying Kanda's alive in the manga, I just think this makes the story much nicer. ^^ Plus Kanda CANT die yet ( I won't let him! ^^ The base characters don't belong to me but this story does so comment and tell me what you think of for starters? :) Yay! ^^ and M rating just to be safe cause this is prolly gunna get interesting for sure later.. ^^"