I looked back at her, I couldn't believe what she was saying, I and Shane were different together, we moved heaven and earth when we were with one another.

Shane wouldn't leave me at the altar.

Before my body and mind could process what Alice has just told me, the weight held by my legs collapsed from underneath me and I went numb, I felt the tears rush down my face as I cried out in agony. I felt somebody – my mother I think put her arms around me and embrace me, I sobbed heavily into my mother's loving embrace, I knew all eyes were on me and that my friends cared greatly for me, but none of that mattered, ultimately they were Shane's friends, and I, had come into their world.

I wanted to be far away. ''I need to go'' I managed to squeak out. ''What did you say my baby?'' my mother cooed to me as she wiped my tears with her tissue. ''I need to go!'' I cried out. I rushed out of the room leaving prying eyes behind me.

I ran quickly to my room it was difficult to move in the dress. The dress, I had to get it of me, I felt so humiliated. My mother rushed behind me and quickly pulled out a keycard and swiped it, I ran into the room and started to pull my dress off, I heard something rip, I didn't care. '' Sáquelo!'' I screamed- Get it off! in Spanish.

My mother began to fluster at the buttons, to which I quickly grew impatient and ripped the dress off. I ran into the bathroom locked it and covered my face, I felt numb, I splashed my face with cold water and looked at myself in the mirror, my mind wandered, I was interrupted by my mother's voice, ''Carmen! Are you okay? Don't do something stupid'' I wiped my face and came out. My mother looked concerned. 'I'm fine'' I uttered ''I want to go home'' My mother nodded, and scuttled out of the room, I think that was the first time I have ever said anything to her and she has obliged without asking questions.

I began to throw things into a case, words and thoughts racing through my mind, ''Carmen'' my sister popped her head around the door, 'I don't want to talk about it' I said automatically 'Just help me pack' My sister obliged obediently.

I looked out of the window of the plane when we took off; I felt my mother's eyes on me.

'I'm fine' I reassured her, I reassured myself as well.

Before I knew it I was asleep, floating in my dreams where nothing could hurt me.