The Dawn of Darkness
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I could hear her heart beating rapidly as I slid her hair off of her shoulder. Her eyes were filled with fear as I brushed my lips softly across her collar bone. I could feel her blood pulsing under her skin. Slowly, I bit down, and my venom entered her body. She let out a soft whimper as my teeth sliced through her flesh, but then was silent. Her blood was so sweet. Sweeter than I remembered. I couldn't stop pulling the hot liquid into my mouth, yet I had to. I had to stop myself from killing her. I was sucking the life out of her, literally. I could not live with myself if I killed her. I was having a hard enough time living with myself while I took her soul. Bella's life... or lack there of, was in my hands.
She wanted this...
I gently peeled my lips from her shoulder. Still, I could not justify stealing her soul for an eternity as a monster.
But… This is what she wanted!
I was willing to do anything for her. Plus, I did want to spend the rest of my existence in her arms. However, it was too late to turn back now. It was a miracle that she stayed so quiet through this. I remembered the pain vividly. It was agonizing. My dear, Bella, was stronger than I thought.
I stared at her as her face twisted in pain. Still, she did not utter a single sound. I yearned to do something, anything to take the pain from her, but there was nothing I could do. The damage was done. Graduation had passed, and I gave my love her one and only wish. How she could possibly want to be a bloodthirsty monster, I still could not grasp. I had to continually remind myself that she wanted this. Watching her suffer silently hurt every part of my being. Every second that she cringed, I regretted ever biting her, for God's sake, she wanted this! I had forever taken my beloved's soul just to damn her to an eternity of darkness. An eternity as a vampire. A monster.
Three days of agonizing pain for her, and three days of horrid thoughts running through my head, and it was over. Abruptly, her face stopped twisting in pain. She opened her eyes and they were a deep crimson. I sobbed without tears as I watched her turn. I had done this to her. Bella was now a monster. Because of me. There aren't enough words to describe how awful I felt. Could she possibly forgive me? Would she still love me after what I had done?
"Bella," I breathed, taking her face in my hands. I wanted nothing but to apologize for stealing her soul, but she put a cool finger to my lips to quiet me. I was upset to find that her warmth was gone.
I pulled her into my arms and kissed her. Not one of our typical, careful kisses. This kiss was filled with passion, a passion that I could not give her before now. I no longer needed to worry about hurting her. It felt amazing not having to hold back. Her fingers traced my face tenderly and mine twined in her hair. I broke the kiss and leaned my forehead against hers. We were both gasping for the air that we did not need.
"Bella, how can you possibly still love me after that pain, after what I did? I took your soul, Bella." She silenced me once more, placing one finger gently to my lips.
"Edward, that pain was nothing compared to the pain of you leaving," she began, and I was hit with remorse. I could never forgive myself for my past arrogance. She continued, "And, you did not take my soul. I forfeited it to spend eternity with you. I gave you my soul, Edward. This is what I wanted, what I still want. Now I can be with you forever. My love for you will never diminish. No matter what happens, I'll always love you." She smiled and pressed her lips to mine once more. I didn't deserve her.