"No please." The shaking girl whispered, she shook her head at the larger boy in front of her but he just grinned as he carried on walking towards her. She looked around the dark shed he had lead her into only five minutes ago and she felt a tear roll down her pale cheek as she realized what was going to happen, as she realized what he was going to do to her. She shook her head again and stepped back, tripping over a can of paint that had been left carelessly in the middle of the shed. As she fell to the floor she heard him laugh loudly, she held back the scream that was lingering in her throat and wiped away the tears that were leaving a shiny track on her face, which looked silver in the bright moonlight. "Please, my boyfriend will come looking for me. He will kill you, just go while you can, I won't tell anyone." She looked out the window hoping she was right, wishing he would storm into the shed at any time. He just shook his head and then knelt down next to her on the floor, she watched his every movement, shaking at the thought of what could happen, what was going to happen. She closed her eyes briefly and looked away, screaming in pain when she felt a burning on her arm. She looked at him quickly and then down at her arm, realizing where the sudden shot of pain had come from. She looked at the cigarette he had chucked on the floor in shock, he just smiled down at her and started playing with her hair. She pulled away from him and clenched her shaking hand into a fist, she knew she shouldn't expose them but sometimes, like now, there was no choice. She closed her eyes, and mentally prepared herself, she quickly looked at the only exit and planned it all out. He didn't know what was coming, how could he? She smiled a bit to herself, she could easily get out of this, it would be okay.

Then he lay on top of her, she could smell the smoke on his breath, she yelled in pain when he grabbed both her wrists and pinned them down. She was helpless now, she was stuck. She just closed her eyes and prayed to a god she never had believed in, she prayed that someone would find her. She was too weak to fight him, she had always thought she was strong but this proved her wrong. She tried to kick him before he could do anything but she could hardly move, she watched him as he slid her skirt down her legs, she looked at the greed in his eyes and she just closed her own. Whatever happened she wasn't going to open them, she was frozen in fear all of a sudden. She didn't even scream from the pain, she didn't open her eyes when he slapped her across the face, she just let the tears fall from her shut eyes and turned her head to the side. It would be over soon, she kept telling herself.

I woke up suddenly, I rubbed my wet eyes and looked down at my shaking hand. Sitting up quickly, I ran to the bathroom, feeling the sick about to come up. I look at my reflection when I am done, realizing just how weak I looked, my eyes were bright red, there were dark circles underneath them, giving away the lack of sleep. I was shaking, and sweating from the nightmare. I shook my head, and stared at my own reflection, "You have to be strong Rikki, don't let anyone break you." I whisper, the truth is, I am so scared, I don't want to be strong anymore. I don't want to pretend, but I have to. I can't let anyone know what happened. I can't go through that all. .

I have changed so much since that night, anyone could see that, but I won't tell them what was wrong. I can't. It would all be too hard, I wouldn't want them to have to deal with my burden, it was mine, I should be the only one who has to live with it. I am the only one who can deal with it.

This is my secret, and it's going to stay that way.